Sunday, November 4, 2007
oh gosh, i am so hooked onto HEROES now. its really getting exciting, and the japanese guy in the show is FRICKIN cute and funny~!!~ ahaha
finally, after putting off all pleasures of life in this entire year.
i didn;t go to church , go out often, watch dramas or tv shows that i liked, so that i could study.
and now i can maximize my holz and not rot like some fish at home.
Its time to get my fingers moving, learn some piano , type some novels, read some books.,GET SOME HOMEWORK DONE. Study harder. Learn korean japanese chinese and some french perhaps.
as a matter of fact, i picked up a copy of this fascinating book " THE SEVEN HABITS OF HIGHLY EFFECTIVE TEENS" which dad gave me years back. So far, i;ve read the first chapter and it has been awesome! It was about affirmation and it was like DEJAVU! it is something that i have been thinking about for the past few days. Some how, i think God really speaks to me in some way that i really cannot explain. He always makes me think of something which eventually, people talk about or wonder about. Amazing.
people often feel so insecure because they are not assured.
Wives repeatedly ask husbands if they still love them because they want to be sure that they still love them
people talk about the problem again and again to different people until they get some response they wish to hear , so that they will be somehow, assured, that they are not paranoid and that someone else thinks like them
Mum;s keep calling you to come home because they are not assured that you are safe outside.
People ask you " do you miss me " to feel assured that they have not been forgotten in the other party's lives.
So on and so fourth.
OH basically to be sure of what they are. who they are.
the first chapter talks about your paradigm[your glasses] , about how sometimes we must change our paradigms through which we see the world. Let me quote, and i tell you it is so damn true.
something to do with your self image.
here goes..
months back, when i read this particular paragraph, i cried and teared endlessly , i suffered from terrible self image[ worst than now] , and there was no one around who would seem to assure me of my abilities or my importance or my worth or that i wasn;t some freakish looking creature on earth. I can;t even approach my mother because she never understands and never really bothers about anything that has got anything to do with her. The more i talked to her about my problems, the angrier she got at me. But i thank God that weeks ago, when the guy insulted me, it made my dad talk to me and he actually encouraged me saying that he was proud of me and that i can do better!!!Since then, my paradigm actually shifted! it was like a cleared fog.
Sometimes people around you do need you to clean their glasses for them.
Hence, i realized that when we speak , we must be edifying, we must say things that affirm one another. If there are very little people who do this out there, then i must be someone who affirms other people. If i can;t depend on others for affirmation, then must depend on myself!
yeh. Today i went to church in the morning and sermon was interesting! however sometimes going to church makes me feel weak all over, somehow pastor always talk about something which stirs up my deepest emotion. Sometimes it gets a hold of me and i get depressed. But of course, i am now firm and i know that God has great things planned for all of us. Right now, i just want to know which cg i should join.
kkk, i hope this post has been beneficial~~ and ^^ : )
newy neway
if anyone wants to come over to my house to swim or hang out OR EVEN STUDY IN THE LIBRARY< PLEASE CALL KKY AT 98@@98@@ hahaha~~~~
: )~ !
finally, after putting off all pleasures of life in this entire year.
i didn;t go to church , go out often, watch dramas or tv shows that i liked, so that i could study.
and now i can maximize my holz and not rot like some fish at home.
Its time to get my fingers moving, learn some piano , type some novels, read some books.,GET SOME HOMEWORK DONE. Study harder. Learn korean japanese chinese and some french perhaps.
as a matter of fact, i picked up a copy of this fascinating book " THE SEVEN HABITS OF HIGHLY EFFECTIVE TEENS" which dad gave me years back. So far, i;ve read the first chapter and it has been awesome! It was about affirmation and it was like DEJAVU! it is something that i have been thinking about for the past few days. Some how, i think God really speaks to me in some way that i really cannot explain. He always makes me think of something which eventually, people talk about or wonder about. Amazing.
people often feel so insecure because they are not assured.
Wives repeatedly ask husbands if they still love them because they want to be sure that they still love them
people talk about the problem again and again to different people until they get some response they wish to hear , so that they will be somehow, assured, that they are not paranoid and that someone else thinks like them
Mum;s keep calling you to come home because they are not assured that you are safe outside.
People ask you " do you miss me " to feel assured that they have not been forgotten in the other party's lives.
So on and so fourth.
OH basically to be sure of what they are. who they are.
the first chapter talks about your paradigm[your glasses] , about how sometimes we must change our paradigms through which we see the world. Let me quote, and i tell you it is so damn true.
something to do with your self image.
here goes..
If my paradigm of myself is all contorted,what can i do to fix it? " one way is to spend time with someone who believes in you and builds you up. My mother was such a person to me,. when i was growing up, my mum always believed in me, especially when i doubted myself. She was always saying stuff like " sean,, of course you should run for class president? and " ask her out, i;m sure she would just die to go out with you " whenever i needed to be affirmed, i;d talk to my mum and she;s clean my glasses. ....
It only takes one person, and it doesn;t really matter who it is, Don;t be afraid to lean on this person and to get nourished by them, Go to them for ad vice a. Try to see yourself the way they see you . Oh my , what a difference a new pair of glasses can make! as someone once said, : if you could envision the type of person God intended you to be, you would rise up and never be the same again"
At times, you may not have anyone to lean on and may need to go solo. If this is the case with you, you need to build your self image.
months back, when i read this particular paragraph, i cried and teared endlessly , i suffered from terrible self image[ worst than now] , and there was no one around who would seem to assure me of my abilities or my importance or my worth or that i wasn;t some freakish looking creature on earth. I can;t even approach my mother because she never understands and never really bothers about anything that has got anything to do with her. The more i talked to her about my problems, the angrier she got at me. But i thank God that weeks ago, when the guy insulted me, it made my dad talk to me and he actually encouraged me saying that he was proud of me and that i can do better!!!Since then, my paradigm actually shifted! it was like a cleared fog.
Sometimes people around you do need you to clean their glasses for them.
Hence, i realized that when we speak , we must be edifying, we must say things that affirm one another. If there are very little people who do this out there, then i must be someone who affirms other people. If i can;t depend on others for affirmation, then must depend on myself!
yeh. Today i went to church in the morning and sermon was interesting! however sometimes going to church makes me feel weak all over, somehow pastor always talk about something which stirs up my deepest emotion. Sometimes it gets a hold of me and i get depressed. But of course, i am now firm and i know that God has great things planned for all of us. Right now, i just want to know which cg i should join.
kkk, i hope this post has been beneficial~~ and ^^ : )
newy neway
if anyone wants to come over to my house to swim or hang out OR EVEN STUDY IN THE LIBRARY< PLEASE CALL KKY AT 98@@98@@ hahaha~~~~
: )~ !
Labels: People; behaviour and thoughts
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