Friday, May 30, 2008
안안안안안 안녕~~
i think i will change this blog soon,
had lunch with dad and ting at anchor point
had dinner with dad ting and eJ at home
shopped with ting at anchor point again
hhhaha and i finally made my first purchase in ages
kinda like, haha finally found something
oh well, anchor point is starting to become like the Xth home, hope it gets more exciting
나 정말이지 갖고싶어
공부를열십히하자. ..
나도 .. .. . 갖고싶어
i think i will change this blog soon,
had lunch with dad and ting at anchor point
had dinner with dad ting and eJ at home
shopped with ting at anchor point again
hhhaha and i finally made my first purchase in ages
kinda like, haha finally found something
oh well, anchor point is starting to become like the Xth home, hope it gets more exciting
나 정말이지 갖고싶어
공부를열십히하자. ..
나도 .. .. . 갖고싶어
what we could have been, 8:59 AM.
Thursday, May 29, 2008
i just came back from TKD CAMP 08!
its awesome ! : )
i only went on the second day,
huishin astrea and i missed the bus stop
and we were pretty suprised when we saw that the HALTON TERRACE WAS RIGHT BESIDE THE OLD CHANGGGI HOS
normally , talks about going to changi always revolve about going to view
BAPOKS [?]
the hospital
ghostly stories
and prison
yes , and even though we were right there right then, no one in the right mind really wanted enter the OCH. in the night
of course i believe that its a right choice.
The bbq was really a good time for people to bond tgt i guess
the J1s this year are an interesting batch and mix,
people randomly shouting준비! everywhere
hhh
i really hope everything would go well for them this year and that the newly appointed committee will do a good job, kkkk
HAD the passing out parade and we saw the TKD SEAL for the first time -0-! hahah
hh you know what, i really bad with blogging about events ,
so i;ll end this here,
i will really miss TKD people and all the things we did as a club
i am really glad that i joined TKD and stuck to it! : )
miss the comm
miss miss
its awesome ! : )
i only went on the second day,
huishin astrea and i missed the bus stop
and we were pretty suprised when we saw that the HALTON TERRACE WAS RIGHT BESIDE THE OLD CHANGGGI HOS
normally , talks about going to changi always revolve about going to view
BAPOKS [?]
the hospital
ghostly stories
and prison
yes , and even though we were right there right then, no one in the right mind really wanted enter the OCH. in the night
of course i believe that its a right choice.
The bbq was really a good time for people to bond tgt i guess
the J1s this year are an interesting batch and mix,
people randomly shouting준비! everywhere
hhh
i really hope everything would go well for them this year and that the newly appointed committee will do a good job, kkkk
HAD the passing out parade and we saw the TKD SEAL for the first time -0-! hahah
hh you know what, i really bad with blogging about events ,
so i;ll end this here,
i will really miss TKD people and all the things we did as a club
i am really glad that i joined TKD and stuck to it! : )
miss the comm
miss miss
what we could have been, 6:57 AM.
Monday, May 26, 2008
people can be so unfriendly
i;m really bored, and i need a good laugh
everyone;s online and no one is talking
i feel like saying HI to everyone and make friends now
but, THERES NO ONE
i want to call up all my old friends and just laugh like crazy
but NO NONE OF My friends are picking up the phone
i wanna run around and scream like the jungle people
i want to swing from the step with my sisters like how we did 12 years back in jubillee
mom;s getting soo flipping defensive about every freaking thing and its getting on my last few nerves. PERIOD
MEI YOU MEI YOU MEI YOU
-_-
"i;m using the phone"
indicates that you should put it down right?
no, what do you do?
" I DIDNT KNOW YOU ARE USING THE PHONE LAH!?"
wth.
STUDY LE
STUDY LE
STUDY LE
is that all you can ASK Me to do ?
i wanna flash my fingers into the air now,
oh what pretty nails.
i;m really bored, and i need a good laugh
everyone;s online and no one is talking
i feel like saying HI to everyone and make friends now
but, THERES NO ONE
i want to call up all my old friends and just laugh like crazy
but NO NONE OF My friends are picking up the phone
i wanna run around and scream like the jungle people
i want to swing from the step with my sisters like how we did 12 years back in jubillee
mom;s getting soo flipping defensive about every freaking thing and its getting on my last few nerves. PERIOD
MEI YOU MEI YOU MEI YOU
-_-
"i;m using the phone"
indicates that you should put it down right?
no, what do you do?
" I DIDNT KNOW YOU ARE USING THE PHONE LAH!?"
wth.
STUDY LE
STUDY LE
STUDY LE
is that all you can ASK Me to do ?
i wanna flash my fingers into the air now,
oh what pretty nails.
what we could have been, 4:50 AM.
Sunday, May 25, 2008
too many things occur simultaneously and at the most uncanny timings .
can;t really describe what i feel ? yeah thats it..
ohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh i feel too much
haha
i went out with the committe today to get some gifts, hahaha
its honestly quite fun, but we actually took four hours to walk around and end up in the VERY FIRST shop and bought what we wanted to buy initially . LOL
WENT TO THE FOOD FAIR AT EXPO WITH MOM AND EJ AND TING
HAHA WE ATE A LOT!!!!
MOM:s HAVING A VERY HIGH FREQUENCY MOOD SWING TODAY AND RECENTLY
CANT REALLY EXPRESS HOW I FEEL ABOUT THIS MOOD SWINGS
EXCEPT I FEEL A LITTLE BIT HWANG DANG!황당!!
AND 짜증나 .. . -_-! BUT,,,,,, ITS OK! LOL
YOU KNOW SOMETHING?
I;M STILL A LITTLE BIT UNSURE ABOUT WHAT I WANNA STUDY IN THE FUTURE!
AND WELL, SINCE I WAS QUITE YOUNG, PEOPLE SAY THAT I SHOULD TAKE PSYCHOLOGY OR COUNSELING SINCE I AM QUITE A "FEELING " PERSON,.
BUT OF COURSE STEREOTYPES EMERGE AND ONE OF THE MOST CLICHE THINK YOU WOULD EVER HEAR FROM SOMEONE;S MOUTH IS
" IF YOU WANT TO MAJOR IN PSYCHOLOGY, YOU MUST GET A MASTERS THEN GOT USE,, AND IF U WANT TO DO WELL THEN YOU SHOULD GO OVERSEAS"
FIRSTLY, I THINK THAT ,AS LONG AS YOU DO WHAT YOU LIKE AND YOU LOVE , I THINK YOU ARE DOING PRETTY WELL, : ) AND THAT NOTHING SHOULD STOP YOU!! ,OF COURSE I WOULDN;T MIND GOING OVERSEAS OF COURSE, KKK
AND SECONDLY , WHEN I READ THAT PSYCHOLOGY IS SUCH A POPULAR COURSE AMONG PEOPLE IN OUR COUNTRY, I WAS SLIGHTLY ,, UMM SIGHING,,?. I DON;T KNOW, BUT SOMETIMES WHEN I HEAR THAT A PERSON WHO WAS THE MOST INSENSITIVE OR UNREASONABLE WANTS TO TAKE PSYCHOLOGY, I FEEL A SENSE OF ,,, FANGAN? LIKE,,, DISAPPROVAL,, BUT AGAIN, WHO AM I TO PREVENT THEM FROM TAKING WHAT THEY WANT? SOMETIMES I FEEL QUITE SAD COS SOME OF THEM THINK THAT ITS AN EASY COURSE, STEREOTYPE LEH!!!!! BUT I KNOW IT WON;T BE EASY, LIKE WHEN WAS THINGS EVER EASY IN LIFE?BESIDES,, MUST AT LEAST STRAIGHT A;S LEH.... AND BESIDES, SOME PEOPLE THINK THAT PSYCHOLOGY IS JUST ABOUT KNOWING WHAT SOME ONE IS THINKING ABOUT ,,, BUT ,,IT IS ACTUALLY ABOUT STUDYING AND UNDERSTANDING OF THE HUMAN MIND AND BEHAVIOR AND THOUGHT? ? BUT OF COURSE, I THINK THAT LIKE IF SOCIETY HAS SO MANY PEOPLE WITH A CERTAIN DEGREE, THEN PERHAPS I COULD CONTRIBUTE IN ANOTHER AREA INSTEAD .
OF COURSE, I AM REALLY INTERESTED IN PSYCHOLOGY, : ) BUT,, I DON;T REALLY KNOW WHAT IS STOPPING ME,,, AND OF COURSE, WITH RECENT EVENTS IN MY LIFE, I SOMETIMES FEEL REALLY TIRED TO TRY FINDING OUT WHY SOMEONE IS DOING THIS OR THAT,, I MEAN SOMETIMES I FEEL QUITE SAD THAT EVEN THOUGH I CAN UNDERSTAND WHY THE PERSON MAY DO SOMETHING THEY DO,, I CANNOT DO ANYTHING TO STOP THE CONSEQUENCES OF THEIR ACTIONS. AND SOMETIMES I FEEL QUITE HELPLESS THAT I CANNOT STOP THE PERSON FROM REACTING IN A CERTAIN MANNER EVEN THOUGH I KNOW WHAT IS GOING THROUGH HER.HIS HEAD...... YOU KNOW,, LIKE WHEN THE MASSACRE HAPPENED LAST YEAR IN V.TECH.,, PEOPLE COULD ONLY IDENTIFY WHY HE DID WHAT HE DID, BUT THE EFFECTS OF HIS PSY/MENTAL PROBLEM WAS NOT REALLY DAMPENED..... OF COURSE PEOPLE COULD HAVE COUNSELED THE TRAUMATIZED PEOPLE, BUT SIGH , I DNO .... . .. I;D FEEL QUITE HELPLESS LIKE THAT.SIGH AND EVEN SO,, IF LETS SAY ONE WERE TO MAJOR IN COUNSELING , I REALISED THAT WE CAN ONLY HELP THOSE WHO REALLY COME OUT OF THEIR SHELLS AND REALLY SEEK HELP,, AND THAT THERE ARE ACTUALLY MANY OF THEM WHO NEED HELP,, AND ARE NOT REALLY WILLING TO SEEK HELP.. I THINK THERE SHOULD BE SOMETHING DONE TO INCREASE THE MEDIUMS IN WHICH PEOPLE CAN SEEK HELP IN..
BUT OF COURSE, I DO KNOW THAT THERE ARE MANY JOBS AVAILABLE FOR PEOPLE WITH THIS DEGREE : )
OF COURSE, PLEASE DON;T GET ME WRONG, I AM NOT AGAINST PEOPLE STUDYING PSYCHOLOGY OF COURSE, , , KKK~ i;m just scared of these stereotypes.. i don;t know why .
DO YOU KNOW WHAT I MEAN?
SIGH I DON;LT KNOW
THERE ARE SOME STRANGE WALLS THAT ARE TRAPPING ME NOW, CAN;T REALLY IDENTIFY THEM.
OH WELL, BUT OF COURSE IF I WERE GIVEN THE CHANCE , I WOULD LOVE TO PURSUE THIS DEGREE .. KKKKK
BUT NOT EASY LEH!!! MUST GET STRAIGHT A'S FOR A'S THEN CAN GET IN,, ,HAHA
HAHA OF COURSE I HAVE BEEN CONSIDERING TONNES OF OTHER COURSES ~~ STILL CAN;T REALLY MAKE UP MY MIND~~ KKK
SO EXCITING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! CAN;T REALLY IMAGINE~~~ OHHHHHH
HAHA BUT ITS OK!~~
,
HAHA,,,,,, DON;T THINK ABOUT IT
OHHHHH I AM SO TIRED NOW, AND THIS HOLIDAY IS GOING TO BE JAMMED AND PACKED FOR ME!! FOR NOW
I REALLY WISH THAT
MOM WOULD KAN KAI YI DIAN
MOM WOULD BE HAPPIER
MOM WOULD NOT REPEAT HER FRUSTRATIONS x 100000000000 TIMES
AND
TO ACE CHEM . PERIOD
TO ACE ECONS AND REALLY UNDERSTAND IT
TO ACE PHYSICS! * ohhhhhhhh please let me!*
TO IMPROVE MY GP BY THREE MORE GRADES AND GAIN MY CONFIDENCE IN GP.
TO ACE
SIGH HONESTLY THIS HAS BEEN A PRETTY DEPRESSING AND WEIRD WEEK FOR ME ,,,
SO INSECURE AND SO ,,,,,
TICKED OFF BY CERTAIN STUFF,.
CAN;TREALLY UNDERSTAND WHY IN LIFE WE ARE WORST OFF IN SOME AREAS THAN OTHER PEOPLE ,AND FOR UNFORTUNATE PEOPLE LIKE ME ,I;M WORST OFF IN MORE AREAS
CANT REALLY UNDERSTAND WHY PEOPLE MUST LOOK UP TO PEOPLE FROM THE -GOOD SCHOOLS-- IN THEIR DEFINITION, WHEN I ONLY REALIZE THAT MOST OF THEM BEGIN TO LOSE THEIR EQ,. AND OF COURSE, IT DOES NOT MEAN THAT PEOPLE ARE LIKE FROM AWESOME SCHOOLS THAT THEY HAVE TO BE BETTER THAN EVERYONE ELSE IN ANYTHING THEY DO,,. TOTALLY STEREOTYPE MAN.
CAN;T REALLY UNDERSTAND WHY THE BAD ALWAYS WIN SOMETIMES.
CAN'[T REALLY UNDERSTAND WHY PEOPLE CAN;T GO FOR PLASTIC SURGERY AND WHY I AM AGAINST IT ? WHILST I;D LOVE DO HAVE SOME ALTERATIONS .
CAN;T REALLY UNDERSTAND WHY AM SO IMPATIENT SOMETIMES
CAN;T REALLY UNDERSTAND HOW THINGS WORK SOMETIMES.
CAN;T REALLY UNDERSTAND WHY MY FRIENDS ARE BEGINNING TO FORGET SOMEONE.
CAN;T REALLY UNDERSTAND WHY IMAGINARY BARRIERS PROP UP WHENEVER I TALK TO CERTAIN PEOPLE.
CAN;T REALLY UNDERSTAND WHY MY ENGLISH RESULTS ARE SO HORRIBLE : ( !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! SUPER SAD
CAN;T REALLY UNDERSTAND WHY PEOPLE MUST DISCRIMINATE ME
CAN;T REALLY UNDERSTAND WHY I TRY SO HARD TO BE SOMEONE ELSE THAT I AM NOT WHEN I AM WITH CERTAIN PEOPLE
CAN;T REALLY UNDRSTAND WHY I CAN;T REALLY IDENTIFY MY FULL IDENTITY AND KEEP COPYING SOMETIMES.
CAN;T REALLY UNDRSTAND WHY I CAN;T UNDERSTAND THE STRANGEST THINGS. KK
Kkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk
anyway better go rest now,,,,,,,,
study hard kaiiiiiii~
must concentrate for chem and physics and econs and GP ESP this term lol
GP OH GP and PHYSICS OH PHYSICS COULD YOU PLEASE WORK WITH ME ?: : ) hahah
sleep ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ : )
Embracing whatever that presents itself to me ^_^
can;t really describe what i feel ? yeah thats it..
ohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh i feel too much
haha
i went out with the committe today to get some gifts, hahaha
its honestly quite fun, but we actually took four hours to walk around and end up in the VERY FIRST shop and bought what we wanted to buy initially . LOL
WENT TO THE FOOD FAIR AT EXPO WITH MOM AND EJ AND TING
HAHA WE ATE A LOT!!!!
MOM:s HAVING A VERY HIGH FREQUENCY MOOD SWING TODAY AND RECENTLY
CANT REALLY EXPRESS HOW I FEEL ABOUT THIS MOOD SWINGS
EXCEPT I FEEL A LITTLE BIT HWANG DANG!황당!!
AND 짜증나 .. . -_-! BUT,,,,,, ITS OK! LOL
YOU KNOW SOMETHING?
I;M STILL A LITTLE BIT UNSURE ABOUT WHAT I WANNA STUDY IN THE FUTURE!
AND WELL, SINCE I WAS QUITE YOUNG, PEOPLE SAY THAT I SHOULD TAKE PSYCHOLOGY OR COUNSELING SINCE I AM QUITE A "FEELING " PERSON,.
BUT OF COURSE STEREOTYPES EMERGE AND ONE OF THE MOST CLICHE THINK YOU WOULD EVER HEAR FROM SOMEONE;S MOUTH IS
" IF YOU WANT TO MAJOR IN PSYCHOLOGY, YOU MUST GET A MASTERS THEN GOT USE,, AND IF U WANT TO DO WELL THEN YOU SHOULD GO OVERSEAS"
FIRSTLY, I THINK THAT ,AS LONG AS YOU DO WHAT YOU LIKE AND YOU LOVE , I THINK YOU ARE DOING PRETTY WELL, : ) AND THAT NOTHING SHOULD STOP YOU!! ,OF COURSE I WOULDN;T MIND GOING OVERSEAS OF COURSE, KKK
AND SECONDLY , WHEN I READ THAT PSYCHOLOGY IS SUCH A POPULAR COURSE AMONG PEOPLE IN OUR COUNTRY, I WAS SLIGHTLY ,, UMM SIGHING,,?. I DON;T KNOW, BUT SOMETIMES WHEN I HEAR THAT A PERSON WHO WAS THE MOST INSENSITIVE OR UNREASONABLE WANTS TO TAKE PSYCHOLOGY, I FEEL A SENSE OF ,,, FANGAN? LIKE,,, DISAPPROVAL,, BUT AGAIN, WHO AM I TO PREVENT THEM FROM TAKING WHAT THEY WANT? SOMETIMES I FEEL QUITE SAD COS SOME OF THEM THINK THAT ITS AN EASY COURSE, STEREOTYPE LEH!!!!! BUT I KNOW IT WON;T BE EASY, LIKE WHEN WAS THINGS EVER EASY IN LIFE?BESIDES,, MUST AT LEAST STRAIGHT A;S LEH.... AND BESIDES, SOME PEOPLE THINK THAT PSYCHOLOGY IS JUST ABOUT KNOWING WHAT SOME ONE IS THINKING ABOUT ,,, BUT ,,IT IS ACTUALLY ABOUT STUDYING AND UNDERSTANDING OF THE HUMAN MIND AND BEHAVIOR AND THOUGHT? ? BUT OF COURSE, I THINK THAT LIKE IF SOCIETY HAS SO MANY PEOPLE WITH A CERTAIN DEGREE, THEN PERHAPS I COULD CONTRIBUTE IN ANOTHER AREA INSTEAD .
OF COURSE, I AM REALLY INTERESTED IN PSYCHOLOGY, : ) BUT,, I DON;T REALLY KNOW WHAT IS STOPPING ME,,, AND OF COURSE, WITH RECENT EVENTS IN MY LIFE, I SOMETIMES FEEL REALLY TIRED TO TRY FINDING OUT WHY SOMEONE IS DOING THIS OR THAT,, I MEAN SOMETIMES I FEEL QUITE SAD THAT EVEN THOUGH I CAN UNDERSTAND WHY THE PERSON MAY DO SOMETHING THEY DO,, I CANNOT DO ANYTHING TO STOP THE CONSEQUENCES OF THEIR ACTIONS. AND SOMETIMES I FEEL QUITE HELPLESS THAT I CANNOT STOP THE PERSON FROM REACTING IN A CERTAIN MANNER EVEN THOUGH I KNOW WHAT IS GOING THROUGH HER.HIS HEAD...... YOU KNOW,, LIKE WHEN THE MASSACRE HAPPENED LAST YEAR IN V.TECH.,, PEOPLE COULD ONLY IDENTIFY WHY HE DID WHAT HE DID, BUT THE EFFECTS OF HIS PSY/MENTAL PROBLEM WAS NOT REALLY DAMPENED..... OF COURSE PEOPLE COULD HAVE COUNSELED THE TRAUMATIZED PEOPLE, BUT SIGH , I DNO .... . .. I;D FEEL QUITE HELPLESS LIKE THAT.SIGH AND EVEN SO,, IF LETS SAY ONE WERE TO MAJOR IN COUNSELING , I REALISED THAT WE CAN ONLY HELP THOSE WHO REALLY COME OUT OF THEIR SHELLS AND REALLY SEEK HELP,, AND THAT THERE ARE ACTUALLY MANY OF THEM WHO NEED HELP,, AND ARE NOT REALLY WILLING TO SEEK HELP.. I THINK THERE SHOULD BE SOMETHING DONE TO INCREASE THE MEDIUMS IN WHICH PEOPLE CAN SEEK HELP IN..
BUT OF COURSE, I DO KNOW THAT THERE ARE MANY JOBS AVAILABLE FOR PEOPLE WITH THIS DEGREE : )
OF COURSE, PLEASE DON;T GET ME WRONG, I AM NOT AGAINST PEOPLE STUDYING PSYCHOLOGY OF COURSE, , , KKK~ i;m just scared of these stereotypes.. i don;t know why .
DO YOU KNOW WHAT I MEAN?
SIGH I DON;LT KNOW
THERE ARE SOME STRANGE WALLS THAT ARE TRAPPING ME NOW, CAN;T REALLY IDENTIFY THEM.
OH WELL, BUT OF COURSE IF I WERE GIVEN THE CHANCE , I WOULD LOVE TO PURSUE THIS DEGREE .. KKKKK
BUT NOT EASY LEH!!! MUST GET STRAIGHT A'S FOR A'S THEN CAN GET IN,, ,HAHA
HAHA OF COURSE I HAVE BEEN CONSIDERING TONNES OF OTHER COURSES ~~ STILL CAN;T REALLY MAKE UP MY MIND~~ KKK
SO EXCITING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! CAN;T REALLY IMAGINE~~~ OHHHHHH
HAHA BUT ITS OK!~~
,
HAHA,,,,,, DON;T THINK ABOUT IT
OHHHHH I AM SO TIRED NOW, AND THIS HOLIDAY IS GOING TO BE JAMMED AND PACKED FOR ME!! FOR NOW
I REALLY WISH THAT
MOM WOULD KAN KAI YI DIAN
MOM WOULD BE HAPPIER
MOM WOULD NOT REPEAT HER FRUSTRATIONS x 100000000000 TIMES
AND
TO ACE CHEM . PERIOD
TO ACE ECONS AND REALLY UNDERSTAND IT
TO ACE PHYSICS! * ohhhhhhhh please let me!*
TO IMPROVE MY GP BY THREE MORE GRADES AND GAIN MY CONFIDENCE IN GP.
TO ACE
SIGH HONESTLY THIS HAS BEEN A PRETTY DEPRESSING AND WEIRD WEEK FOR ME ,,,
SO INSECURE AND SO ,,,,,
TICKED OFF BY CERTAIN STUFF,.
CAN;TREALLY UNDERSTAND WHY IN LIFE WE ARE WORST OFF IN SOME AREAS THAN OTHER PEOPLE ,AND FOR UNFORTUNATE PEOPLE LIKE ME ,I;M WORST OFF IN MORE AREAS
CANT REALLY UNDERSTAND WHY PEOPLE MUST LOOK UP TO PEOPLE FROM THE -GOOD SCHOOLS-- IN THEIR DEFINITION, WHEN I ONLY REALIZE THAT MOST OF THEM BEGIN TO LOSE THEIR EQ,. AND OF COURSE, IT DOES NOT MEAN THAT PEOPLE ARE LIKE FROM AWESOME SCHOOLS THAT THEY HAVE TO BE BETTER THAN EVERYONE ELSE IN ANYTHING THEY DO,,. TOTALLY STEREOTYPE MAN.
CAN;T REALLY UNDERSTAND WHY THE BAD ALWAYS WIN SOMETIMES.
CAN'[T REALLY UNDERSTAND WHY PEOPLE CAN;T GO FOR PLASTIC SURGERY AND WHY I AM AGAINST IT ? WHILST I;D LOVE DO HAVE SOME ALTERATIONS .
CAN;T REALLY UNDERSTAND WHY AM SO IMPATIENT SOMETIMES
CAN;T REALLY UNDERSTAND HOW THINGS WORK SOMETIMES.
CAN;T REALLY UNDERSTAND WHY MY FRIENDS ARE BEGINNING TO FORGET SOMEONE.
CAN;T REALLY UNDERSTAND WHY IMAGINARY BARRIERS PROP UP WHENEVER I TALK TO CERTAIN PEOPLE.
CAN;T REALLY UNDERSTAND WHY MY ENGLISH RESULTS ARE SO HORRIBLE : ( !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! SUPER SAD
CAN;T REALLY UNDERSTAND WHY PEOPLE MUST DISCRIMINATE ME
CAN;T REALLY UNDERSTAND WHY I TRY SO HARD TO BE SOMEONE ELSE THAT I AM NOT WHEN I AM WITH CERTAIN PEOPLE
CAN;T REALLY UNDRSTAND WHY I CAN;T REALLY IDENTIFY MY FULL IDENTITY AND KEEP COPYING SOMETIMES.
CAN;T REALLY UNDRSTAND WHY I CAN;T UNDERSTAND THE STRANGEST THINGS. KK
Kkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk
anyway better go rest now,,,,,,,,
study hard kaiiiiiii~
must concentrate for chem and physics and econs and GP ESP this term lol
GP OH GP and PHYSICS OH PHYSICS COULD YOU PLEASE WORK WITH ME ?: : ) hahah
sleep ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ : )
Embracing whatever that presents itself to me ^_^
what we could have been, 8:18 AM.
Thursday, May 22, 2008
안녕,, 안녕 안녕..~~
내일을 학교 마지막날이다
나는 내일영어 시험때문에 너무 떨려@_@~
kkkkk
At least my da jie was really nice to me today!
She came over to visit and let me explore her new lappie : )
YES and she brought stuff to makan hhahaha
quite nice to have some one else other than my reflection in the house sometimes kkk
Thanks DJ for your insight,,
anyway school has been just really mundane.
but i am still fighting on , because it is not me to give up
but of course i still believe that if one does not even bother to sharpen their weapon, one might as well not bother to enter the battlefield.
but if one wants to fight, one has to give their all and might
trying to sharpen my weapons now
i;m too emotional about everything that revolves around me
kkk i feel about everything,, how true.. haha
oh well!
GP! i will TRY my best! even though its tough !
힘내자
^_^
잘가~~ 잘가 잘가~~
내일을 학교 마지막날이다
나는 내일영어 시험때문에 너무 떨려@_@~
kkkkk
At least my da jie was really nice to me today!
She came over to visit and let me explore her new lappie : )
YES and she brought stuff to makan hhahaha
quite nice to have some one else other than my reflection in the house sometimes kkk
Thanks DJ for your insight,,
anyway school has been just really mundane.
but i am still fighting on , because it is not me to give up
but of course i still believe that if one does not even bother to sharpen their weapon, one might as well not bother to enter the battlefield.
but if one wants to fight, one has to give their all and might
trying to sharpen my weapons now
i;m too emotional about everything that revolves around me
kkk i feel about everything,, how true.. haha
oh well!
GP! i will TRY my best! even though its tough !
힘내자
^_^
잘가~~ 잘가 잘가~~
what we could have been, 7:54 AM.
Tuesday, May 20, 2008
am disappointing , is disappointed, a disappointment
if i could grab you , i would body slam you
i would slap you a thousand times until you bled
i would scream loudly into your face
can you just wake the freak up and quit the act
quit the act and just get out of the set
if you can;t control then you might as well resign from the role
i can;t even recognize myself sometimes
give me some identity
ashamed
in preparation for CAREER FAIR
they ask ,,
ARE YOU LOST?
yes i am,
oh save me please i don;t know what i want
oh save me please oh jill of no trade.
the lost sheep. oh someone poach me
haha
5년뒤의 네 모습은?
if i could grab you , i would body slam you
i would slap you a thousand times until you bled
i would scream loudly into your face
can you just wake the freak up and quit the act
quit the act and just get out of the set
if you can;t control then you might as well resign from the role
i can;t even recognize myself sometimes
give me some identity
ashamed
in preparation for CAREER FAIR
they ask ,,
ARE YOU LOST?
yes i am,
oh save me please i don;t know what i want
oh save me please oh jill of no trade.
the lost sheep. oh someone poach me
haha
5년뒤의 네 모습은?
몰라,,
kky
what we could have been, 7:45 AM.
Saturday, May 17, 2008
i;m tired
training today was really long@ but fun!!!!
i think we are totally prepared for tomorrow right HS AND AST!! : )
anyway its so funny
joke of the day,
lets buy a drink and scream YAY!!ｅｌｅｍｅｎｔ ｏｆ ｓｕｒｐｉｒｓｅ
polar bears eat bamboos
lets call sugar cane bamboo
hahahahah!!!!
wayward.
thats what happens when chinese and i come together.
haha had a hard time picking the committee today,,
ok i;m tired i actually have so much to say but i better rest now
hope tomorrow;s tournament would be good :）!
haha but i really enjoyed today, though i did waste quite a fair bit of time, but it was fun to let loose and feel a little cranky sometimes ,hahaha i;m too unfriendly looking sometimes, haha
but i;m totally not ok!ｈａｈａ
ｉｔ ｆｅｅｌｓ ｇｏｏｄ ｔｏ ｐｒｅｔｅｎｄ ｔｈａｔ ｔｈｅｒｅ ｉｓ ｎｏｔｈｉｎｇ ｉｍｐｏｒｔａｎｔ ｇｏｎｎｇ ｏｎ ｎｅｘｔ ｗｅｅｋ， ｂｕｔ， ｙｅａｈ， ｔｈｅｒｅ ａｒｅ ｉｍｐｏｒｔａｎｔ ｔｈｉｎｇｓ ｇｏｉｎｇ ｏｎ ｎｅｘｔ ｗｅｅｋ， ｌｏｌ！
oh well
why do we do what we do.
this question has been taunting me for the past few days
the past week actually
whyyyyyyy why why whyyyyyy
and why do i do such things , just why
why do i feel such things why
why do people entrust SUCH things to me?
oh i;m such a pessimist. lol
training today was really long@ but fun!!!!
i think we are totally prepared for tomorrow right HS AND AST!! : )
anyway its so funny
joke of the day,
lets buy a drink and scream YAY!!ｅｌｅｍｅｎｔ ｏｆ ｓｕｒｐｉｒｓｅ
polar bears eat bamboos
lets call sugar cane bamboo
hahahahah!!!!
wayward.
thats what happens when chinese and i come together.
haha had a hard time picking the committee today,,
ok i;m tired i actually have so much to say but i better rest now
hope tomorrow;s tournament would be good :）!
haha but i really enjoyed today, though i did waste quite a fair bit of time, but it was fun to let loose and feel a little cranky sometimes ,hahaha i;m too unfriendly looking sometimes, haha
but i;m totally not ok!ｈａｈａ
ｉｔ ｆｅｅｌｓ ｇｏｏｄ ｔｏ ｐｒｅｔｅｎｄ ｔｈａｔ ｔｈｅｒｅ ｉｓ ｎｏｔｈｉｎｇ ｉｍｐｏｒｔａｎｔ ｇｏｎｎｇ ｏｎ ｎｅｘｔ ｗｅｅｋ， ｂｕｔ， ｙｅａｈ， ｔｈｅｒｅ ａｒｅ ｉｍｐｏｒｔａｎｔ ｔｈｉｎｇｓ ｇｏｉｎｇ ｏｎ ｎｅｘｔ ｗｅｅｋ， ｌｏｌ！
oh well
why do we do what we do.
this question has been taunting me for the past few days
the past week actually
whyyyyyyy why why whyyyyyy
and why do i do such things , just why
why do i feel such things why
why do people entrust SUCH things to me?
oh i;m such a pessimist. lol
what we could have been, 8:07 AM.
Monday, May 12, 2008
i feel like eating some stuff,
sunday was horrible as i spent the entire day ALONE,,,,
yeah, to top it off, i ate junk for the whole day cos i had nothing to do/ entertain me, and everyone else has someone else to accompany them or do something else.
while i couldn;t do anything else except to laze around and watch tv whilst feeling guilty,
sad , you can;t even watch tV in peace nowadays cos there;s so much to do and we have not enough time leh!! buttttttt i watch. haha i am officially addicted to MYTHBUSTERS : )
feel like eating gooey chocolateeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee and cake ............ @@~~
,,,,,,,,,,,
upon pg 147 reading economics explained authored by Mr peter.M and some other writers, i was curious to know if there was real difference between price wage and wage price spiral, seriously regretted it .
curiosity killed the cat.
i was totally insulted by my teacher when i consulted her about this question, if there was a distinct difference between the two, when she directly told me that my question was totally unimportant and made me look like a fool who knew nothing,.
out of curiosity, i also asked her some questions regarding the extra points which was placed in the lect notes solely INTENDED to be additional info only for THE BETTER STUDENTS WHO CAN HANDLE HER SUBJECT WELL.
she scolded me for not listening to her lecture cos she only mentioned that we need not know these additional stuff. which is totally untrue, cos i do listen
why not segregate 'info for better students who can handle your subject " and give it to these students then ? ps: ownage lehhhhhhh
she went on saying stuff like " YOU SHOULD JUST KNOW THE GIST OF THE TOPIC. blah blahblah"
i told her i was just curious,
and she continued ,, making me feel so embarrassed in the presence of 3 other spectators .-_-
AND scolded me for my curiosity.
seriously, i;ve never been scolded for being curious about learning in my life. ever.
i walked out of the LT crying and feeling the suckiest.
remind me to shut up during the tutorials.
hh thanks for listening manz xueren hl and PRis who had to witness the aftermath , kk
at least i am still thankful that the other subject tutors are nice:)
on a side note, mom asked me a rhetorical question
10 PM: " u still don;t want to wake up ah?! "
hhh.
sunday was horrible as i spent the entire day ALONE,,,,
yeah, to top it off, i ate junk for the whole day cos i had nothing to do/ entertain me, and everyone else has someone else to accompany them or do something else.
while i couldn;t do anything else except to laze around and watch tv whilst feeling guilty,
sad , you can;t even watch tV in peace nowadays cos there;s so much to do and we have not enough time leh!! buttttttt i watch. haha i am officially addicted to MYTHBUSTERS : )
feel like eating gooey chocolateeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee and cake ............ @@~~
,,,,,,,,,,,
upon pg 147 reading economics explained authored by Mr peter.M and some other writers, i was curious to know if there was real difference between price wage and wage price spiral, seriously regretted it .
curiosity killed the cat.
i was totally insulted by my teacher when i consulted her about this question, if there was a distinct difference between the two, when she directly told me that my question was totally unimportant and made me look like a fool who knew nothing,.
out of curiosity, i also asked her some questions regarding the extra points which was placed in the lect notes solely INTENDED to be additional info only for THE BETTER STUDENTS WHO CAN HANDLE HER SUBJECT WELL.
she scolded me for not listening to her lecture cos she only mentioned that we need not know these additional stuff. which is totally untrue, cos i do listen
why not segregate 'info for better students who can handle your subject " and give it to these students then ? ps: ownage lehhhhhhh
she went on saying stuff like " YOU SHOULD JUST KNOW THE GIST OF THE TOPIC. blah blahblah"
i told her i was just curious,
and she continued ,, making me feel so embarrassed in the presence of 3 other spectators .-_-
AND scolded me for my curiosity.
seriously, i;ve never been scolded for being curious about learning in my life. ever.
i walked out of the LT crying and feeling the suckiest.
remind me to shut up during the tutorials.
hh thanks for listening manz xueren hl and PRis who had to witness the aftermath , kk
at least i am still thankful that the other subject tutors are nice:)
on a side note, mom asked me a rhetorical question
10 PM: " u still don;t want to wake up ah?! "
hhh.
what we could have been, 9:43 AM.
Monday, May 5, 2008
Thanks benji for rushing to my aid
Thanks huilian and sharon
i;m still fighting a battle with my mind
the past week was tough,
i need more strength and will
thanks for the abandonment,
i calledforhelpandnothing happened
i;ll forget it .
over the next two weeks
i promise to conquer my barriers
힘내요.@!
Thanks huilian and sharon
i;m still fighting a battle with my mind
the past week was tough,
i need more strength and will
thanks for the abandonment,
i calledforhelpandnothing happened
i;ll forget it .
over the next two weeks
i promise to conquer my barriers
힘내요.@!
what we could have been, 6:02 AM.
Sunday, May 4, 2008
학교 가기싫어요,
ㅠ_ㅠ,
we revive seemingly dead things because we hope.
BRINGGGGGGGGGGGGGG ME TO LIFEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE
갖고싶어
죽고싶어
바보바보.
닥쳐@!
if you could take my life away.
ㅠ_ㅠ,
we revive seemingly dead things because we hope.
BRINGGGGGGGGGGGGGG ME TO LIFEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE
갖고싶어
죽고싶어
바보바보.
닥쳐@!
if you could take my life away.
what we could have been, 9:40 AM.
if you were to take my life away
if you were to take my life away
if you were to take my life away
i;m taking this blog;s life away
if you were to take my life away
if you were to take my life away
i;m taking this blog;s life away
what we could have been, 9:29 AM.
Saturday, May 3, 2008
조두 ㅑ ㄱㄷ미ㅣㅛ ㅜㄷㄷㅇㄷㅇ ㅗ디ㅔ ㅜㅐ ㅐㅜㄷ ㄷㅍ두ㅗㅠㅐ솓ㄱㄷㅇ
ㅜㅁ ㅠ뮤ㅐ ㅜ므 ㅓㅁ ㅓㅐㅜ 효대ㅜㅎ 모ㅜ ㅗㅁㄷ
지금부터 , ㅑ 쟈ㅣㅣ ㅜㅐㅅ ㅊㅁㄱㄷ 무ㅛㅡㅐㄱㄷ
ㅑ ㅜㄷㄷㅇ 내ㅡㄷ ㄱㄷ미 ㄹ갸둥ㄴ
ㅑ ㅜㄷㄷㅇ 솓 ㄲㄸ미 ㄹ꺄뚱ㄴ.
ㅑ ㅈ무ㅜㅁ 얃 ㄱㄷ미ㅣㅛ ,,ㅓㅕㄴㅅ ㅈ무ㅜㅁ 얃
有时我自己都不认识自己，。
一点都不明白一点也都不了解
너 맘대로해.
请把我给杀死
两年前也一样
my ways get into my way.
the whole world .....................
OH GOD I:M A SINNER
ohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh just eraseeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee my memory
ohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh just stop it
oh.
ㅜㅁ ㅠ뮤ㅐ ㅜ므 ㅓㅁ ㅓㅐㅜ 효대ㅜㅎ 모ㅜ ㅗㅁㄷ
지금부터 , ㅑ 쟈ㅣㅣ ㅜㅐㅅ ㅊㅁㄱㄷ 무ㅛㅡㅐㄱㄷ
ㅑ ㅜㄷㄷㅇ 내ㅡㄷ ㄱㄷ미 ㄹ갸둥ㄴ
ㅑ ㅜㄷㄷㅇ 솓 ㄲㄸ미 ㄹ꺄뚱ㄴ.
ㅑ ㅈ무ㅜㅁ 얃 ㄱㄷ미ㅣㅛ ,,ㅓㅕㄴㅅ ㅈ무ㅜㅁ 얃
有时我自己都不认识自己，。
一点都不明白一点也都不了解
너 맘대로해.
请把我给杀死
两年前也一样
my ways get into my way.
the whole world .....................
OH GOD I:M A SINNER
ohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh just eraseeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee my memory
ohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh just stop it
oh.
what we could have been, 6:58 AM.
Friday, May 2, 2008
if you could take my life away now
if you could take my life away now
what would you need me to do anyway,
what is the point
i saw some lesbians
i saw some wayward children
i have ditchy friends
i saw some unhappy teens
i have an unhappy mom
i saw some people wasting their lives away
i saw how purposeless things could get
i saw how things exist seemingly without reason
when i see these , i feel upset
when i need help the most
i see no hope
죽고싶어.
i know i am a sinner
i know that i believe
but i am not reassured.
i feel like dying,,,,,
please shed some light,
T_T..........
if you could take my life away now
what would you need me to do anyway,
what is the point
i saw some lesbians
i saw some wayward children
i have ditchy friends
i saw some unhappy teens
i have an unhappy mom
i saw some people wasting their lives away
i saw how purposeless things could get
i saw how things exist seemingly without reason
when i see these , i feel upset
when i need help the most
i see no hope
죽고싶어.
i know i am a sinner
i know that i believe
but i am not reassured.
i feel like dying,,,,,
please shed some light,
T_T..........
what we could have been, 7:30 AM.
