Friday, February 22, 2008
Let me return back to the time when i first entered JJ.C.
Of course, considering that i didn;t spend my first three months there, i was already beginning to compare standards from the moment i entered the school grounds. I hated the way the talks were held and i hated the school buildings, disliked this, disliked that. . . I was critical and i was criticizing almost every aspect. What made me dislike it even more was the fact that the student leaders were really high and screaming and cheering, TO EACH OTHER in a very high and uncanny manner. I felt embarrassed for them. But to them, the leaders, they didn;t seem to care about whether they looked crazy or high.
I wanted to test if it was true that introverts or rather, those who refused to speak [ stereotyped as the EMOKIAS , which i personally think is a wrong category], would get left out. Or so to say, to see if they only cared about the people who bothered to get high in the first place.
I refused to cheer, only simply because i felt that it was meaningless, i felt that " hey this is so wrong, do you mean that you will only be part of the IN crowd or be accepted if you are one of the people who cheered and get HIGH ? " and because in the first place, all the talk between the leaders were just " hey the members don't seem to get high at all " i even remembered one of my ogl;s crying on the night saying that " at first, when i see u all, u all refused to get high, then i .......... "
get high get high, was all they seemed to care about. And to top it off, perhaps the second intake leaders were not as experienced and some of them just went off to play with their friends. I hated the games cuz i couldn;t understand how come they won;t even bother playing a simple game with integrity, their concept was winning or loosing, still cheer , cus thats character! But i couldn;t understand why i should have bothered crawling high up and low and run around just to attain some water bombs , which i could have just gotten from the sides of the track. During the night games, it seemed like only the leaders were the ones running about , expecting us to follow them. I didn;t like it. what was the purpose?
I couldn;t understand how a few people could get together and look silly together,.
I couldn;t understand how a few people could get so high just shouting a few phrases of ohhhh i am so gonna win
i was determined never to do such things As I felt as if they only cared about the high members and left the emokias alone. I vowed that if i were to be a leader, i would want to make the emokia members not feel left out. And also, i thought that i would never want to cheer.
i was wrong.
I signed up for the YOG with SQ a few days back, maybe i was under duress of my situation , thats why i did it, but i don;t regret it one bit!It was great!!! If one didn;t cheer, one would be oddly out of place. I now understand how one can truly enjoy oneself. Since one is there and in that situation, you might as well participate, put one;s discomforts aside, enroll yourself into that activity, look silly and then you will definitely enjoy yourself. I was standing at the last corner and it was strange because some people from a certain other college were just sitting there and staring us.-_- But we just did our stuff, haha and majority of the crowd were actually cheering along with us!! haha it was really great! At the end of the event, all the leaders crowded onto the stage and street following the fruity apple and PEARlyn in a series of simultaneously simple, silly actions to the beat of the music. First time dancing on THE ROAD lei...haha. We danced for about an hour or so. To end off the night, all of us gathered together and sang the song HOME.
I feel really proud to be S|ngaporean, winning the bid is just great! haha.
and of course, the experience of being a jayjay leader is also great! Cheering regardless of whatever is really part of one;s character.. The thing about being part of this team, is that really, everyone is supportive of each other, and everyone truly wants everyone else be enrolled into the game, the situation and the action and to truly enjoy themselves.
my dad is so funny, he sent me a text this morning saying " :-) hoolay, k33 main hoola team for sin. Y0u+th olymp|c"
hahahaha..........
in JJ now? Be a leader!
haha sharon is so funny and gentle.
she does things in such a serene manner, wow. haha
i played the song " rehab" on her cellphone during a break,
Wineh0use sings ~" they tried to make me go for rehab but " sharon says " NO,,~~ no ~ no~~~"
hahaha~
study study~~~
Of course, considering that i didn;t spend my first three months there, i was already beginning to compare standards from the moment i entered the school grounds. I hated the way the talks were held and i hated the school buildings, disliked this, disliked that. . . I was critical and i was criticizing almost every aspect. What made me dislike it even more was the fact that the student leaders were really high and screaming and cheering, TO EACH OTHER in a very high and uncanny manner. I felt embarrassed for them. But to them, the leaders, they didn;t seem to care about whether they looked crazy or high.
I wanted to test if it was true that introverts or rather, those who refused to speak [ stereotyped as the EMOKIAS , which i personally think is a wrong category], would get left out. Or so to say, to see if they only cared about the people who bothered to get high in the first place.
I refused to cheer, only simply because i felt that it was meaningless, i felt that " hey this is so wrong, do you mean that you will only be part of the IN crowd or be accepted if you are one of the people who cheered and get HIGH ? " and because in the first place, all the talk between the leaders were just " hey the members don't seem to get high at all " i even remembered one of my ogl;s crying on the night saying that " at first, when i see u all, u all refused to get high, then i .......... "
get high get high, was all they seemed to care about. And to top it off, perhaps the second intake leaders were not as experienced and some of them just went off to play with their friends. I hated the games cuz i couldn;t understand how come they won;t even bother playing a simple game with integrity, their concept was winning or loosing, still cheer , cus thats character! But i couldn;t understand why i should have bothered crawling high up and low and run around just to attain some water bombs , which i could have just gotten from the sides of the track. During the night games, it seemed like only the leaders were the ones running about , expecting us to follow them. I didn;t like it. what was the purpose?
I couldn;t understand how a few people could get together and look silly together,.
I couldn;t understand how a few people could get so high just shouting a few phrases of ohhhh i am so gonna win
i was determined never to do such things As I felt as if they only cared about the high members and left the emokias alone. I vowed that if i were to be a leader, i would want to make the emokia members not feel left out. And also, i thought that i would never want to cheer.
i was wrong.
I signed up for the YOG with SQ a few days back, maybe i was under duress of my situation , thats why i did it, but i don;t regret it one bit!It was great!!! If one didn;t cheer, one would be oddly out of place. I now understand how one can truly enjoy oneself. Since one is there and in that situation, you might as well participate, put one;s discomforts aside, enroll yourself into that activity, look silly and then you will definitely enjoy yourself. I was standing at the last corner and it was strange because some people from a certain other college were just sitting there and staring us.-_- But we just did our stuff, haha and majority of the crowd were actually cheering along with us!! haha it was really great! At the end of the event, all the leaders crowded onto the stage and street following the fruity apple and PEARlyn in a series of simultaneously simple, silly actions to the beat of the music. First time dancing on THE ROAD lei...haha. We danced for about an hour or so. To end off the night, all of us gathered together and sang the song HOME.
I feel really proud to be S|ngaporean, winning the bid is just great! haha.
and of course, the experience of being a jayjay leader is also great! Cheering regardless of whatever is really part of one;s character.. The thing about being part of this team, is that really, everyone is supportive of each other, and everyone truly wants everyone else be enrolled into the game, the situation and the action and to truly enjoy themselves.
my dad is so funny, he sent me a text this morning saying " :-) hoolay, k33 main hoola team for sin. Y0u+th olymp|c"
hahahaha..........
in JJ now? Be a leader!
haha sharon is so funny and gentle.
she does things in such a serene manner, wow. haha
i played the song " rehab" on her cellphone during a break,
Wineh0use sings ~" they tried to make me go for rehab but " sharon says " NO,,~~ no ~ no~~~"
hahaha~
study study~~~
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