Thursday, November 29, 2007
I went to the library yesterday. And i finally . finished my CARBONYL COMPOUNDS.~! my goodness. I realized that i forgot most of what is in ORGANIC CHEM < <<
there are no good looking guys around except for some old men at the back cover of some books!!!!!!. I;m kidding really. I noticed that the shelf with the COOKBOOKS and ART have the messiest shelves, with the most number of people browsing through the books there. When i saw the Chinese section, i made an immediate detour. Sometimes i feel so me an when i just cannot recognize Chinese characters. I wonder how come some people can master a language [y eh i have friends like that] in a matter of two years and late r go to university , studying in that language~!<
Perhaps i should face my fear and stand in front of the Ma ndarin section and read something. Oh after all, most nice comics are often in Mandarin right. But , who cares about comics. fine i know some girls do.
hahaha i read something so funny@" wh y females choose and males compete" . haha it;s so interesting. And the reason to it could be also why male. Pro.stitution is illegal. i wish i could pay more attention when i read something. This way i wouldn;t have to re read the thing 2 times in order to get the point. There are so many things to find out,,, I wish i knew more Or perhaps, i wish that i had powers like Charlie from HEROES, or KYLE from KYLEXY. Whoa. Unfortunately i am not born to be li ke one of them. kkk
Anyway i met wanting for BOBOCHA YESTERDAY!
typical me. to play safe, she met me by the escalator. hh.We had kobayashi for dindin as our dearest wanting was CRAVING for it like a woman with period craving for chocolate. After that we just got bobocha and haha sameol same ol ,sat at the si de of the iceskating rink and talked. HAHA
She got a new phone~! so this means our cam whoring days are back!! hahaa we took a couple of random pictures. We made a video, featuring wanting, on " how to m ake your face look skinny on camer a." haha/
haha the last picture is wanting grabbing a lot of chips for herself.
: )
PS ILOVEHUGS !~
off to the library~!!!!
i was so ticked off by something minor.. = =
작은 일로 화를 냈던 내 자신이 부끄럽습니다.
i wish i was more tolerant towards people.
I NEED to.
빌다~~
i think i can do it !
haha maybe ~~
there are no good looking guys around except for some
She got a new phone~! so this means our
: )
PS ILOVEHUGS !~
off to the library~!!!!
i was so ticked off by something minor.. = =
작은 일로 화를 냈던 내 자신이 부끄럽습니다.
i wish i was more tolerant towards people.
I NEED to.
빌다~~
i think i can do it !
haha maybe ~~
Labels: A random day.
what we could have been, 7:09 PM.
Tuesday, November 27, 2007
lolz this is funny~
http://www.mtvjapan.com/flvplayer/mcmsplayer.swf?plid=86&displayheight=312&displaywidth=416&startindex=1&autostart=false
Today morning i actually felt empty.
You know those kind of emptiness whereby you will wonder about
your existence
your worth
your identity
your loneliness
those kind of things
i made a prayer,
and then i went to the library and immersed myself in books
and studied some chemistry.
MY goodness. my brain seems to have partially rotted . not good news
It;s fun to just delve into the world of knowledge.
so vast, there is no end to it.
i seek her, that is understanding.
Read proverbs today.
Its scary sometimes how small you can feel when all i know is perhaps, 0.00000000000000000001 % of the things which is out there in the world. Sometimes it makes me feel incompetent. But feeling this way won;t get me anywhere.
so many categories; so many rows of bookshelves
Every book written , waiting to "out-popular" the book next to it.
Every book, written perhaps to make you cry harder than ever
Every book written in hopes of inspiring you again and again
every row
every book
every bind
every page
every print
ever so clear
behind every word there is a meaning to it,.
every meaning has more meaning and purpose to be there
i think i am going to visit the library again on friday, and for the following week, i will go there everyday!~~! i need to start studying cuz last two weeks were spent playing~~ so i think i should start reading up and studying.
i stayed in the library for about 4 hours. Being in the library in the night seems to be the best
it;s so quiet and nice~~.Too bad i cannot borrow any books. because i still owe the library a seven year old fine. haha~~~~~~
I am determined to find out my interest soon.
i will find my inner self through books
http://www.mtvjapan.com/flvplayer/mcmsplayer.swf?plid=86&displayheight=312&displaywidth=416&startindex=1&autostart=false
Today morning i actually felt empty.
You know those kind of emptiness whereby you will wonder about
your existence
your worth
your identity
your loneliness
those kind of things
i made a prayer,
and then i went to the library and immersed myself in books
and studied some chemistry.
MY goodness. my brain seems to have partially rotted . not good news
It;s fun to just delve into the world of knowledge.
so vast, there is no end to it.
i seek her, that is understanding.
Read proverbs today.
Its scary sometimes how small you can feel when all i know is perhaps, 0.00000000000000000001 % of the things which is out there in the world. Sometimes it makes me feel incompetent. But feeling this way won;t get me anywhere.
so many categories; so many rows of bookshelves
Every book written , waiting to "out-popular" the book next to it.
Every book, written perhaps to make you cry harder than ever
Every book written in hopes of inspiring you again and again
every row
every book
every bind
every page
every print
ever so clear
behind every word there is a meaning to it,.
every meaning has more meaning and purpose to be there
i think i am going to visit the library again on friday, and for the following week, i will go there everyday!~~! i need to start studying cuz last two weeks were spent playing~~ so i think i should start reading up and studying.
i stayed in the library for about 4 hours. Being in the library in the night seems to be the best
it;s so quiet and nice~~.Too bad i cannot borrow any books.
I am determined to find out my interest soon.
i will find my inner self through books
what we could have been, 7:27 AM.
Monday, November 26, 2007
看开吧！~~…︿＿＿＿＿＿＿︿
what we could have been, 7:26 PM.
Sunday, November 25, 2007
DEAR DIARY. I AM STOKED FOR CHRISTMAS.
Christmas is the best event of the year! oh i'm saying this partially because thanksgiving was recently over. heh. anyway, the best thing about Christmas has got to be family gatherings. we've got a couple of them going on right now, because Christmas time is also birthday time for those in my family, especially so as half of it is made up of Sagittariuses!
yeah so ER's birthday was just the day before. sometimes it's really hard to decide how to celebrate a birthday, especially since our family is rather big and we all have differing views. and since it is ER's birthday, we'll have to do it HER way. hh. and just like she likes it, we had steamboat and after that we went to the Mind Cafe!~~
I guess the reason why my sis likes the MC so much is partially because she worked part time there last time. i like that place too. as my dad puts it, it is a place where adults can relive their childhood and feel young again. and that means being able to break down the walls between different generations and also being able communicate better with others. well, we played a couple of games, mainly those which were mentally stimulating to a small extent. hh. the downside of the MC is that it seems that their standard of customer service has decreased drastically since the last time we patronized them. We had to wait so long just to get someone to explain a game to us, and in the end, we gave it up and played some game involving chickens instead. hh. it was really interesting, i teamed up with Ting. and I guess that too much brainpower is not too good, cause we advanced too fast in the game and caught up with DJ's hen and eventually dad's (which possessed two tails) However, due to our hesitance and anxiety, we could not quite remember which tile to choose next and hence, picked the wrong one, causing us to fall into a pile of chicken droppings. lol. don't take me literally. so DJ, being such a brainiac, managed to overtake us, and hence she won. hh.
oh and i forgot to mention, the cake we had was really delicious!~ there was a drop of wine or two in it and crunch chocolate too! hh. alright, can't wait for dad's and ting's birthday.
Christmas is the best event of the year! oh i'm saying this partially because thanksgiving was recently over. heh. anyway, the best thing about Christmas has got to be family gatherings. we've got a couple of them going on right now, because Christmas time is also birthday time for those in my family, especially so as half of it is made up of Sagittariuses!
yeah so ER's birthday was just the day before. sometimes it's really hard to decide how to celebrate a birthday, especially since our family is rather big and we all have differing views. and since it is ER's birthday, we'll have to do it HER way. hh. and just like she likes it, we had steamboat and after that we went to the Mind Cafe!~~
I guess the reason why my sis likes the MC so much is partially because she worked part time there last time. i like that place too. as my dad puts it, it is a place where adults can relive their childhood and feel young again. and that means being able to break down the walls between different generations and also being able communicate better with others. well, we played a couple of games, mainly those which were mentally stimulating to a small extent. hh. the downside of the MC is that it seems that their standard of customer service has decreased drastically since the last time we patronized them. We had to wait so long just to get someone to explain a game to us, and in the end, we gave it up and played some game involving chickens instead. hh. it was really interesting, i teamed up with Ting. and I guess that too much brainpower is not too good, cause we advanced too fast in the game and caught up with DJ's hen and eventually dad's (which possessed two tails) However, due to our hesitance and anxiety, we could not quite remember which tile to choose next and hence, picked the wrong one, causing us to fall into a pile of chicken droppings. lol. don't take me literally. so DJ, being such a brainiac, managed to overtake us, and hence she won. hh.
oh and i forgot to mention, the cake we had was really delicious!~ there was a drop of wine or two in it and crunch chocolate too! hh. alright, can't wait for dad's and ting's birthday.
what we could have been, 2:44 AM.
Saturday, November 24, 2007
i don;t feel like talking
How often,
how how often
when you feel so damn lousy
your friends come give you a pat on the shoulder
" it;s ok"
not often
open up your inbox.
your handphone.
" msn is closing down"
"meeting tomorrow"
"training tomorrow"
"tomorrow,4 pm,don;t be late"
"what homework AH"
What happened?
they all appear to cease to exist.
Diminished into nothing.
Look into the windows of their souls
what do you see?
I always look into the eyes of others .
You never know what they have seen
or been through
how many times they cried
what they have witnessed
the eyes that smile
the eyes that say " i hate"
or simply the sheer emptiness that exist in the eyes
always wondering so far away
they look at you with those eyes
and then the mind just wonders off.
i think i just need. one thing
if you knew me,
you would know what i want.
don;t you?
How often,
how how often
when you feel so damn lousy
your friends come give you a pat on the shoulder
" it;s ok"
not often
open up your inbox.
your handphone.
" msn is closing down"
"meeting tomorrow"
"training tomorrow"
"tomorrow,4 pm,don;t be late"
"what homework AH"
What happened?
they all appear to cease to exist.
Diminished into nothing.
Look into the windows of their souls
what do you see?
I always look into the eyes of others .
You never know what they have seen
or been through
how many times they cried
what they have witnessed
the eyes that smile
the eyes that say " i hate"
or simply the sheer emptiness that exist in the eyes
always wondering so far away
they look at you with those eyes
and then the mind just wonders off.
i think i just need. one thing
if you knew me,
you would know what i want.
don;t you?
what we could have been, 8:59 AM.
Friday, November 23, 2007
if Art is a form of expression,
can you listen and tell me what i feel?
tell me@!?
i don;t know what to feel.
why do you not give me any space to give you solutions.?
Why, ?
why have you gotta be so reactive all the time?
i just want a hug and someone to say
"its alright."
i can;t even get that from YOU@ ... . . .. .
in this world,roles are reversed
ah,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,
T_T. . .
can you listen and tell me what i feel?
tell me@!?
i don;t know what to feel.
why do you not give me any space to give you solutions.?
Why, ?
why have you gotta be so reactive all the time?
i just want a hug and someone to say
"its alright."
i can;t even get that from YOU@ ... . . .. .
in this world,roles are reversed
ah,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,
T_T. . .
what we could have been, 6:57 PM.
Art.
form of expression
can you listen and tell me what i feel?
tell me@!?
i don;t know what to feel.
why do you not give me any space to give you solutions.?
Why, ?
why have you gotta be so reactive all the time?
i just want a hug and someone to say
"its alright."
i can;t even get that from YOU@ ... . . .. .
in this world,
form of expression
can you listen and tell me what i feel?
tell me@!?
i don;t know what to feel.
why do you not give me any space to give you solutions.?
Why, ?
why have you gotta be so reactive all the time?
i just want a hug and someone to say
"its alright."
i can;t even get that from YOU@ ... . . .. .
in this world,
what we could have been, 6:56 PM.
Art.
Passion
a form of expression
can you listen and tell me what i feel?
tell me@!?
i don;t know what to feel.
why do you not give me any space to give you solutions.?
Why, ?
why have you gotta be so reactive all the time?
i just want a hug and someone to say
"its alright."
i can;t even get that from YOU@ ... . . .. .
in this world,
roles are reversed
You don;t even earn my respect anymore.
Passion
a form of expression
can you listen and tell me what i feel?
tell me@!?
i don;t know what to feel.
why do you not give me any space to give you solutions.?
Why, ?
why have you gotta be so reactive all the time?
i just want a hug and someone to say
"its alright."
i can;t even get that from YOU@ ... . . .. .
in this world,
roles are reversed
You don;t even earn my respect anymore.
what we could have been, 6:24 PM.
Thursday, November 22, 2007
i was at vivo this afternoon
i met DJ AND TIng and we watched ENCHANTED!!!
IT IS A NICE MOVIE. lol
there is one particular comment i liked in the movie.
" why let a bad memory overpower a good memory"
or smth like that.
It;s so true, that we always remember the bad things and forget the nice things which people have done. or whatsoever.
The girl in the movie is so overly positive!@
" its a lovely day isn;t it "
" i feel WondErFul~! "
" She Looks So BeAuTiFul~~"
"doesn;t she have the most SPaRklY EyEs in the world?~?~"
hahaha she;s so happy about everything
Girl :"YOU MAKE ME SO, , , so so ,,, so ANGRY~!!!!!OH OH OH ~~ HAHAHHA I AM ANGRY~!!~~~~!!"
Dude : " how are you feeling "
Girl :" i feel wonderful`!~ OH~~~o h oh~!!~~! I AM angry~!!~~~!~~!~"
hahha
it;s a really sweet movie and the selection of the lead actress,Amy Adams, for this movie is really a good pick, She really Portrays a PRINCESS from a fairytale. haha.
hhmmmm,,,,,,,,,,,,
i cannot believe i spent 4 hours walking around and emerged out of the shopping mall with TWOBASIC plain tops.\
both are BLACK in colour
i think i must be insane.
Four precious hours of my short life lei@
i am such a boring and dull person
Nothing really looks specially nice to me.
Everything looks ok to me.
Diamonds in a pile of faeces does not look nice right?
Cuz i have no taste!
haha it sucks to have no taste.
but its ok.
haha~~~~
i shall now komplain. just let me rant.
human beings are so troublesome.
Hair not straight. fine you rebond. Rebond it and you burn a hole in your pocket, some hair get daamaged like @#$ and your hair grows out in a strange wayward manner [ for some people ]
If TEETH NOT STRAIGHT, GET BRACES. never check up regularly your teeth becomes crooked. get braces, say byebye to 3K!!!
Girls esp.
Got period. must spend money to buy THE BREAD.
"check for me"
mood swings
CRAVE fro chocolate
PMS <>
cannot swim
stomach cramp
cannot eat pineapple drink cold drinks BLAH
then, if your period doesnt come, then you should see a doctor in case there is something wrong inside of you.
Too fat, kena ostracized
not outgoing, kena ostracized, you are called EMO if you are not outgoing. and this,in my opinion is the lamest comment ever.
ugly, kena ostracized.
haha.
Man i feel so bad if i would have to spend 3k on the pathetic set of teeth i have.
And i still have to see a doctor just because the bloody period refuses to come
haha and my hair makes me look so perplexed though i try to do so many things about it .
Ingrown hairs get on your nerves.
stupid brain : ( : (
Life sucks when you don;t have what you want
mafan mafan mafan@~~ Troublesome~~~!!!!!!
But even then, if you were to ask me what i wanted,
i don;t even know what to reply : (
i met DJ AND TIng and we watched ENCHANTED!!!
IT IS A NICE MOVIE. lol
there is one particular comment i liked in the movie.
" why let a bad memory overpower a good memory"
or smth like that.
It;s so true, that we always remember the bad things and forget the nice things which people have done. or whatsoever.
The girl in the movie is so overly positive!@
" its a lovely day isn;t it "
" i feel WondErFul~! "
" She Looks So BeAuTiFul~~"
"doesn;t she have the most SPaRklY EyEs in the world?~?~"
hahaha she;s so happy about everything
Girl :"YOU MAKE ME SO, , , so so ,,, so ANGRY~!!!!!OH OH OH ~~ HAHAHHA I AM ANGRY~!!~~~~!!"
Dude : " how are you feeling "
Girl :" i feel wonderful`!~ OH~~~o h oh~!!~~! I AM angry~!!~~~!~~!~"
hahha
it;s a really sweet movie and the selection of the lead actress,Amy Adams, for this movie is really a good pick, She really Portrays a PRINCESS from a fairytale. haha.
hhmmmm,,,,,,,,,,,,
i cannot believe i spent 4 hours walking around and emerged out of the shopping mall with TWOBASIC plain tops.\
both are BLACK in colour
i think i must be insane.
Four precious hours of my short life lei@
i am such a boring and dull person
Nothing really looks specially nice to me.
Everything looks ok to me.
Diamonds in a pile of faeces does not look nice right?
Cuz i have no taste!
haha it sucks to have no taste.
but its ok.
haha~~~~
i shall now komplain. just let me rant.
human beings are so troublesome.
Hair not straight. fine you rebond. Rebond it and you burn a hole in your pocket, some hair get daamaged like @#$ and your hair grows out in a strange wayward manner [ for some people ]
If TEETH NOT STRAIGHT, GET BRACES. never check up regularly your teeth becomes crooked. get braces, say byebye to 3K!!!
Girls esp.
Got period. must spend money to buy THE BREAD.
"check for me"
mood swings
CRAVE fro chocolate
PMS <>
cannot swim
stomach cramp
cannot eat pineapple drink cold drinks BLAH
then, if your period doesnt come, then you should see a doctor in case there is something wrong inside of you.
Too fat, kena ostracized
not outgoing, kena ostracized, you are called EMO if you are not outgoing. and this,in my opinion is the lamest comment ever.
ugly, kena ostracized.
haha.
Man i feel so bad if i would have to spend 3k on the pathetic set of teeth i have.
And i still have to see a doctor just because the bloody period refuses to come
haha and my hair makes me look so perplexed though i try to do so many things about it .
Ingrown hairs get on your nerves.
stupid brain : ( : (
Life sucks when you don;t have what you want
mafan mafan mafan@~~ Troublesome~~~!!!!!!
But even then, if you were to ask me what i wanted,
i don;t even know what to reply : (
Labels: TRASHY
what we could have been, 6:32 AM.
i was at vivo this afternoon
i met DJ AND TIng and we watched ENCHANTED!!!
IT IS A NICE MOVIE. lol
there is one particular comment i liked in the movie.
" why let a bad memory overpower a good memory"
or smth like that.
It;s so true, that we always remember the bad things and forget the nice things which people have done. or whatsoever.
The girl in the movie is so overly positive!@
" its a lovely day isn;t it "
" i feel WondErFul~! "
" She Looks So BeAuTiFul~~"
"doesn;t she have the most SPaRklY EyEs in the world?~?~"
hahaha she;s so happy about everything
Girl :"YOU MAKE ME SO, , , so so ,,, so ANGRY~!!!!!OH OH OH ~~ HAHAHHA I AM ANGRY~!!~~~~!!"
Dude : " how are you feeling "
Girl :" i feel wonderful`!~ OH~~~o h oh~!!~~! I AM angry~!!~~~!~~!~"
hahha
it;s a really sweet movie and the selection of the lead actress,Amy Adams, for this movie is really a good pick, She really Portrays a PRINCESS from a fairytale. haha.
hhmmmm,,,,,,,,,,,,
i cannot believe i spent 4 hours walking around and emerged out of the shopping mall with TWOBASIC plain tops.\
both are BLACK in colour
i think i must be insane.
Four precious hours of my short life lei@
i am such a boring and dull person
Nothing really looks specially nice to me.
Everything looks ok to me.
Diamonds in a pile of faeces does not look nice right?
Cuz i have no taste!
haha it sucks to have no taste.
but its ok.
haha~~~~
i shall now komplain. just let me rant.
human beings are so troublesome.
Hair not straight. fine you rebond. Rebond it and you burn a hole in your pocket, some hair get daamaged like @#$ and your hair grows out in a strange wayward manner [ for some people ]
If TEETH NOT STRAIGHT, GET BRACES. never check up regularly your teeth becomes crooked. get braces, say byebye to 3K!!!
Girls esp.
Got period. must spend money to buy THE BREAD.
"check for me"
mood swings
CRAVE fro chocolate
PMS < People.Must.Siam.>
cannot swim
stomach cramp
cannot eat pineapple drink cold drinks BLAH
then, if your period doesnt come, then you should see a doctor in case there is something wrong inside of you.
Too fat, kena ostracized
not outgoing, kena ostracized, you are called EMO if you are not outgoing. and this,in my opinion is the lamest comment ever.
ugly, kena ostracized.
haha.
Man i feel so bad if i would have to spend 3k on the pathetic set of teeth i have.
And i still have to see a doctor just because the bloody period refuses to come
haha and my hair makes me look so perplexed though i try to do so many things about it .
Ingrown hairs get on your nerves.
mafan mafan mafan@~~ Troublesome~~~!!!!!!
i met DJ AND TIng and we watched ENCHANTED!!!
IT IS A NICE MOVIE. lol
there is one particular comment i liked in the movie.
" why let a bad memory overpower a good memory"
or smth like that.
It;s so true, that we always remember the bad things and forget the nice things which people have done. or whatsoever.
The girl in the movie is so overly positive!@
" its a lovely day isn;t it "
" i feel WondErFul~! "
" She Looks So BeAuTiFul~~"
"doesn;t she have the most SPaRklY EyEs in the world?~?~"
hahaha she;s so happy about everything
Girl :"YOU MAKE ME SO, , , so so ,,, so ANGRY~!!!!!OH OH OH ~~ HAHAHHA I AM ANGRY~!!~~~~!!"
Dude : " how are you feeling "
Girl :" i feel wonderful`!~ OH~~~o h oh~!!~~! I AM angry~!!~~~!~~!~"
hahha
it;s a really sweet movie and the selection of the lead actress,Amy Adams, for this movie is really a good pick, She really Portrays a PRINCESS from a fairytale. haha.
hhmmmm,,,,,,,,,,,,
i cannot believe i spent 4 hours walking around and emerged out of the shopping mall with TWOBASIC plain tops.\
both are BLACK in colour
i think i must be insane.
Four precious hours of my short life lei@
i am such a boring and dull person
Nothing really looks specially nice to me.
Everything looks ok to me.
Diamonds in a pile of faeces does not look nice right?
Cuz i have no taste!
haha it sucks to have no taste.
but its ok.
haha~~~~
i shall now komplain. just let me rant.
human beings are so troublesome.
Hair not straight. fine you rebond. Rebond it and you burn a hole in your pocket, some hair get daamaged like @#$ and your hair grows out in a strange wayward manner [ for some people ]
If TEETH NOT STRAIGHT, GET BRACES. never check up regularly your teeth becomes crooked. get braces, say byebye to 3K!!!
Girls esp.
Got period. must spend money to buy THE BREAD.
"check for me"
mood swings
CRAVE fro chocolate
PMS < People.Must.Siam.>
cannot swim
stomach cramp
cannot eat pineapple drink cold drinks BLAH
then, if your period doesnt come, then you should see a doctor in case there is something wrong inside of you.
Too fat, kena ostracized
not outgoing, kena ostracized, you are called EMO if you are not outgoing. and this,in my opinion is the lamest comment ever.
ugly, kena ostracized.
haha.
Man i feel so bad if i would have to spend 3k on the pathetic set of teeth i have.
And i still have to see a doctor just because the bloody period refuses to come
haha and my hair makes me look so perplexed though i try to do so many things about it .
Ingrown hairs get on your nerves.
mafan mafan mafan@~~ Troublesome~~~!!!!!!
Labels: TRASHY
what we could have been, 6:32 AM.
Wednesday, November 21, 2007
i decided to find out more about myself
so i shall go shopping~ ALONE! tomorrow. haha i hope .
i will definitely find myself~!!!~~~ ^_^
Today i got to kick a guy , peter, during training , hahaa~~and we also learned counter attack techniques. i partnered with a senior for this one. it involved hugging the opponent, and haha~~
sometimes i think i am insane, i am always laughing at everything during training.
hmm so had dinner with pet;sam;X.jing ~! The guys were talking a whole lot about games, which of course we girls had no clue about. But it made me realise that, MAN THEY PLAY A LOT OF GAMES. = =haha~~~ i don;t know how people can afford the time to do so lei~! i can;t~~ - -
hh
umm and in the evening, i went to riverwalk for biblestudy and it was about Baptism in the holy spirit~
anyway anyway,,`~
Do you think i laugh too much ? and at small nitty gritty things ?
do you find it annoying? rude?
I don;t know manz@@ just wish i knew how to laugh properly == meaning at the right time of course~ aha
so i shall go shopping~ ALONE! tomorrow. haha i hope .
i will definitely find myself~!!!~~~ ^_^
Today i got to kick a guy , peter, during training , hahaa~~and we also learned counter attack techniques. i partnered with a senior for this one. it involved hugging the opponent, and haha~~
sometimes i think i am insane, i am always laughing at everything during training.
hmm so had dinner with pet;sam;X.jing ~! The guys were talking a whole lot about games, which of course we girls had no clue about. But it made me realise that, MAN THEY PLAY A LOT OF GAMES. = =haha~~~ i don;t know how people can afford the time to do so lei~! i can;t~~ - -
hh
umm and in the evening, i went to riverwalk for biblestudy and it was about Baptism in the holy spirit~
anyway anyway,,`~
Do you think i laugh too much ? and at small nitty gritty things ?
do you find it annoying? rude?
I don;t know manz@@ just wish i knew how to laugh properly == meaning at the right time of course~ aha
Labels: TRASHY
what we could have been, 7:17 AM.
Tuesday, November 20, 2007
Quit haha-ing
Quit taking like you can when you can;t
Quit it.
Stop it.
its your choice;
Watch what you say.
haha, i have to lie to myself because if i don;t then i will be in greater trouble.
o~ .. .
Quit taking like you can when you can;t
Quit it.
Stop it.
its your choice;
Watch what you say.
haha, i have to lie to myself because if i don;t then i will be in greater trouble.
o~ .. .
Labels: TRASHY
what we could have been, 7:11 PM.
Monday, November 19, 2007
yesterday, we had Combined training with Together with the other jcs at the NTC.
The trainer, a national player, is really good! Sir Eric and her seem to have similar training styles and techniques.
The floor was matted, it is something similar to that of a child;s playroom. Makes us feel safe to roll over the floor , hhaha i wish my room was carpeted like that too. Yeh and we got to learn some variations of kicks.The tips she shared was quite insightful and interesting. haha i wish i could learn more, but my mind was dead at that time so i just switched off= =
i made a new friend there, and haha i am shocked that we made quick friends. haha~~ have quite a lot in common - we are both VP-D. haha~
LOL. i heard mum quarrel with someone yesterday. then i thought.
여자들 싸움은 매우 터무니 없지만 웃기다 < <>
then i thought of this.
" because girls are troublesome , hence gays exist." and.... .
"because girls are troublesome, hence i refuse to be lesbian!"
hahha~~
but of course, it is not true about the gay thing .. k k k k~
anyway~
umm haha i have been listening to chris; brown's SAY GOODBYE for quite some time now. If you really knew me, you would know that i always listen to a song i like many times and not get sick of it easily. haha,
Whenever i listen to the song, it makes me feel emotional. lol or maybe like . . 마음이아퍼. .but i like it~!나 이상하지 그렇지? kkk~
and yesterday i played it throughout the entire night, by accident~! play until the battery of my hand phone was totally used up = = hahaha
the reason i am mentioning this is because,, a thought struck me.
I remember someone telling me/ watching some tv show/ hearing about,, people learning things subconsciously. For example, they are asleep and they listen to some language cd repeatedly, and the next day, they can recite the content for you .lol~
i know the lyrics of this song already ,so it is not a fair experiment, haha EJ and ting suggests that i should listen to some Korean rap or something ~~ hahahha`!!!!!
so i;ll find some song to try out the experiment~!!LOL
we;ll find out soon shall we~? kkkk,,
right! should get started on hol homework already. you guys didn;t forget right? haha~~have an awesome holiday guys! you will never have a holiday like this the moment you step into the workforce as slaves to the economy. i;m kidding, really.
The trainer, a national player, is really good! Sir Eric and her seem to have similar training styles and techniques.
The floor was matted, it is something similar to that of a child;s playroom. Makes us feel safe to roll over the floor , hhaha i wish my room was carpeted like that too. Yeh and we got to learn some variations of kicks.The tips she shared was quite insightful and interesting. haha i wish i could learn more, but my mind was dead at that time so i just switched off= =
i made a new friend there, and haha i am shocked that we made quick friends. haha~~ have quite a lot in common - we are both VP-D. haha~
LOL. i heard mum quarrel with someone yesterday. then i thought.
여자들 싸움은 매우 터무니 없지만 웃기다 < <>
then i thought of this.
" because girls are troublesome , hence gays exist." and.... .
"because girls are troublesome, hence i refuse to be lesbian!"
hahha~~
but of course, it is not true about the gay thing .. k k k k~
anyway~
umm haha i have been listening to chris; brown's SAY GOODBYE for quite some time now. If you really knew me, you would know that i always listen to a song i like many times and not get sick of it easily. haha,
Whenever i listen to the song, it makes me feel emotional. lol or maybe like . . 마음이아퍼. .but i like it~!
and yesterday i played it throughout the entire night, by accident~! play until the battery of my hand phone was totally used up = = hahaha
the reason i am mentioning this is because,, a thought struck me.
I remember someone telling me/ watching some tv show/ hearing about,, people learning things subconsciously. For example, they are asleep and they listen to some language cd repeatedly, and the next day, they can recite the content for you .lol~
i know the lyrics of this song already ,so it is not a fair experiment, haha EJ and ting suggests that i should listen to some Korean rap or something ~~ hahahha`!!!!!
so i;ll find some song to try out the experiment~!!LOL
we;ll find out soon shall we~? kkkk,,
right! should get started on hol homework already. you guys didn;t forget right? haha~~have an awesome holiday guys! you will never have a holiday like this the moment you step into the workforce as slaves to the economy. i;m kidding, really.
what we could have been, 11:26 PM.
Sunday, November 18, 2007
LOLZ read this joke~! haha
Subject: Pastor's Business Card
A new pastor was visiting in the homes of his parishioners. At one
house it seemed obvious that someone was at home, but no answer came
to his repeated knocks at the door.
Therefore, he took out a business card and wrote "Revelation 3:20" on
the back of it and stuck it in the door.
When the offering was processed the following Sunday, he found that his card had been returned. Added to it was this cryptic message,
"Genesis 3:10."
Reaching for his Bible to check out the citation, he broke up in gales of laughter.
> Revelation 3:20 begins "Behold, I stand at the door and knock."
> Genesis 3:10 reads, "I heard your voice in the garden and I was afraid for I was naked."
L O L . . .
Anyway Church this morning was really interesting~~ Pastor.Phi| was painting while he preached about the CROSS.
How it is our CHOICE, to accept Jesus.
Choices .. k kk
anywayz , i went with the cg to eat at bugis and i went home and oh~! hahaha
Dinner on sundays seem to be a little too much, EJ says we overeat every sunday . lol . mum insists on cooking a lot. When i say it;s too much, she never agrees, and at the end of the dinner, there will be leftovers in which she will ask us to finish up everything~![ CALORIE OVERLOAD PLEASE]haha~~ ~
IT SEEMED LIKE IT WAS GAMES NIGHT TODAY~, we played coda and honestly, i suck at the game. Ting broke a record to die in the game at such an early stage. As usual, DJ, the smart woman, owned us at the game.i highly recommend this game ~ it;s very fun. You get to see the personalities of different people through games like these. You can also tell how bad they are at playing [ like me]. haha.
i was supposed to meet my bestfriend today, but i think my bestfriend forgot about it .. , but it;s ok~ i forgive ~~ haha~
dear diary.
i feel horrible sometimes, and i think many people do feel like this sometimes. Sometimes i feel terrible all of a sudden, like a plague strikes. Is it becuase of the sad songs i listen to ? haha~ if so, i should not listen to them~ but it;s nice! hhh i;m so stupid i know lol~ So anyway, . . . i don;t know
i feel incompetent. A tad disheartened, quite tired,
Emotions are wearing me out.
Emotions are really tiring i think
When you are happy, and totally hyper,. what happens next ? You feel tired.
When you are totally upset, you feel weary.
i feel so tired of feeling.
Why must a person feel? ? Does feeling make one person;s choice more rational or reasonable?
If you couldn;t feel fearful, you would dare to do anything, you wouldn;t fear death.
If love makes you confused or hurt, then you wouldn;t feel them anymore.
If you couldn;t feel angry,the world would be a happier place.
oh wait, haha happy is an emotion too.
haha~~~~
i;m just random! but haha feeling is good~ cuz i know that i am not a robot.
PS i actually have an eye candy now !! LOL
i;m kidding really.
its really surprising for me ~~ hahaha i didn;t think so initially. LOL i think right this is God telling me that if i choose to like someone right i can . cuz the person is actually someone who just caught my attention, nothing special really lol.
Choosing to forgive people who have hurt me. Choosing to accept someone for who they really are : ) haha Love is a choice. I Love God.
DREAM THE DREAMS THAT GOD HAS GIVEN TO YOU@!~
Subject: Pastor's Business Card
A new pastor was visiting in the homes of his parishioners. At one
house it seemed obvious that someone was at home, but no answer came
to his repeated knocks at the door.
Therefore, he took out a business card and wrote "Revelation 3:20" on
the back of it and stuck it in the door.
When the offering was processed the following Sunday, he found that his card had been returned. Added to it was this cryptic message,
"Genesis 3:10."
Reaching for his Bible to check out the citation, he broke up in gales of laughter.
> Revelation 3:20 begins "Behold, I stand at the door and knock."
> Genesis 3:10 reads, "I heard your voice in the garden and I was afraid for I was naked."
L O L . . .
Anyway Church this morning was really interesting~~ Pastor.Phi| was painting while he preached about the CROSS.
How it is our CHOICE, to accept Jesus.
Choices .. k kk
anywayz , i went with the cg to eat at bugis and i went home and oh~! hahaha
Dinner on sundays seem to be a little too much, EJ says we overeat every sunday . lol . mum insists on cooking a lot. When i say it;s too much, she never agrees, and at the end of the dinner, there will be leftovers in which she will ask us to finish up everything~![ CALORIE OVERLOAD PLEASE]haha~~ ~
IT SEEMED LIKE IT WAS GAMES NIGHT TODAY~, we played coda and honestly, i suck at the game. Ting broke a record to die in the game at such an early stage. As usual, DJ, the smart woman, owned us at the game.i highly recommend this game ~ it;s very fun. You get to see the personalities of different people through games like these. You can also tell how bad they are at playing [ like me]. haha.
i was supposed to meet my bestfriend today, but i think my bestfriend forgot about it .. , but it;s ok~ i forgive ~~ haha~
dear diary.
i feel horrible sometimes, and i think many people do feel like this sometimes. Sometimes i feel terrible all of a sudden, like a plague strikes. Is it becuase of the sad songs i listen to ? haha~ if so, i should not listen to them~ but it;s nice! hhh i;m so stupid i know lol~ So anyway, . . . i don;t know
i feel incompetent. A tad disheartened, quite tired,
Emotions are wearing me out.
Emotions are really tiring i think
When you are happy, and totally hyper,. what happens next ? You feel tired.
When you are totally upset, you feel weary.
i feel so tired of feeling.
Why must a person feel? ? Does feeling make one person;s choice more rational or reasonable?
If you couldn;t feel fearful, you would dare to do anything, you wouldn;t fear death.
If love makes you confused or hurt, then you wouldn;t feel them anymore.
If you couldn;t feel angry,the world would be a happier place.
oh wait, haha happy is an emotion too.
haha~~~~
i;m just random! but haha feeling is good~ cuz i know that i am not a robot.
PS i actually have an eye candy now !! LOL
i;m kidding really.
its really surprising for me ~~ hahaha i didn;t think so initially. LOL i think right this is God telling me that if i choose to like someone right i can . cuz the person is actually someone who just caught my attention, nothing special really lol.
Choosing to forgive people who have hurt me. Choosing to accept someone for who they really are : ) haha Love is a choice. I Love God.
DREAM THE DREAMS THAT GOD HAS GIVEN TO YOU@!~
Labels: A thought.
what we could have been, 7:04 AM.
Friday, November 16, 2007
so today, i helped mum out in the shop. again.
Sewed more. and well in the afternoon, i wasn;t so bored stiff as ting came over to collect her passport.
hahaha
She decided to practice her ambidexterity , by picking up my notebook and writing a very innocent diary entry : )
aww look at her innocent piece of work ~~
anyway anyway
so again, why are we stereotyped?
why must we bother?
i think too much i guess.
hahaha girls are such complicated creatures, troublesome ? haha, hence gays exist.
i was watching ANTmodel and TABTV and i thought about my mum and myself, then i realized. no wonder gays exist. haha~~
sigh
바보같해 .;;; 역겨워.ㅠ_ㅠ
how much do you really know ?haha
i am just being insane right.
haha i want to wake up yet i do not want to wake up either . kk
stupid me
Sewed more. and well in the afternoon, i wasn;t so bored stiff as ting came over to collect her passport.
hahaha
She decided to practice her ambidexterity , by picking up my notebook and writing a very innocent diary entry : )
aww look at her innocent piece of work ~~
anyway anyway
so again, why are we stereotyped?
why must we bother?
i think too much i guess.
hahaha girls are such complicated creatures, troublesome ? haha, hence gays exist.
i was watching ANTmodel and TABTV and i thought about my mum and myself, then i realized. no wonder gays exist. haha~~
sigh
바보같해 .;;; 역겨워.ㅠ_ㅠ
how much do you really know ?haha
i am just being insane right.
haha i want to wake up yet i do not want to wake up either . kk
stupid me
Labels: A random day.
what we could have been, 10:14 AM.
Wednesday, November 14, 2007
WATCH~!
hahaha~!~ the guy;s expression is so priceless. lol
oh and this is also funny~! LOL
Today was basically for me to restore my soul. I thought about life, ate chocolate, missed some people, thought about school, thought about my life and my destiny, listened to music, sewed more buttons ,attempted to do homework and i slacked basically, yes and eating bitter chocolate feels damn good.
After i watched AMERICA's NEXT TOP MODEL today,i realized how troublesome girls can be. Then i realized why some people turn out to be gay.
Anyway. i am going to run a business errand for my mum tomorrow~!!Exciting ^_^~
sigh, even if i do like you, what can i say , what can i do ?
stupid, because i have no authority.
babo.
hahaha~!~ the guy;s expression is so priceless. lol
oh and this is also funny~! LOL
Today was basically for me to restore my soul. I thought about life, ate chocolate, missed some people, thought about school, thought about my life and my destiny, listened to music, sewed more buttons ,attempted to do homework and i slacked basically, yes and eating bitter chocolate feels damn good.
After i watched AMERICA's NEXT TOP MODEL today,i realized how troublesome girls can be. Then i realized why some people turn out to be gay.
Anyway. i am going to run a business errand for my mum tomorrow~!!Exciting ^_^~
sigh, even if i do like you, what can i say , what can i do ?
stupid, because i have no authority.
babo.
Labels: A random day.
what we could have been, 10:47 PM.
before i go on,,
HEROES TWO IS EXCITING~!!!! It seems way better than season one~!kkkk~
SO WATCH IT!!! AHHAHA~~ EXCITING~~~~
Anyway Anyway~~~~, i was out the entire day today
from 8-2 i was going to school, had TKD which only 8 people turned up for.It was quite tiring , but it doesn;t matter to me : )We ate long john and i had to rush off for my dental appointment and i made it on time!Though i ran as though the time meter was going off for a game. I had to make a pitstop to mum;s office to grab the atm card before going off to the doctor;s place. But the appointment, supposedly at 3, started at 3.15 so i could catch my breath. Actually, racing against time is pretty fun LOL
After the painful session, i returned to mum;s office and was assigned to sew buttons, with my injured thumb ..oh yeh i injured my thumb during training cuz a guy kicked my thumb -_- its not sticking out, but it is definitely like a sore thumb. I reached home at 8+ and EJ called me telling me to go down at 9 to DOUFENG~. i went out with my dad and all my sisters went to HOLLAND V for some dessert and stuff ^_^
at the supermarket, my dad made this funny comment.
" wah lan. where is the lan zi"
[SWEARS/] where is the basket. literally translated . hahaha~~
kkkkk zeneway,, OH~~ i collected my results slip today~ and my results are -_-;; no comments....i think the grading system is pretty trashy . A score of ABCDDE followed by some B.S about me hahaha~~ if you can guess which grade i got for which subject, i will applaud you man. But again. who gives a damn ? LOL. Though i am a bit disappointed with physics. BUT ITS OK ~!!~~i will study harder and i must get different results from this next year!
Strong determination is something which i must havehave and haha~~ i thank God that i am more patient with the way i handle things ~~ kkk. haha i know one way to train your patience level man
HAHA
two wayS!
Thanks To HOPES and willingness to wait for HEROES to load on my EXTREMELY SLOW [SLOW repeated for emphasis ] computer and my mother who blows up like a timeless bomb . So, if you wann learn how to be more patient,
1- get a REACTIVE person to live with you,
or, If you refuse to communicate with people,
2-get a computer with the ram of .. perhaps 256MB . .
it will hang constantly, load slowly, but if you watch a lot of shows online than good for you because you have to REALOAD the thing again when your computer HANGS. PS I WAITED FOR HEROES TO BUFFER ABOUT 4 TIMES FOR EACH EPISODE -_-@ hahaha haha~~
you will see how your tolerance and patience level is increased.
haha : )
We must face challenges with a positive mind so that we will not be easily defeated! What is the point of self pity, Though you may gain pity from others, and feel better when you hear what you wanna hear, but at the end of the day, you are the only one who can help yourself. Why do people bother to sympathize? It is because they want you to know that you are not alone and so that you can gain some hope, and that you can stand up on your feet again. However people around you cannot be helping you and assuring you all the time. It makes them tired too~!. Self pity may make you feel good temporarily because you hear what you want to hear from others. But , what are the odds that you really hear what you want to hear? out of hundred times you confide in someone, perhaps only one gives you the answer you want to hear . You will just end us feeling weary and exhausted. what is the point anyway.
yup and yes i know, sometimes when you hang around positive people who are a TAD tactless, you tend to feel like " but they don;t understand what i am going through " . Trust me , you don;t know the half of it. There are definitely things in the lives of everybody for them to frown about.But they just choose not to. Difficult but possible~ kkk
But i think there are a lot of people around us who needs assurance! so~~ be an assuring person to someone!
HEROES TWO IS EXCITING~!!!! It seems way better than season one~!kkkk~
SO WATCH IT!!! AHHAHA~~ EXCITING~~~~
Anyway Anyway~~~~, i was out the entire day today
from 8-2 i was going to school, had TKD which only 8 people turned up for.It was quite tiring , but it doesn;t matter to me : )We ate long john and i had to rush off for my dental appointment and i made it on time!Though i ran as though the time meter was going off for a game. I had to make a pitstop to mum;s office to grab the atm card before going off to the doctor;s place. But the appointment, supposedly at 3, started at 3.15 so i could catch my breath. Actually, racing against time is pretty fun LOL
After the painful session, i returned to mum;s office and was assigned to sew buttons, with my injured thumb ..oh yeh i injured my thumb during training cuz a guy kicked my thumb -_- its not sticking out, but it is definitely like a sore thumb. I reached home at 8+ and EJ called me telling me to go down at 9 to DOUFENG~. i went out with my dad and all my sisters went to HOLLAND V for some dessert and stuff ^_^
at the supermarket, my dad made this funny comment.
" wah lan. where is the lan zi"
[SWEARS/] where is the basket. literally translated . hahaha~~
kkkkk zeneway,, OH~~ i collected my results slip today~ and my results are -_-;; no comments....i think the grading system is pretty trashy . A score of ABCDDE followed by some B.S about me hahaha~~ if you can guess which grade i got for which subject, i will applaud you man. But again. who gives a damn ? LOL. Though i am a bit disappointed with physics. BUT ITS OK ~!!~~i will study harder and i must get different results from this next year!
Strong determination is something which i must havehave and haha~~ i thank God that i am more patient with the way i handle things ~~ kkk. haha i know one way to train your patience level man
HAHA
two wayS!
Thanks To HOPES and willingness to wait for HEROES to load on my EXTREMELY SLOW [SLOW repeated for emphasis ] computer and my mother who blows up like a timeless bomb . So, if you wann learn how to be more patient,
1- get a REACTIVE person to live with you,
or, If you refuse to communicate with people,
2-get a computer with the ram of .. perhaps 256MB . .
it will hang constantly, load slowly, but if you watch a lot of shows online than good for you because you have to REALOAD the thing again when your computer HANGS. PS I WAITED FOR HEROES TO BUFFER ABOUT 4 TIMES FOR EACH EPISODE -_-@ hahaha haha~~
you will see how your tolerance and patience level is increased.
haha : )
We must face challenges with a positive mind so that we will not be easily defeated! What is the point of self pity, Though you may gain pity from others, and feel better when you hear what you wanna hear, but at the end of the day, you are the only one who can help yourself. Why do people bother to sympathize? It is because they want you to know that you are not alone and so that you can gain some hope, and that you can stand up on your feet again. However people around you cannot be helping you and assuring you all the time. It makes them tired too~!. Self pity may make you feel good temporarily because you hear what you want to hear from others. But , what are the odds that you really hear what you want to hear? out of hundred times you confide in someone, perhaps only one gives you the answer you want to hear . You will just end us feeling weary and exhausted. what is the point anyway.
yup and yes i know, sometimes when you hang around positive people who are a TAD tactless, you tend to feel like " but they don;t understand what i am going through " . Trust me , you don;t know the half of it. There are definitely things in the lives of everybody for them to frown about.But they just choose not to. Difficult but possible~ kkk
But i think there are a lot of people around us who needs assurance! so~~ be an assuring person to someone!
Labels: A random day.
what we could have been, 8:02 AM.
Tuesday, November 13, 2007
마음이 앞어요. .
안좋아요..
나 바보 그리워요##.
미치겠어..하하
니가 어떻게 이럴수있어?!
. . .
아,,,,나의 꿈이 워에요?
나도 몰라요. .
아,당신운 강헤 져야 해요@!! 바보.
잘할꺼야 .
ah. so much for self praise.
Do i actually have the rights to feel like this ?
man maybe if i was more patient than this : )
things won;t be that bad can it?
Do you know why people fear letting others know their fears?
If admitting something has power in it, then does it mean that when you admit your fear, you are allowing it to happen to you?
or perhaps when you admit your fear, you are telling others that you are ready to confront it . .
i am not sure myself.
i am so fearful now.
so so so fearful
you always tell me that you are sorry,
I always act like it is nothing because i am fearful you know ?
but you don;t know anything , because you lead your own life while i sit here and always come back to the same spot.
Do you know what does the name k.kyl|e actually mean ? it actually means boomerang. and a boomerang comes back to it;s original position after being thrown.
what do i fear then ?
wait i don;t want to tell you cuz i don;t want to confront it yet . . . .
oh my god. i feel so weak .
about cellgroup.
i really don;t know
about church
i really don't know
sometimes you just feel like you don;t belong.
or do i just do not want to see some faces again?
or is it that i am too ashamed to be part of the same family again ?
몰라몰라몰라@@
했갈려@ ... . . .
울고싶어.
안좋아요..
나 바보 그리워요##.
미치겠어..하하
니가 어떻게 이럴수있어?!
. . .
아,,,,나의 꿈이 워에요?
나도 몰라요. .
아,당신운 강헤 져야 해요@!! 바보.
잘할꺼야 .
ah. so much for self praise.
Do i actually have the rights to feel like this ?
man maybe if i was more patient than this : )
things won;t be that bad can it?
Do you know why people fear letting others know their fears?
If admitting something has power in it, then does it mean that when you admit your fear, you are allowing it to happen to you?
or perhaps when you admit your fear, you are telling others that you are ready to confront it . .
i am not sure myself.
i am so fearful now.
so so so fearful
you always tell me that you are sorry,
I always act like it is nothing because i am fearful you know ?
but you don;t know anything , because you lead your own life while i sit here and always come back to the same spot.
Do you know what does the name k.kyl|e actually mean ? it actually means boomerang. and a boomerang comes back to it;s original position after being thrown.
what do i fear then ?
wait i don;t want to tell you cuz i don;t want to confront it yet . . . .
oh my god. i feel so weak .
about cellgroup.
i really don;t know
about church
i really don't know
sometimes you just feel like you don;t belong.
or do i just do not want to see some faces again?
or is it that i am too ashamed to be part of the same family again ?
몰라몰라몰라@@
했갈려@ ... . . .
울고싶어.
what we could have been, 6:16 AM.
Monday, November 12, 2007
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
freaks out *
why is it always like this,
all the time!!!!!!!
i hate it @!
,, history is important,some agree and some don;t
but embarrassing history is @@@@@@@@@@@@@@@
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
AHHHHHHHH i wanna erase it off so badly!!!!!!!!!! OH MY GOD.
haha ahhh i am so devastated. if you care about me then ask me about it lah!
huh , and what 190 hours later. you didn;t even bother to. . ..
you are lying to me aren't you ? ?
lying to me!
._. ahhhhhhhh
when one is in pain, what do they do?
distract themselves to forget the pain right.
distractions distractions. . . . i need one. haha homework ? perhaps.
(oh my god )......... X 100000000000000000000000000000000000
I:M TRAUMATIZED@
save me.
the frantic me.
oh my you shouldn't bother about me right.
just leave me here to die
after all, evolution . . everything.
boils down to one thing
to live or to die.
oh my mymymmy
wo huang le!
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
freaks out *
why is it always like this,
all the time!!!!!!!
i hate it @!
,, history is important,some agree and some don;t
but embarrassing history is @@@@@@@@@@@@@@@
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
AHHHHHHHH i wanna erase it off so badly!!!!!!!!!! OH MY GOD.
haha ahhh i am so devastated. if you care about me then ask me about it lah!
huh , and what 190 hours later. you didn;t even bother to. . ..
you are lying to me aren't you ? ?
lying to me!
._. ahhhhhhhh
when one is in pain, what do they do?
distract themselves to forget the pain right.
distractions distractions. . . . i need one. haha homework ? perhaps.
(oh my god )......... X 100000000000000000000000000000000000
I:M TRAUMATIZED@
save me.
the frantic me.
oh my you shouldn't bother about me right.
just leave me here to die
after all, evolution . . everything.
boils down to one thing
to live or to die.
oh my mymymmy
wo huang le!
what we could have been, 9:48 PM.
Sunday, November 11, 2007
HAHA~~
enjoying holidays so far. ?
YES going to do hw today@ haha finally get a day of for my own. -,.-
after university, we will never get a holiday like this again ~! so must MAXIMIZE this holz and play man : ) @ haha
enjoying holidays so far. ?
YES going to do hw today@ haha finally get a day of for my own. -,.-
after university, we will never get a holiday like this again ~! so must MAXIMIZE this holz and play man : ) @ haha
what we could have been, 8:25 PM.
Saturday, November 10, 2007
ew. i feel horrible
no wait i don;t .
just feeling a LITTLE incompetent
aiya. people suck sometime. really suck. haha
as j0S.h nichols said in the show , Drak.e and J.osh,
People stink. they only let you down and make you disappointed . blah blah
hahah...... kkkkkkkkkkkkkk
LOL they are so mean!! nugget.
perhaps i;m just disliking the superficial and material life.
watching other people live it also makes me sick
ahhh feeling so so so so sick. . . hahha.....
okok , i shall not delve into the feelings unknown. haha
hhhhh smile : ) ~~!~
no wait i don;t .
just feeling a LITTLE incompetent
aiya. people suck sometime. really suck. haha
as j0S.h nichols said in the show , Drak.e and J.osh,
People stink. they only let you down and make you disappointed . blah blah
hahah...... kkkkkkkkkkkkkk
LOL they are so mean!! nugget.
perhaps i;m just disliking the superficial and material life.
watching other people live it also makes me sick
ahhh feeling so so so so sick. . . hahha.....
okok , i shall not delve into the feelings unknown. haha
hhhhh smile : ) ~~!~
Labels: TRASHY
what we could have been, 7:25 AM.
Friday, November 9, 2007
Sigh, i;ve always been faithful in brushing my teeth.
no matter how late it is, even if i fall asleep, i will wake up and brush and go back to sleep.
i always think of this
" you want to be lazy for this five minutes, later you will regret it for the rest of your life . . "
and this sentence is the thing which convicts me whenever i feel lazy to study.
very versatile leh this sentence, can use in many situations.
when you study.
" you want to be lazy for this 1 hour, you regret for the rest of your life"
because of laziness, sometimes we even miss the opportunity of a lifetime! like perhaps you could have gone for some Concert and because you were lazy to prepare to leave early, and hence you WERE LATE and didn;t get to see what you want.
OH GOSH. and i thought my faithfulness in this small duty could save me trouble, money ,time BLAH.
i was wrong.
This morning, i paid a visit to the dentist .
The doctor announces. " you have six holes to fill up". of course , you cannot hear the elation from her voice.
i realized that MAN they earn a lot . A LOT of money - -
just to fill up a TINYYYYYY cavity, you charge your patient 60 dollars
then you tell them that they should do an x ray so that "we" don;t miss out on any cavity which they failed to see. they charge you another 24 dollars.
They go on talking and call this consultation. they charge you 30 bucks or so.
She says that it is either genetic ,or you are sweet toothed! or you failed to brush properly.
and she says that the part with the holes! are the parts which are the easiest to brush = = / She says that for me, the highly neglected areas of the teeth which people often miss out when brushing, are totally clean. Yet , the EASIEST part to brush, is the one with the tiny cavities.
-_- right ?
She took some X rays, exerted some pressure on my tooth. .yada...
my mother brushed [ shua-ed 刷] her card.
heart pain man.
total cost? abobut 4 hundreds or so.
and today is just half the bill, because i still have to go back one more time to get the rest filled up.
HEART PAIN T________T
tooth also pain.
so you see. take care of your teeth.
BRUSH your teeth properly or else you have to swipe your credit cards clean.
and perhaps. if you decide to take dentistry, good for you, you;re gonna be so damn rich.
haha
ok. so i helped mom up in the shop.
sewed some buttons . typed some things.
and then oh!! i went shopping with eJ! and this time i didn;t feel bad!! hahaha
i didn;t buy nething = = except for this sweater at fvr21 == = uh , , we shared it . haha
oh well~!!~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
i finished watching heroes and MAN its awesome!!!!!!!!!!!!
hahaha~~~~~~~~~ my computer is really nice to me, he makes me more tolerant,. It hangs it self and i revive it again and again, then i wait for it to load HEROES and then ,, sometimes,, it hangs again. then i repeat the process. Until the buffering is done. i enjoy HEROES. and MAn once, HIRO got shot! and suddenly there was a blackout in my house.. scared the heck outta me . hahaha. but i can say that MAN i am more patient now. haha thanks HEROES and my SLow computer : ) !
training tomorrow~ better sleep .
Sigh. just when i thought things would be better, it is better, but...... . .. .. . . she is still not contented. not satisfied,. . . .. . man its so difficult for me T_T..............................................
and let me tell you, everyone in this world is so concerned about OTHER people caring for them, they do not even bother caring about other people. Do caring about people with a broken heart really give them hope ? yeh certainly it does, edifying of course. but, if it ceases to stop, is it then an attempt to fulfill an endless pursuit for care. Humans are like that. unlimited wants.
i must not let anything affect me because i cannot be weak. i can control. i can tolerate. i must persevere! and i cannot let what others say SHAKE me
no matter how late it is, even if i fall asleep, i will wake up and brush and go back to sleep.
i always think of this
" you want to be lazy for this five minutes, later you will regret it for the rest of your life . . "
and this sentence is the thing which convicts me whenever i feel lazy to study.
very versatile leh this sentence, can use in many situations.
when you study.
" you want to be lazy for this 1 hour, you regret for the rest of your life"
because of laziness, sometimes we even miss the opportunity of a lifetime! like perhaps you could have gone for some Concert and because you were lazy to prepare to leave early, and hence you WERE LATE and didn;t get to see what you want.
OH GOSH. and i thought my faithfulness in this small duty could save me trouble, money ,time BLAH.
i was wrong.
This morning, i paid a visit to the dentist .
The doctor announces. " you have six holes to fill up". of course , you cannot hear the elation from her voice.
i realized that MAN they earn a lot . A LOT of money - -
just to fill up a TINYYYYYY cavity, you charge your patient 60 dollars
then you tell them that they should do an x ray so that "we" don;t miss out on any cavity which they failed to see. they charge you another 24 dollars.
They go on talking and call this consultation. they charge you 30 bucks or so.
She says that it is either genetic ,or you are sweet toothed! or you failed to brush properly.
and she says that the part with the holes! are the parts which are the easiest to brush = = / She says that for me, the highly neglected areas of the teeth which people often miss out when brushing, are totally clean. Yet , the EASIEST part to brush, is the one with the tiny cavities.
-_- right ?
She took some X rays, exerted some pressure on my tooth. .yada...
my mother brushed [ shua-ed 刷] her card.
heart pain man.
total cost? abobut 4 hundreds or so.
and today is just half the bill, because i still have to go back one more time to get the rest filled up.
HEART PAIN T________T
tooth also pain.
so you see. take care of your teeth.
BRUSH your teeth properly or else you have to swipe your credit cards clean.
and perhaps. if you decide to take dentistry, good for you, you;re gonna be so damn rich.
haha
ok. so i helped mom up in the shop.
sewed some buttons . typed some things.
and then oh!! i went shopping with eJ! and this time i didn;t feel bad!! hahaha
i didn;t buy nething = = except for this sweater at fvr21 == = uh , , we shared it . haha
oh well~!!~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
i finished watching heroes and MAN its awesome!!!!!!!!!!!!
hahaha~~~~~~~~~ my computer is really nice to me, he makes me more tolerant,. It hangs it self and i revive it again and again, then i wait for it to load HEROES and then ,, sometimes,, it hangs again. then i repeat the process. Until the buffering is done. i enjoy HEROES. and MAn once, HIRO got shot! and suddenly there was a blackout in my house.. scared the heck outta me . hahaha. but i can say that MAN i am more patient now. haha thanks HEROES and my SLow computer : ) !
training tomorrow~ better sleep .
Sigh. just when i thought things would be better, it is better, but...... . .. .. . . she is still not contented. not satisfied,. . . .. . man its so difficult for me T_T..............................................
and let me tell you, everyone in this world is so concerned about OTHER people caring for them, they do not even bother caring about other people. Do caring about people with a broken heart really give them hope ? yeh certainly it does, edifying of course. but, if it ceases to stop, is it then an attempt to fulfill an endless pursuit for care. Humans are like that. unlimited wants.
i must not let anything affect me because i cannot be weak. i can control. i can tolerate. i must persevere! and i cannot let what others say SHAKE me
Labels: Places Experiences.
what we could have been, 7:45 AM.
Thursday, November 8, 2007
yuck yuck yuck yuck yuck
SIGH!!!!!!
SIGH!!!!!!
what we could have been, 9:51 AM.
i;ve been watching heroes into the dim of the night for the past few days
and MAN it;s really nice!!! though i am suffering from a throbbing headache now ,i guess its due to the lack of sleep. My patience have been developed while WAITING for my slow computer to load the video and wait for it to buffer-- haha. At exciting parts, my house blacked out and i had to wait again, haha but i don;t mind!~ its really nice~~
so anyway, today is deepavali. We had breaky together, all six of us.
In the afternoon , MUM DJ EJ and I caught " THE BEE MOVIE" at vivo~!
The story line of the movie is really meaningful and interesting, i think that the director is so innovative! IT;s a great watch!! somewhat like ratatouille
Nature, we all live with it, part of it, and together we live in harmony.
Animals are just trying to survive in this increasingly human world.
hmm..
Bees do the things which humans think are impossible. haha
Doing things which are impossible.. . hmm
aye i am too tired to say anything... . .
Mum;s really making it difficult for me.
Even though i really compromise ,and i did not say that i was unwilling to compromise at all. I compromise so much ,and even though she is LESS unhappy than last time, she is still unhappy. She is so hard to please. i give in so much and she demands more. MORE from me. It makes it feel as if my sacrifice of time for her is so insignificant or has gone to waste T_T. . . . .
the feeling.... sooooo 바보 ,, , but it.s ok,,,,,, she must really learn man. Her negativity and over-reactive methods are really wearing out my patience @ never go, she demands you to go. You go, she asks you why you don;t want to come earlier. Come earlier! she says she never force you to come and says that you can don;t come LAH! .. hahaa
the feeling is so huang tang like that...............
but it;s ok,, i must never be like that.
yeh.!
-- - -
Sigh.
what do you call this ?
a heavy heart.
and MAN it;s really nice!!! though i am suffering from a throbbing headache now ,i guess its due to the lack of sleep. My patience have been developed while WAITING for my slow computer to load the video and wait for it to buffer-- haha. At exciting parts, my house blacked out and i had to wait again, haha but i don;t mind!~ its really nice~~
so anyway, today is deepavali. We had breaky together, all six of us.
In the afternoon , MUM DJ EJ and I caught " THE BEE MOVIE" at vivo~!
The story line of the movie is really meaningful and interesting, i think that the director is so innovative! IT;s a great watch!! somewhat like ratatouille
Nature, we all live with it, part of it, and together we live in harmony.
Animals are just trying to survive in this increasingly human world.
hmm..
Bees do the things which humans think are impossible. haha
Doing things which are impossible.. . hmm
aye i am too tired to say anything... . .
Mum;s really making it difficult for me.
Even though i really compromise ,and i did not say that i was unwilling to compromise at all. I compromise so much ,and even though she is LESS unhappy than last time, she is still unhappy. She is so hard to please. i give in so much and she demands more. MORE from me. It makes it feel as if my sacrifice of time for her is so insignificant or has gone to waste T_T. . . . .
the feeling.... sooooo 바보 ,, , but it.s ok,,,,,, she must really learn man. Her negativity and over-reactive methods are really wearing out my patience @ never go, she demands you to go. You go, she asks you why you don;t want to come earlier. Come earlier! she says she never force you to come and says that you can don;t come LAH! .. hahaa
the feeling is so huang tang like that...............
but it;s ok,, i must never be like that.
yeh.!
-- - -
Sigh.
what do you call this ?
a heavy heart.
what we could have been, 8:26 AM.
Tuesday, November 6, 2007
oh gosh!!
Today i went to school at 9 AM TO DO THE CCA NOTICE BOARD.
HOWEVER . there was no key to open up the board.
I cannot understand why must there be keys and stuff for such a thing. What can people steal from a notice board? COLORED PAPER? -_-
ok, so we rushed down all the way in the morning and still was unable to do up our board. We wanted to collect our results slip, and NO WE HAVE TO WAIT TILL NEXT WEEK!!! first the school delays the release by about 4 days, telling us that we can collect today. Now that they are unable to give it back to us, they didn;t even bother to inform all the students.
In this world where we are so constrained in the space where we are allowed to speak our minds and express our thoughts against governments or schools, it is difficult to criticize tactfully even. We get tracked down, and what happens to us if we criticize the school ? we get suspended. So best is . got thing to say, Don;t say.
annoying.
neway , us comm members then headed to JE to have lunch and we caught a movie!!! THE GAME PLAN.
honestly , i don;t really like it - -
cliche story line.
haha, after they went to buy some present for BX LOL. and i went with DJ andy and Ting to copthorne hotel to check out some stuff for her wedding ^____^~
hmmmmm.... .. . . .. .. .. . ... . . .. . .. .
HEROES is soooooooo exciting!!! but my computer loads so slowly!!The buffer time is WAYYYY too long. . = = but its so amazing. haha but DO WATCH IT!!!! it is really good, especially the sound effects too , perhaps it gave me this slight creepy feeling , hence i didn;t really dare to step out of my seat visit the washroom just now, LOL you know why? haha i am so scared that
1) a "syler " will pop out and slice my brain out.
2) an alter ego will appear in my reflections [ and man even my floor tiles can reflect your image = = ]
Imagine if i were to have an alter ego like NIKI.
so cool right~~ what will she be like.
an alter ego.
thats cool. haha i think she would be someone who is totally not me.
ah well. tomorrow there;s training, better discipline my mind and body to stop watching and turn in.
. . .
everything is going to be better every single day.
i don;t have to be jealous or envious of other people just because they have what i don;t .
i am happy with who i am and what i am .
My mum is not annoying, it is only the fact that she doesn;t know how to communicate properly that is annoying.
I will find what i am looking for. . . . someday,,, perhaps,, tomorrow,
just perhaps. . .
Today i went to school at 9 AM TO DO THE CCA NOTICE BOARD.
HOWEVER . there was no key to open up the board.
I cannot understand why must there be keys and stuff for such a thing. What can people steal from a notice board? COLORED PAPER? -_-
ok, so we rushed down all the way in the morning and still was unable to do up our board. We wanted to collect our results slip, and NO WE HAVE TO WAIT TILL NEXT WEEK!!! first the school delays the release by about 4 days, telling us that we can collect today. Now that they are unable to give it back to us, they didn;t even bother to inform all the students.
In this world where we are so constrained in the space where we are allowed to speak our minds and express our thoughts against governments or schools, it is difficult to criticize tactfully even. We get tracked down, and what happens to us if we criticize the school ? we get suspended. So best is . got thing to say, Don;t say.
annoying.
neway , us comm members then headed to JE to have lunch and we caught a movie!!! THE GAME PLAN.
honestly , i don;t really like it - -
cliche story line.
haha, after they went to buy some present for BX LOL. and i went with DJ andy and Ting to copthorne hotel to check out some stuff for her wedding ^____^~
hmmmmm.... .. . . .. .. .. . ... . . .. . .. .
HEROES is soooooooo exciting!!! but my computer loads so slowly!!The buffer time is WAYYYY too long. . = = but its so amazing. haha but DO WATCH IT!!!! it is really good, especially the sound effects too , perhaps it gave me this slight creepy feeling , hence i didn;t really dare to step out of my seat visit the washroom just now, LOL you know why? haha i am so scared that
1) a "syler " will pop out and slice my brain out.
2) an alter ego will appear in my reflections [ and man even my floor tiles can reflect your image = = ]
Imagine if i were to have an alter ego like NIKI.
so cool right~~ what will she be like.
an alter ego.
thats cool. haha i think she would be someone who is totally not me.
ah well. tomorrow there;s training, better discipline my mind and body to stop watching and turn in.
. . .
everything is going to be better every single day.
i don;t have to be jealous or envious of other people just because they have what i don;t .
i am happy with who i am and what i am .
My mum is not annoying, it is only the fact that she doesn;t know how to communicate properly that is annoying.
I will find what i am looking for. . . . someday,,, perhaps,, tomorrow,
just perhaps. . .
Labels: outings
what we could have been, 9:44 AM.
Sunday, November 4, 2007
oh gosh, i am so hooked onto HEROES now. its really getting exciting, and the japanese guy in the show is FRICKIN cute and funny~!!~ ahaha
finally, after putting off all pleasures of life in this entire year.
i didn;t go to church , go out often, watch dramas or tv shows that i liked, so that i could study.
and now i can maximize my holz and not rot like some fish at home.
Its time to get my fingers moving, learn some piano , type some novels, read some books.,GET SOME HOMEWORK DONE. Study harder. Learn korean japanese chinese and some french perhaps.
as a matter of fact, i picked up a copy of this fascinating book " THE SEVEN HABITS OF HIGHLY EFFECTIVE TEENS" which dad gave me years back. So far, i;ve read the first chapter and it has been awesome! It was about affirmation and it was like DEJAVU! it is something that i have been thinking about for the past few days. Some how, i think God really speaks to me in some way that i really cannot explain. He always makes me think of something which eventually, people talk about or wonder about. Amazing.
people often feel so insecure because they are not assured.
Wives repeatedly ask husbands if they still love them because they want to be sure that they still love them
people talk about the problem again and again to different people until they get some response they wish to hear , so that they will be somehow, assured, that they are not paranoid and that someone else thinks like them
Mum;s keep calling you to come home because they are not assured that you are safe outside.
People ask you " do you miss me " to feel assured that they have not been forgotten in the other party's lives.
So on and so fourth.
OH basically to be sure of what they are. who they are.
the first chapter talks about your paradigm[your glasses] , about how sometimes we must change our paradigms through which we see the world. Let me quote, and i tell you it is so damn true.
something to do with your self image.
here goes..
months back, when i read this particular paragraph, i cried and teared endlessly , i suffered from terrible self image[ worst than now] , and there was no one around who would seem to assure me of my abilities or my importance or my worth or that i wasn;t some freakish looking creature on earth. I can;t even approach my mother because she never understands and never really bothers about anything that has got anything to do with her. The more i talked to her about my problems, the angrier she got at me. But i thank God that weeks ago, when the guy insulted me, it made my dad talk to me and he actually encouraged me saying that he was proud of me and that i can do better!!!Since then, my paradigm actually shifted! it was like a cleared fog.
Sometimes people around you do need you to clean their glasses for them.
Hence, i realized that when we speak , we must be edifying, we must say things that affirm one another. If there are very little people who do this out there, then i must be someone who affirms other people. If i can;t depend on others for affirmation, then must depend on myself!
yeh. Today i went to church in the morning and sermon was interesting! however sometimes going to church makes me feel weak all over, somehow pastor always talk about something which stirs up my deepest emotion. Sometimes it gets a hold of me and i get depressed. But of course, i am now firm and i know that God has great things planned for all of us. Right now, i just want to know which cg i should join.
kkk, i hope this post has been beneficial~~ and ^^ : )
newy neway
if anyone wants to come over to my house to swim or hang out OR EVEN STUDY IN THE LIBRARY< PLEASE CALL KKY AT 98@@98@@ hahaha~~~~
: )~ !
finally, after putting off all pleasures of life in this entire year.
i didn;t go to church , go out often, watch dramas or tv shows that i liked, so that i could study.
and now i can maximize my holz and not rot like some fish at home.
Its time to get my fingers moving, learn some piano , type some novels, read some books.,GET SOME HOMEWORK DONE. Study harder. Learn korean japanese chinese and some french perhaps.
as a matter of fact, i picked up a copy of this fascinating book " THE SEVEN HABITS OF HIGHLY EFFECTIVE TEENS" which dad gave me years back. So far, i;ve read the first chapter and it has been awesome! It was about affirmation and it was like DEJAVU! it is something that i have been thinking about for the past few days. Some how, i think God really speaks to me in some way that i really cannot explain. He always makes me think of something which eventually, people talk about or wonder about. Amazing.
people often feel so insecure because they are not assured.
Wives repeatedly ask husbands if they still love them because they want to be sure that they still love them
people talk about the problem again and again to different people until they get some response they wish to hear , so that they will be somehow, assured, that they are not paranoid and that someone else thinks like them
Mum;s keep calling you to come home because they are not assured that you are safe outside.
People ask you " do you miss me " to feel assured that they have not been forgotten in the other party's lives.
So on and so fourth.
OH basically to be sure of what they are. who they are.
the first chapter talks about your paradigm[your glasses] , about how sometimes we must change our paradigms through which we see the world. Let me quote, and i tell you it is so damn true.
something to do with your self image.
here goes..
If my paradigm of myself is all contorted,what can i do to fix it? " one way is to spend time with someone who believes in you and builds you up. My mother was such a person to me,. when i was growing up, my mum always believed in me, especially when i doubted myself. She was always saying stuff like " sean,, of course you should run for class president? and " ask her out, i;m sure she would just die to go out with you " whenever i needed to be affirmed, i;d talk to my mum and she;s clean my glasses. ....
It only takes one person, and it doesn;t really matter who it is, Don;t be afraid to lean on this person and to get nourished by them, Go to them for ad vice a. Try to see yourself the way they see you . Oh my , what a difference a new pair of glasses can make! as someone once said, : if you could envision the type of person God intended you to be, you would rise up and never be the same again"
At times, you may not have anyone to lean on and may need to go solo. If this is the case with you, you need to build your self image.
months back, when i read this particular paragraph, i cried and teared endlessly , i suffered from terrible self image[ worst than now] , and there was no one around who would seem to assure me of my abilities or my importance or my worth or that i wasn;t some freakish looking creature on earth. I can;t even approach my mother because she never understands and never really bothers about anything that has got anything to do with her. The more i talked to her about my problems, the angrier she got at me. But i thank God that weeks ago, when the guy insulted me, it made my dad talk to me and he actually encouraged me saying that he was proud of me and that i can do better!!!Since then, my paradigm actually shifted! it was like a cleared fog.
Sometimes people around you do need you to clean their glasses for them.
Hence, i realized that when we speak , we must be edifying, we must say things that affirm one another. If there are very little people who do this out there, then i must be someone who affirms other people. If i can;t depend on others for affirmation, then must depend on myself!
yeh. Today i went to church in the morning and sermon was interesting! however sometimes going to church makes me feel weak all over, somehow pastor always talk about something which stirs up my deepest emotion. Sometimes it gets a hold of me and i get depressed. But of course, i am now firm and i know that God has great things planned for all of us. Right now, i just want to know which cg i should join.
kkk, i hope this post has been beneficial~~ and ^^ : )
newy neway
if anyone wants to come over to my house to swim or hang out OR EVEN STUDY IN THE LIBRARY< PLEASE CALL KKY AT 98@@98@@ hahaha~~~~
: )~ !
Labels: People; behaviour and thoughts
what we could have been, 7:26 AM.
Saturday, November 3, 2007
I went for a haircut today and i bade goodbye to my VERY messy mane. Its the first time i ever felt good leaving a hair salon. lol. usually, the hair dresses ALWAYS say something mean about my hair and make me K-R-Y . haha , however, this time, it was different! she actually made me feel good lol!~~~~ yay. so i can let down my hair comfortably without worrying about wearing an afro hairdo-gone-wilder.
i helped mum out and then i went to hang with dad and OFF to queens at night~!!! kaiting better be studying for O's now LOL
neway...
human beings are funny creatures.
They will not give in until they hear something which they like.
People complain ,
eg : hair, weight, results, people, work, bitchy colleages, terrible service.blah
reasons.
1- Some times they talk about it because they feel dissatisfaction.
2- OTHERWISE. they talk about the same thing, REPEATEDLY, just want to hear something they WANT to hear from you. I believe, this is the EGO boosting method. SOMETIMES, you do need it .
Example 1.
case 1. DISSATISFACTION.
eg , mary [ since mary is such a random name ] .
MARY: wah, i hate my results this term leh,,, i studied so hard and i only got 1 A, .thats so sad for me, i missed my goals. uck.......
when the person looks so upset. then its real.
however, if mary repeats it AGAIN AND AGAIN ABOUT TEN YEARS AFTER THE INCIDENT, then i think it means,
CASE 2 : THEY TO HEAR WHAT THEY WANT.
MARY : wahhh~~~ i hate my results this term la,, i miss one mark then get A* lei,, one mark one mark one mark!~~~~ [ and repeats this even 10000 times after the release of the results ]
someone: aiyah, wah~!~~ still get A leh . YOU VERY CLEVER LEH~!!!!
ok , there are of course other examples which i have no time to list.
why do i mention this? It is because , my mother is like that., She refused to stop talking about the incident which occurred about 2 years ago until i ASSURED her that YES i will do something, that she stopped talking about it . it was annoying. haha,,
she wants me to talk to someone about something, UNTIL the person changes his/her decision. However, whenever i talk to her about something, she NEVER wants to change . When we argue , she only stopped to listen to me when i said " i will change" . when i told her to change, she argued with me that i was being rude. .. and claimed that the problem will be settled if I AM THE ONE WHO CHANGES . [ which is totally not true !]
haha,, when i try to tell her about this, [ countless of times] she will NEVER want to admit it and give the standard " idk what you are talking about " answer. which is very annoying.
Nonetheless, since trying so many times doesn't get to her, the only thing i can do is to just forget it and laugh it off, as long as i am not like her, then it doesn't matter to me because people can then approach me more comfortably then others. You can always bring the horse to the water. but you cannot force it to drink. I bring her to the root of the problem so many times, but i cannot force her to accept it, or at least taste it.
i mean, you can try to tell someone, so that they can learn to be more accepting, but if they die also refuse, then BO BIAN lorh, just look at it with a smile and laugh it off~!
Don;t get me wrong, listening to someone;s opinions does not mean that you have to change, it just means that you have a different perspective to look from. People often insensitively reject other people's opinion when they listen to it, by giving a vigorous shake of the head whilst furrowing their eyebrows in a manner of disagreement. Haha... . . but i realized that this is not always good. I learned this from my friend, he always listen to people's opinion and can disagree with it totally, yet he does not reject it. Instead, he just evaluates it, laughs it off, and just be more tactful when he approaches the person with the same topic.
do you understand what i am talking about ?
i helped mum out and then i went to hang with dad and OFF to queens at night~!!! kaiting better be studying for O's now LOL
neway...
human beings are funny creatures.
They will not give in until they hear something which they like.
People complain ,
eg : hair, weight, results, people, work, bitchy colleages, terrible service.blah
reasons.
1- Some times they talk about it because they feel dissatisfaction.
2- OTHERWISE. they talk about the same thing, REPEATEDLY, just want to hear something they WANT to hear from you. I believe, this is the EGO boosting method. SOMETIMES, you do need it .
Example 1.
case 1. DISSATISFACTION.
eg , mary [ since mary is such a random name ] .
MARY: wah, i hate my results this term leh,,, i studied so hard and i only got 1 A, .thats so sad for me, i missed my goals. uck.......
when the person looks so upset. then its real.
however, if mary repeats it AGAIN AND AGAIN ABOUT TEN YEARS AFTER THE INCIDENT, then i think it means,
CASE 2 : THEY TO HEAR WHAT THEY WANT.
MARY : wahhh~~~ i hate my results this term la,, i miss one mark then get A* lei,, one mark one mark one mark!~~~~ [ and repeats this even 10000 times after the release of the results ]
someone: aiyah, wah~!~~ still get A leh . YOU VERY CLEVER LEH~!!!!
ok , there are of course other examples which i have no time to list.
why do i mention this? It is because , my mother is like that., She refused to stop talking about the incident which occurred about 2 years ago until i ASSURED her that YES i will do something, that she stopped talking about it . it was annoying. haha,,
she wants me to talk to someone about something, UNTIL the person changes his/her decision. However, whenever i talk to her about something, she NEVER wants to change . When we argue , she only stopped to listen to me when i said " i will change" . when i told her to change, she argued with me that i was being rude. .. and claimed that the problem will be settled if I AM THE ONE WHO CHANGES . [ which is totally not true !]
haha,, when i try to tell her about this, [ countless of times] she will NEVER want to admit it and give the standard " idk what you are talking about " answer. which is very annoying.
Nonetheless, since trying so many times doesn't get to her, the only thing i can do is to just forget it and laugh it off, as long as i am not like her, then it doesn't matter to me because people can then approach me more comfortably then others. You can always bring the horse to the water. but you cannot force it to drink. I bring her to the root of the problem so many times, but i cannot force her to accept it, or at least taste it.
i mean, you can try to tell someone, so that they can learn to be more accepting, but if they die also refuse, then BO BIAN lorh, just look at it with a smile and laugh it off~!
Don;t get me wrong, listening to someone;s opinions does not mean that you have to change, it just means that you have a different perspective to look from. People often insensitively reject other people's opinion when they listen to it, by giving a vigorous shake of the head whilst furrowing their eyebrows in a manner of disagreement. Haha... . . but i realized that this is not always good. I learned this from my friend, he always listen to people's opinion and can disagree with it totally, yet he does not reject it. Instead, he just evaluates it, laughs it off, and just be more tactful when he approaches the person with the same topic.
do you understand what i am talking about ?
Labels: People; behaviour and thoughts
what we could have been, 10:03 AM.
Friday, November 2, 2007
TODAY WE BID GOODBYE TO OUR NOT SO BELOVED PW and we bid a 2 month goodbye to our BELOVED groupmate michael who went back to the indies , i mean indo.
now , if you would like to join me in the following procedures i just performed
mouse over file [PROJECTWORK] ,
right click,
select : properties, [ check file size. hhmmm quite big ]
RIGHT CLICK on " PROJECTWORK " ICON AGAIN.
select DELETE.
popup says : confirm folder delete. are you sure you want to remove "project work " and move all its contents into the recycle bin ? "
click, YES [ man i wish the option had the exclamation mark too ]
more like.
YES!
deleting. . ..
* wave good bye to PW foreverrr~!~~~~ say sayorana~~~ byebye~!!!!
WAHLA~!~ ITS GONE~!!!
hohohohohoho~!~~~
Today bade our last goodbyes to PW as we handed in our I AND R, i think pw was an interesting experience overall
i realized that my group members has different strengths in doing certain things!
HL can do work Extremely Efficiently and Excellently. fast lah! within one day , everything gao dim le... VERY neat as well.
JAS is quite Innovative and can Improvise and come up with Ideas well. ORDERLY as well.
MIKE comes up with interesting ideas, SUPPORTS and give examples. He claims that he has excellent BS skills, and is very very ordely.
XB... knows how to use excuses very well : ) haha ok i shall not be mean,, he comes up with some good ideas when he wants to. , though seldom
I realized that i am highly unlike my group maties.
I can;t do things in an orderly manner.
EG: i can;t rely on cue cards as they are often too messy [ i think everyone agress LOL ]and i always add in and take out points on my own.
I suggest something and i never really seem to develop it .
haha~!~ i must be receptive to change and change this~
neway
weather was FRICKIN hot.
helped dad out after that.
well, since i am feeling totally tired and random, i shall just post this rather amusing survey which my corny sister Astrea sent..
LOL GUESS WHICH CATEGORY I AM IN ? ? LOL its so totally fake. WAY back[ not really way la,, just perhaps 3 months ago. . .], when my self esteem was worse than before, my score was different , and haha~!~
but it is interesting AND TOTALLY NOT REAL . lol/
here goes . .. ... . .!!
now , if you would like to join me in the following procedures i just performed
mouse over file [PROJECTWORK] ,
right click,
select : properties, [ check file size. hhmmm quite big ]
RIGHT CLICK on " PROJECTWORK " ICON AGAIN.
select DELETE.
popup says : confirm folder delete. are you sure you want to remove "project work " and move all its contents into the recycle bin ? "
click, YES [ man i wish the option had the exclamation mark too ]
more like.
YES!
deleting. . ..
* wave good bye to PW foreverrr~!~~~~ say sayorana~~~ byebye~!!!!
WAHLA~!~ ITS GONE~!!!
hohohohohoho~!~~~
Today bade our last goodbyes to PW as we handed in our I AND R, i think pw was an interesting experience overall
i realized that my group members has different strengths in doing certain things!
HL can do work Extremely Efficiently and Excellently. fast lah! within one day , everything gao dim le... VERY neat as well.
JAS is quite Innovative and can Improvise and come up with Ideas well. ORDERLY as well.
MIKE comes up with interesting ideas, SUPPORTS and give examples. He claims that he has excellent BS skills, and is very very ordely.
XB... knows how to use excuses very well : ) haha ok i shall not be mean,, he comes up with some good ideas when he wants to. , though seldom
I realized that i am highly unlike my group maties.
I can;t do things in an orderly manner.
EG: i can;t rely on cue cards as they are often too messy [ i think everyone agress LOL ]and i always add in and take out points on my own.
I suggest something and i never really seem to develop it .
THighly applicable to me i think.
The hollowest pipe makes the most noise .
haha~!~ i must be receptive to change and change this~
neway
weather was FRICKIN hot.
helped dad out after that.
well, since i am feeling totally tired and random, i shall just post this rather amusing survey which my corny sister Astrea sent..
LOL GUESS WHICH CATEGORY I AM IN ? ? LOL its so totally fake. WAY back[ not really way la,, just perhaps 3 months ago. . .], when my self esteem was worse than before, my score was different , and haha~!~
but it is interesting AND TOTALLY NOT REAL . lol/
here goes . .. ... . .!!
Dr. Phil's Test: Here you go. Try this! Below is Dr. Phil's test. (Dr. Phil scored 55; he did this test on Oprah - she got a 38.) Some folks pay a lot of money to find this stuff out! Read on, this is very interesting!
Don't be overly sensitive! The following is pretty accurate and it only takes 2 minutes. Take this test for yourself and send it to your friends.The person who sent it placed their score in the e-mail subject box. Please do the same before forwarding to your friends (send it back to the person who sent it to you.) Don't peek, but begin the test as you scroll down and answer.Answers are for who you are now --- not who you were in the past. Have pen or pencil and paper ready. This is a real test given by the Human Relations Dept. at many of the major corporations today. It helps them get better insight concerning their employees and prospective employees. It's only 10 Simple questions, so grab a pencil and paper, keeping track of your letter answers to each question. Make sure to change the subject of the e-mail to read YOUR total. When you are finished, forward this to friends/family, and also send it to the person who sent this to you. Make sure to put YOUR score in the subject box.Ready?Begin.1. When do you feel your best?a) in the morningb) during the afternoon and early eveningc) late at night
2. You usually walk...a) fairly fast, with long stepsb) fairly fast, with little stepsc) less fast head up, looking the world in the faced) less fast, head downe) very slowly
3. When talking to people you. . .a) stand with your arms foldedb) have your hands claspedc) have one or both your hands on your hipsd) touch or push the person to whom you are talkinge) play with your ear, touch your chin, or smooth your hair
4. When relaxing, you sit with. . .a) your knees bent with your legs neatly side by sideb) your legs crossedc) you r legs stretched out or straightd) one leg curled under you
5. When something really amuses you, you react with...a) big appreciated laughb) a laugh, but not a loud onec) a quiet chuckled) a sheepish smile6. When you go to a party or social gathering you...a) make a loud entrance so everyone notices youb) make a quiet entrance, looking around for someone you knowc) make the quietest entrance, trying to stay unnoticed7. You're working very hard, concentrating hard, and you're interrupted...a) welcome the breakb) feel extremely irritatedc) vary between these two extremes8. Which of the following colors do you like most?a) Red or orangeb) blackc) yellow or light blued) greene) dark blue or purplef) whiteg) brown or gray9. When you are in bed at night, in those last few moments before going to sleep you are...a) stretched out on your backb) stretched out face down on your stomachc) on your side, slightly curledd) with your head on one arme) with your head under the covers
10. You often dream that you are...a) fallingb) fighting or strugglingc) searching for something or somebodyd) flying or floatinge) you usually have dreamless sleepf) your dreams are always pleasant
POINTS:
1. (a) 2 (b) 4 (c) 6
2. (a) 6 (b) 4 (c) 7 (d) 2 (e) 1
3. (a) 4 (b) 2 (c) 5 (d) 7 (e) 6
4. (a) 4 (b) 6 (c) 2 (d) 1
5. (a) 6 (b) 4 (c) 3 (d) 5 (e) 2
6. (a) 6 (b) 4 (c) 2
7. (a) 6 (b) 2 (c) 4
8. (a) 6 (b) 7 (c) 5 (d) 4 (e) 3 (f) 2 (g) 1
9. (a) 7 (b) 6 (c) 4 (d) 2 (e) 1
10. (a) 4 (b) 2 (c) 3 (d) 5 (e) 6 (f) 1
3. (a) 4 (b) 2 (c) 5 (d) 7 (e) 6
4. (a) 4 (b) 6 (c) 2 (d) 1
5. (a) 6 (b) 4 (c) 3 (d) 5 (e) 2
6. (a) 6 (b) 4 (c) 2
7. (a) 6 (b) 2 (c) 4
8. (a) 6 (b) 7 (c) 5 (d) 4 (e) 3 (f) 2 (g) 1
9. (a) 7 (b) 6 (c) 4 (d) 2 (e) 1
10. (a) 4 (b) 2 (c) 3 (d) 5 (e) 6 (f) 1
Now add up the total number of points.
OVER 60 POINTS : Others see you as someone they should 'handle with care.' You're seen as vain, self-centered, and who is extremely dominant. Others may admire you, wishing they could be more like you, but don't always trust you, hesitating to become too deeply involved with you.
51 TO 60 POINTS : Others see you as an exciting, highly volatile, rather impulsive personality; a natural leader, who's quick to make decisions, though not always the right ones. They see you as bold and adventuresome, someone who will try anything once; someone who takes chances and enjoys an adventure. They enjoy being in your company because of the excitement you radiate.
41 TO 50 POINTS : Others see you as fresh, lively, charming, amusing, practical, and always interesting; someone who's constantly in the center of attention, but sufficiently well balanced not to let it go to their head. They also see you as kind, considerate, and understanding; someone who'll always cheer them u p and help them out.
31 TO 40 POINTS : Others see you as sensible, cautious, careful & practical. They see you as clever, gifted, or talented, but modest. Not a person who makes friends too quickly or easily, but someone who's extremely loyal to friends you do make and who expect the same loyalty in return. Those who really get to know you realize it takes a lot to shake your trust in your friends, but equally that it takes you a long time to get over if that trust is ever broken.
21 TO 30 POINTS: Your friends see you as painstaking and fussy. They see you as very cautious, extremely careful, a slow and steady plodder. It would really surprise them if you ever did something impulsively or on the spur of the moment, expecting you to examine everything carefully from every angle and then, usually decide against it. They think this reaction is caused partly by your careful nature.
UNDER 21 POINTS : People think you are shy, nervous, and indecisive, someone who needs looking after, who always wants someone else to make the decisions & who doesn't want to get involved with anyone or anything! They see you as a worrier who always sees problems that don't exist. Some people think you' re boring. Only those who know you well know that you aren't.
bahaha!~* guess mine guess mine guess mine~!! hahaha~
bahaha!~* guess mine guess mine guess mine~!! hahaha~
what we could have been, 6:17 AM.
