Sunday, May 25, 2008
too many things occur simultaneously and at the most uncanny timings .
can;t really describe what i feel ? yeah thats it..
ohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh i feel too much
haha
i went out with the committe today to get some gifts, hahaha
its honestly quite fun, but we actually took four hours to walk around and end up in the VERY FIRST shop and bought what we wanted to buy initially . LOL
WENT TO THE FOOD FAIR AT EXPO WITH MOM AND EJ AND TING
HAHA WE ATE A LOT!!!!
MOM:s HAVING A VERY HIGH FREQUENCY MOOD SWING TODAY AND RECENTLY
CANT REALLY EXPRESS HOW I FEEL ABOUT THIS MOOD SWINGS
EXCEPT I FEEL A LITTLE BIT HWANG DANG!황당!!
AND 짜증나 .. . -_-! BUT,,,,,, ITS OK! LOL
YOU KNOW SOMETHING?
I;M STILL A LITTLE BIT UNSURE ABOUT WHAT I WANNA STUDY IN THE FUTURE!
AND WELL, SINCE I WAS QUITE YOUNG, PEOPLE SAY THAT I SHOULD TAKE PSYCHOLOGY OR COUNSELING SINCE I AM QUITE A "FEELING " PERSON,.
BUT OF COURSE STEREOTYPES EMERGE AND ONE OF THE MOST CLICHE THINK YOU WOULD EVER HEAR FROM SOMEONE;S MOUTH IS
" IF YOU WANT TO MAJOR IN PSYCHOLOGY, YOU MUST GET A MASTERS THEN GOT USE,, AND IF U WANT TO DO WELL THEN YOU SHOULD GO OVERSEAS"
FIRSTLY, I THINK THAT ,AS LONG AS YOU DO WHAT YOU LIKE AND YOU LOVE , I THINK YOU ARE DOING PRETTY WELL, : ) AND THAT NOTHING SHOULD STOP YOU!! ,OF COURSE I WOULDN;T MIND GOING OVERSEAS OF COURSE, KKK
AND SECONDLY , WHEN I READ THAT PSYCHOLOGY IS SUCH A POPULAR COURSE AMONG PEOPLE IN OUR COUNTRY, I WAS SLIGHTLY ,, UMM SIGHING,,?. I DON;T KNOW, BUT SOMETIMES WHEN I HEAR THAT A PERSON WHO WAS THE MOST INSENSITIVE OR UNREASONABLE WANTS TO TAKE PSYCHOLOGY, I FEEL A SENSE OF ,,, FANGAN? LIKE,,, DISAPPROVAL,, BUT AGAIN, WHO AM I TO PREVENT THEM FROM TAKING WHAT THEY WANT? SOMETIMES I FEEL QUITE SAD COS SOME OF THEM THINK THAT ITS AN EASY COURSE, STEREOTYPE LEH!!!!! BUT I KNOW IT WON;T BE EASY, LIKE WHEN WAS THINGS EVER EASY IN LIFE?BESIDES,, MUST AT LEAST STRAIGHT A;S LEH.... AND BESIDES, SOME PEOPLE THINK THAT PSYCHOLOGY IS JUST ABOUT KNOWING WHAT SOME ONE IS THINKING ABOUT ,,, BUT ,,IT IS ACTUALLY ABOUT STUDYING AND UNDERSTANDING OF THE HUMAN MIND AND BEHAVIOR AND THOUGHT? ? BUT OF COURSE, I THINK THAT LIKE IF SOCIETY HAS SO MANY PEOPLE WITH A CERTAIN DEGREE, THEN PERHAPS I COULD CONTRIBUTE IN ANOTHER AREA INSTEAD .
OF COURSE, I AM REALLY INTERESTED IN PSYCHOLOGY, : ) BUT,, I DON;T REALLY KNOW WHAT IS STOPPING ME,,, AND OF COURSE, WITH RECENT EVENTS IN MY LIFE, I SOMETIMES FEEL REALLY TIRED TO TRY FINDING OUT WHY SOMEONE IS DOING THIS OR THAT,, I MEAN SOMETIMES I FEEL QUITE SAD THAT EVEN THOUGH I CAN UNDERSTAND WHY THE PERSON MAY DO SOMETHING THEY DO,, I CANNOT DO ANYTHING TO STOP THE CONSEQUENCES OF THEIR ACTIONS. AND SOMETIMES I FEEL QUITE HELPLESS THAT I CANNOT STOP THE PERSON FROM REACTING IN A CERTAIN MANNER EVEN THOUGH I KNOW WHAT IS GOING THROUGH HER.HIS HEAD...... YOU KNOW,, LIKE WHEN THE MASSACRE HAPPENED LAST YEAR IN V.TECH.,, PEOPLE COULD ONLY IDENTIFY WHY HE DID WHAT HE DID, BUT THE EFFECTS OF HIS PSY/MENTAL PROBLEM WAS NOT REALLY DAMPENED..... OF COURSE PEOPLE COULD HAVE COUNSELED THE TRAUMATIZED PEOPLE, BUT SIGH , I DNO .... . .. I;D FEEL QUITE HELPLESS LIKE THAT.SIGH AND EVEN SO,, IF LETS SAY ONE WERE TO MAJOR IN COUNSELING , I REALISED THAT WE CAN ONLY HELP THOSE WHO REALLY COME OUT OF THEIR SHELLS AND REALLY SEEK HELP,, AND THAT THERE ARE ACTUALLY MANY OF THEM WHO NEED HELP,, AND ARE NOT REALLY WILLING TO SEEK HELP.. I THINK THERE SHOULD BE SOMETHING DONE TO INCREASE THE MEDIUMS IN WHICH PEOPLE CAN SEEK HELP IN..
BUT OF COURSE, I DO KNOW THAT THERE ARE MANY JOBS AVAILABLE FOR PEOPLE WITH THIS DEGREE : )
OF COURSE, PLEASE DON;T GET ME WRONG, I AM NOT AGAINST PEOPLE STUDYING PSYCHOLOGY OF COURSE, , , KKK~ i;m just scared of these stereotypes.. i don;t know why .
DO YOU KNOW WHAT I MEAN?
SIGH I DON;LT KNOW
THERE ARE SOME STRANGE WALLS THAT ARE TRAPPING ME NOW, CAN;T REALLY IDENTIFY THEM.
OH WELL, BUT OF COURSE IF I WERE GIVEN THE CHANCE , I WOULD LOVE TO PURSUE THIS DEGREE .. KKKKK
BUT NOT EASY LEH!!! MUST GET STRAIGHT A'S FOR A'S THEN CAN GET IN,, ,HAHA
HAHA OF COURSE I HAVE BEEN CONSIDERING TONNES OF OTHER COURSES ~~ STILL CAN;T REALLY MAKE UP MY MIND~~ KKK
SO EXCITING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! CAN;T REALLY IMAGINE~~~ OHHHHHH
HAHA BUT ITS OK!~~
,
HAHA,,,,,, DON;T THINK ABOUT IT
OHHHHH I AM SO TIRED NOW, AND THIS HOLIDAY IS GOING TO BE JAMMED AND PACKED FOR ME!! FOR NOW
I REALLY WISH THAT
MOM WOULD KAN KAI YI DIAN
MOM WOULD BE HAPPIER
MOM WOULD NOT REPEAT HER FRUSTRATIONS x 100000000000 TIMES
AND
TO ACE CHEM . PERIOD
TO ACE ECONS AND REALLY UNDERSTAND IT
TO ACE PHYSICS! * ohhhhhhhh please let me!*
TO IMPROVE MY GP BY THREE MORE GRADES AND GAIN MY CONFIDENCE IN GP.
TO ACE
SIGH HONESTLY THIS HAS BEEN A PRETTY DEPRESSING AND WEIRD WEEK FOR ME ,,,
SO INSECURE AND SO ,,,,,
TICKED OFF BY CERTAIN STUFF,.
CAN;TREALLY UNDERSTAND WHY IN LIFE WE ARE WORST OFF IN SOME AREAS THAN OTHER PEOPLE ,AND FOR UNFORTUNATE PEOPLE LIKE ME ,I;M WORST OFF IN MORE AREAS
CANT REALLY UNDERSTAND WHY PEOPLE MUST LOOK UP TO PEOPLE FROM THE -GOOD SCHOOLS-- IN THEIR DEFINITION, WHEN I ONLY REALIZE THAT MOST OF THEM BEGIN TO LOSE THEIR EQ,. AND OF COURSE, IT DOES NOT MEAN THAT PEOPLE ARE LIKE FROM AWESOME SCHOOLS THAT THEY HAVE TO BE BETTER THAN EVERYONE ELSE IN ANYTHING THEY DO,,. TOTALLY STEREOTYPE MAN.
CAN;T REALLY UNDERSTAND WHY THE BAD ALWAYS WIN SOMETIMES.
CAN'[T REALLY UNDERSTAND WHY PEOPLE CAN;T GO FOR PLASTIC SURGERY AND WHY I AM AGAINST IT ? WHILST I;D LOVE DO HAVE SOME ALTERATIONS .
CAN;T REALLY UNDERSTAND WHY AM SO IMPATIENT SOMETIMES
CAN;T REALLY UNDERSTAND HOW THINGS WORK SOMETIMES.
CAN;T REALLY UNDERSTAND WHY MY FRIENDS ARE BEGINNING TO FORGET SOMEONE.
CAN;T REALLY UNDERSTAND WHY IMAGINARY BARRIERS PROP UP WHENEVER I TALK TO CERTAIN PEOPLE.
CAN;T REALLY UNDERSTAND WHY MY ENGLISH RESULTS ARE SO HORRIBLE : ( !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! SUPER SAD
CAN;T REALLY UNDERSTAND WHY PEOPLE MUST DISCRIMINATE ME
CAN;T REALLY UNDERSTAND WHY I TRY SO HARD TO BE SOMEONE ELSE THAT I AM NOT WHEN I AM WITH CERTAIN PEOPLE
CAN;T REALLY UNDRSTAND WHY I CAN;T REALLY IDENTIFY MY FULL IDENTITY AND KEEP COPYING SOMETIMES.
CAN;T REALLY UNDRSTAND WHY I CAN;T UNDERSTAND THE STRANGEST THINGS. KK
Kkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk
anyway better go rest now,,,,,,,,
study hard kaiiiiiii~
must concentrate for chem and physics and econs and GP ESP this term lol
GP OH GP and PHYSICS OH PHYSICS COULD YOU PLEASE WORK WITH ME ?: : ) hahah
sleep ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ : )
Embracing whatever that presents itself to me ^_^
can;t really describe what i feel ? yeah thats it..
ohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh i feel too much
haha
i went out with the committe today to get some gifts, hahaha
its honestly quite fun, but we actually took four hours to walk around and end up in the VERY FIRST shop and bought what we wanted to buy initially . LOL
WENT TO THE FOOD FAIR AT EXPO WITH MOM AND EJ AND TING
HAHA WE ATE A LOT!!!!
MOM:s HAVING A VERY HIGH FREQUENCY MOOD SWING TODAY AND RECENTLY
CANT REALLY EXPRESS HOW I FEEL ABOUT THIS MOOD SWINGS
EXCEPT I FEEL A LITTLE BIT HWANG DANG!황당!!
AND 짜증나 .. . -_-! BUT,,,,,, ITS OK! LOL
YOU KNOW SOMETHING?
I;M STILL A LITTLE BIT UNSURE ABOUT WHAT I WANNA STUDY IN THE FUTURE!
AND WELL, SINCE I WAS QUITE YOUNG, PEOPLE SAY THAT I SHOULD TAKE PSYCHOLOGY OR COUNSELING SINCE I AM QUITE A "FEELING " PERSON,.
BUT OF COURSE STEREOTYPES EMERGE AND ONE OF THE MOST CLICHE THINK YOU WOULD EVER HEAR FROM SOMEONE;S MOUTH IS
" IF YOU WANT TO MAJOR IN PSYCHOLOGY, YOU MUST GET A MASTERS THEN GOT USE,, AND IF U WANT TO DO WELL THEN YOU SHOULD GO OVERSEAS"
FIRSTLY, I THINK THAT ,AS LONG AS YOU DO WHAT YOU LIKE AND YOU LOVE , I THINK YOU ARE DOING PRETTY WELL, : ) AND THAT NOTHING SHOULD STOP YOU!! ,OF COURSE I WOULDN;T MIND GOING OVERSEAS OF COURSE, KKK
AND SECONDLY , WHEN I READ THAT PSYCHOLOGY IS SUCH A POPULAR COURSE AMONG PEOPLE IN OUR COUNTRY, I WAS SLIGHTLY ,, UMM SIGHING,,?. I DON;T KNOW, BUT SOMETIMES WHEN I HEAR THAT A PERSON WHO WAS THE MOST INSENSITIVE OR UNREASONABLE WANTS TO TAKE PSYCHOLOGY, I FEEL A SENSE OF ,,, FANGAN? LIKE,,, DISAPPROVAL,, BUT AGAIN, WHO AM I TO PREVENT THEM FROM TAKING WHAT THEY WANT? SOMETIMES I FEEL QUITE SAD COS SOME OF THEM THINK THAT ITS AN EASY COURSE, STEREOTYPE LEH!!!!! BUT I KNOW IT WON;T BE EASY, LIKE WHEN WAS THINGS EVER EASY IN LIFE?BESIDES,, MUST AT LEAST STRAIGHT A;S LEH.... AND BESIDES, SOME PEOPLE THINK THAT PSYCHOLOGY IS JUST ABOUT KNOWING WHAT SOME ONE IS THINKING ABOUT ,,, BUT ,,IT IS ACTUALLY ABOUT STUDYING AND UNDERSTANDING OF THE HUMAN MIND AND BEHAVIOR AND THOUGHT? ? BUT OF COURSE, I THINK THAT LIKE IF SOCIETY HAS SO MANY PEOPLE WITH A CERTAIN DEGREE, THEN PERHAPS I COULD CONTRIBUTE IN ANOTHER AREA INSTEAD .
OF COURSE, I AM REALLY INTERESTED IN PSYCHOLOGY, : ) BUT,, I DON;T REALLY KNOW WHAT IS STOPPING ME,,, AND OF COURSE, WITH RECENT EVENTS IN MY LIFE, I SOMETIMES FEEL REALLY TIRED TO TRY FINDING OUT WHY SOMEONE IS DOING THIS OR THAT,, I MEAN SOMETIMES I FEEL QUITE SAD THAT EVEN THOUGH I CAN UNDERSTAND WHY THE PERSON MAY DO SOMETHING THEY DO,, I CANNOT DO ANYTHING TO STOP THE CONSEQUENCES OF THEIR ACTIONS. AND SOMETIMES I FEEL QUITE HELPLESS THAT I CANNOT STOP THE PERSON FROM REACTING IN A CERTAIN MANNER EVEN THOUGH I KNOW WHAT IS GOING THROUGH HER.HIS HEAD...... YOU KNOW,, LIKE WHEN THE MASSACRE HAPPENED LAST YEAR IN V.TECH.,, PEOPLE COULD ONLY IDENTIFY WHY HE DID WHAT HE DID, BUT THE EFFECTS OF HIS PSY/MENTAL PROBLEM WAS NOT REALLY DAMPENED..... OF COURSE PEOPLE COULD HAVE COUNSELED THE TRAUMATIZED PEOPLE, BUT SIGH , I DNO .... . .. I;D FEEL QUITE HELPLESS LIKE THAT.SIGH AND EVEN SO,, IF LETS SAY ONE WERE TO MAJOR IN COUNSELING , I REALISED THAT WE CAN ONLY HELP THOSE WHO REALLY COME OUT OF THEIR SHELLS AND REALLY SEEK HELP,, AND THAT THERE ARE ACTUALLY MANY OF THEM WHO NEED HELP,, AND ARE NOT REALLY WILLING TO SEEK HELP.. I THINK THERE SHOULD BE SOMETHING DONE TO INCREASE THE MEDIUMS IN WHICH PEOPLE CAN SEEK HELP IN..
BUT OF COURSE, I DO KNOW THAT THERE ARE MANY JOBS AVAILABLE FOR PEOPLE WITH THIS DEGREE : )
OF COURSE, PLEASE DON;T GET ME WRONG, I AM NOT AGAINST PEOPLE STUDYING PSYCHOLOGY OF COURSE, , , KKK~ i;m just scared of these stereotypes.. i don;t know why .
DO YOU KNOW WHAT I MEAN?
SIGH I DON;LT KNOW
THERE ARE SOME STRANGE WALLS THAT ARE TRAPPING ME NOW, CAN;T REALLY IDENTIFY THEM.
OH WELL, BUT OF COURSE IF I WERE GIVEN THE CHANCE , I WOULD LOVE TO PURSUE THIS DEGREE .. KKKKK
BUT NOT EASY LEH!!! MUST GET STRAIGHT A'S FOR A'S THEN CAN GET IN,, ,HAHA
HAHA OF COURSE I HAVE BEEN CONSIDERING TONNES OF OTHER COURSES ~~ STILL CAN;T REALLY MAKE UP MY MIND~~ KKK
SO EXCITING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! CAN;T REALLY IMAGINE~~~ OHHHHHH
HAHA BUT ITS OK!~~
,
HAHA,,,,,, DON;T THINK ABOUT IT
OHHHHH I AM SO TIRED NOW, AND THIS HOLIDAY IS GOING TO BE JAMMED AND PACKED FOR ME!! FOR NOW
I REALLY WISH THAT
MOM WOULD KAN KAI YI DIAN
MOM WOULD BE HAPPIER
MOM WOULD NOT REPEAT HER FRUSTRATIONS x 100000000000 TIMES
AND
TO ACE CHEM . PERIOD
TO ACE ECONS AND REALLY UNDERSTAND IT
TO ACE PHYSICS! * ohhhhhhhh please let me!*
TO IMPROVE MY GP BY THREE MORE GRADES AND GAIN MY CONFIDENCE IN GP.
TO ACE
SIGH HONESTLY THIS HAS BEEN A PRETTY DEPRESSING AND WEIRD WEEK FOR ME ,,,
SO INSECURE AND SO ,,,,,
TICKED OFF BY CERTAIN STUFF,.
CAN;TREALLY UNDERSTAND WHY IN LIFE WE ARE WORST OFF IN SOME AREAS THAN OTHER PEOPLE ,AND FOR UNFORTUNATE PEOPLE LIKE ME ,I;M WORST OFF IN MORE AREAS
CANT REALLY UNDERSTAND WHY PEOPLE MUST LOOK UP TO PEOPLE FROM THE -GOOD SCHOOLS-- IN THEIR DEFINITION, WHEN I ONLY REALIZE THAT MOST OF THEM BEGIN TO LOSE THEIR EQ,. AND OF COURSE, IT DOES NOT MEAN THAT PEOPLE ARE LIKE FROM AWESOME SCHOOLS THAT THEY HAVE TO BE BETTER THAN EVERYONE ELSE IN ANYTHING THEY DO,,. TOTALLY STEREOTYPE MAN.
CAN;T REALLY UNDERSTAND WHY THE BAD ALWAYS WIN SOMETIMES.
CAN'[T REALLY UNDERSTAND WHY PEOPLE CAN;T GO FOR PLASTIC SURGERY AND WHY I AM AGAINST IT ? WHILST I;D LOVE DO HAVE SOME ALTERATIONS .
CAN;T REALLY UNDERSTAND WHY AM SO IMPATIENT SOMETIMES
CAN;T REALLY UNDERSTAND HOW THINGS WORK SOMETIMES.
CAN;T REALLY UNDERSTAND WHY MY FRIENDS ARE BEGINNING TO FORGET SOMEONE.
CAN;T REALLY UNDERSTAND WHY IMAGINARY BARRIERS PROP UP WHENEVER I TALK TO CERTAIN PEOPLE.
CAN;T REALLY UNDERSTAND WHY MY ENGLISH RESULTS ARE SO HORRIBLE : ( !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! SUPER SAD
CAN;T REALLY UNDERSTAND WHY PEOPLE MUST DISCRIMINATE ME
CAN;T REALLY UNDERSTAND WHY I TRY SO HARD TO BE SOMEONE ELSE THAT I AM NOT WHEN I AM WITH CERTAIN PEOPLE
CAN;T REALLY UNDRSTAND WHY I CAN;T REALLY IDENTIFY MY FULL IDENTITY AND KEEP COPYING SOMETIMES.
CAN;T REALLY UNDRSTAND WHY I CAN;T UNDERSTAND THE STRANGEST THINGS. KK
Kkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk
anyway better go rest now,,,,,,,,
study hard kaiiiiiii~
must concentrate for chem and physics and econs and GP ESP this term lol
GP OH GP and PHYSICS OH PHYSICS COULD YOU PLEASE WORK WITH ME ?: : ) hahah
sleep ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ : )
Embracing whatever that presents itself to me ^_^
what we could have been, 8:18 AM.
