Wednesday, January 30, 2008
search google and type " she attributes her success hardwork"
HOW cliche.
I always try so hard and i cannot seem to get what i want! Or what i really desire.
I try so hard and only achieve half of what others don;t even put effort in for.
All they do is just to lift a finger, and nothing else. Jott down a few points only what, no big deal.
jerks.
hard work hard work hard work. go and die lah, what is the point of hard work when sometimes,, at the end of the day i forget all about what i am working so hard for, or i forgot how the process was like, or i did not even manage to attain half of what i am working for.
oh hey, don;t criticize me by saying " OH HEY YOU DON'T SUCCEED BECAUSE YOU KEEP COMPLAINING. " i;ll just reply by saying that you don;t even know WHAT is the thing i have been working so hard for, and so you have no right to say that. Complaining about something does not prevent people from succeeding.
the world is frickin unfair.
Is it because God made it like this ? Is it even right for me to question? Oh wait. i;m talking about creation here. We are born so different and everyone else seems to be born with some sort of advantage over me. Advantage over ME only. Why?
S lah, don;t worry, i KANT flippin give up on anything because why? If i do, then i will be diminished to nothing. Even though now i look like some fool trying TOO hard , its better than being something really insignificant. I;m trying too hard to cling on, and you know what, if i don;t cling on, i can;t die, but i will suffer! its like, hanging on for your dear life on an endless pole and if u let go, you are tortured cos you will fall through an endless pit of burning fire/ pins and needles. At least if u still hold on to the bloody pole, you won;t be Tortured to death.
sheesh
One thing which adds to my burden anguish and feeling of " THIS is so unfair " is because of ENGLISH@! wth. I can;t seem do comprehension!! save me!! how come like that!! can read can talk but, cannot write and think!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ahh ! For once in my life, i am actually WORRYING about english. I;m in shit, deep shit. OMGOODNESS ENGLISHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHIT.
i despise too much, i think too much about IRRELEVANT things to my papers. so shit .
i am so angry with myself today.
one phrase
WTH.
oh i shall be a little bit more hard working and spell it out.
WHAT THE HELL.
HOW cliche.
I always try so hard and i cannot seem to get what i want! Or what i really desire.
I try so hard and only achieve half of what others don;t even put effort in for.
All they do is just to lift a finger, and nothing else. Jott down a few points only what, no big deal.
hard work hard work hard work. go and die lah, what is the point of hard work when sometimes,, at the end of the day i forget all about what i am working so hard for, or i forgot how the process was like, or i did not even manage to attain half of what i am working for.
oh hey, don;t criticize me by saying " OH HEY YOU DON'T SUCCEED BECAUSE YOU KEEP COMPLAINING. " i;ll just reply by saying that you don;t even know WHAT is the thing i have been working so hard for, and so you have no right to say that. Complaining about something does not prevent people from succeeding.
the world is frickin unfair.
Is it because God made it like this ? Is it even right for me to question? Oh wait. i;m talking about creation here. We are born so different and everyone else seems to be born with some sort of advantage over me. Advantage over ME only. Why?
S lah, don;t worry, i KANT flippin give up on anything because why? If i do, then i will be diminished to nothing. Even though now i look like some fool trying TOO hard , its better than being something really insignificant. I;m trying too hard to cling on, and you know what, if i don;t cling on, i can;t die, but i will suffer! its like, hanging on for your dear life on an endless pole and if u let go, you are tortured cos you will fall through an endless pit of burning fire/ pins and needles. At least if u still hold on to the bloody pole, you won;t be Tortured to death.
sheesh
One thing which adds to my burden anguish and feeling of " THIS is so unfair " is because of ENGLISH@! wth. I can;t seem do comprehension!! save me!! how come like that!! can read can talk but, cannot write and think!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ahh ! For once in my life, i am actually WORRYING about english. I;m in shit, deep shit. OMGOODNESS ENGLISHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHIT.
i despise too much, i think too much about IRRELEVANT things to my papers. so shit .
i am so angry with myself today.
one phrase
WTH.
oh i shall be a little bit more hard working and spell it out.
WHAT THE HELL.
what we could have been, 4:37 AM.
