Tuesday, November 27, 2007
lolz this is funny~
http://www.mtvjapan.com/flvplayer/mcmsplayer.swf?plid=86&displayheight=312&displaywidth=416&startindex=1&autostart=false
Today morning i actually felt empty.
You know those kind of emptiness whereby you will wonder about
your existence
your worth
your identity
your loneliness
those kind of things
i made a prayer,
and then i went to the library and immersed myself in books
and studied some chemistry.
MY goodness. my brain seems to have partially rotted . not good news
It;s fun to just delve into the world of knowledge.
so vast, there is no end to it.
i seek her, that is understanding.
Read proverbs today.
Its scary sometimes how small you can feel when all i know is perhaps, 0.00000000000000000001 % of the things which is out there in the world. Sometimes it makes me feel incompetent. But feeling this way won;t get me anywhere.
so many categories; so many rows of bookshelves
Every book written , waiting to "out-popular" the book next to it.
Every book, written perhaps to make you cry harder than ever
Every book written in hopes of inspiring you again and again
every row
every book
every bind
every page
every print
ever so clear
behind every word there is a meaning to it,.
every meaning has more meaning and purpose to be there
i think i am going to visit the library again on friday, and for the following week, i will go there everyday!~~! i need to start studying cuz last two weeks were spent playing~~ so i think i should start reading up and studying.
i stayed in the library for about 4 hours. Being in the library in the night seems to be the best
it;s so quiet and nice~~.Too bad i cannot borrow any books. because i still owe the library a seven year old fine. haha~~~~~~
I am determined to find out my interest soon.
i will find my inner self through books
http://www.mtvjapan.com/flvplayer/mcmsplayer.swf?plid=86&displayheight=312&displaywidth=416&startindex=1&autostart=false
Today morning i actually felt empty.
You know those kind of emptiness whereby you will wonder about
your existence
your worth
your identity
your loneliness
those kind of things
i made a prayer,
and then i went to the library and immersed myself in books
and studied some chemistry.
MY goodness. my brain seems to have partially rotted . not good news
It;s fun to just delve into the world of knowledge.
so vast, there is no end to it.
i seek her, that is understanding.
Read proverbs today.
Its scary sometimes how small you can feel when all i know is perhaps, 0.00000000000000000001 % of the things which is out there in the world. Sometimes it makes me feel incompetent. But feeling this way won;t get me anywhere.
so many categories; so many rows of bookshelves
Every book written , waiting to "out-popular" the book next to it.
Every book, written perhaps to make you cry harder than ever
Every book written in hopes of inspiring you again and again
every row
every book
every bind
every page
every print
ever so clear
behind every word there is a meaning to it,.
every meaning has more meaning and purpose to be there
i think i am going to visit the library again on friday, and for the following week, i will go there everyday!~~! i need to start studying cuz last two weeks were spent playing~~ so i think i should start reading up and studying.
i stayed in the library for about 4 hours. Being in the library in the night seems to be the best
it;s so quiet and nice~~.Too bad i cannot borrow any books.
I am determined to find out my interest soon.
i will find my inner self through books
what we could have been, 7:27 AM.
