HAHA~ I AM IN THE SCHOOL LIBRARY WITH SHARON NOW
and with effect from tomorrow, i;m going to be offline, permanently.
o the social deprivation .
but its alright,
do you know the feeling , when you are really enthusiastic about something , or someone, or just interested in talking to your friends, and yet they just don;t seem to reciprocate the same interest about you or what you are talking about. Even if they are not interested, they do not bother to show basic social etiquette and even respect the person by just listening or,, you might say ,pretending to be interested.
hh, i just hope that even my friends/accquaintances/people around me would prove to the world that they themselves, are cold.
oh well~ gtg now@
SATurday!~
what we could have been, 7:54 PM.
NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG G NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG G NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG G NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG
nag in chinese, now THATS worse.
Try to rebut in chinese, Thats HARD.
mom doesnt see how hard i try
i don;t regret being in jc ,
in fact i love it, i love how each thing that i study presents itself as a revelation, an answer to the questions that i have in my heart and my head for many years, that people in my life cant answer. I love how things i study are applied to my surroundings , and i love it, even though it may get irritating, i love you econs, even though you annoy me sometimes.
But its just that sometimes i am not study material and though i try hard they just see WHAT I am not doing
i study hard just to maintain the ABCDEBCA and she nags that i am not studying not studying.
i think its only if i get the AAAAAAAAAAA then she will say that : YEAH YOU STUDIED
when people dont hear that you scored the A;s , they don;t htink its a bigga deal, but they don;t know how difficult it is. Parents constitute most of " the people "
when you sleep, i study
when i study, you sleep
when i sleep you nag
when i use the comp you nag
BUT ITS OK.
i am disciplined to study WHEN i want to
and i don;t need to be nagged at to want to do well,
i study not for grades but for my own satisfaction my future blah and what is and what not. but of course must study to get Grades for the people who only see the grades. they love the final product but they don;t appreciate OUR process. so i guess my process of strengthening is only for me to appreciate and of course, the abundant knowlege that you accumulate over the year na half..
if you have people who constantly encourage you throughout your journey, its a thankful thing. What do i get ?? ? ? " STILL DONT WANT TO STUDY AH? ? ? ? ?? YOU DONT WNAT TO GO TO SCHOOL IS IT ? YOUR FRIENDS WILL CAUSE YOU CASUALTIES ?? STUDY A BIT NOW NOW XIN KU A BIT THEN NEXT TIME YOU CAN ENJOY ALL YOU WANT ,STUDY NOW STUDY BLAH BLAH BLAH BLA HLB. . 你朋友会害死你的leh!! YOU DONT WANT TO GO SCHOOL LORH THEN NEXT TIME YOU SUFFER
bottom line is, i never ever said all those things
they just love to throw everything at you and think that that is what I want, which is totally NOT .
save it. I don;t need the nagging in the first place.
just for some self praise and to back up my testi
" KK IS A SELF MOTIVATED STUDENT"
yes i am and i will be .
till then, Study like crazy
study and forget all problems.
Peace and love to all who study and those who do not bother to edify other people.
<3 : )
what we could have been, 8:02 AM.
HL sent me this song recently, its really beautiful ,
Ben, the two of us need look no more
We both found what we were looking for
With a friend to call my own
I'll never be alone
And you, my friend, will see
You've got a friend in me
(you've got a friend in me)
Ben, you're always running here and there
You feel you're not wanted anywhere
If you ever look behind
And don't like what you find
There's one thing you should know
You've got a place to go
(you've got a place to go)
I used to say "I" and "me"
Now it's "us", now it's "we"
I used to say "I" and "me"
Now it's "us", now it's "we"
Ben, most people would turn you away
I don't listen to a word they say
They don't see you as I do
I wish they would try to
I'm sure they'd think again
If they had a friend like Ben
(a friend) Like Ben
(like Ben) Like Ben
its so nice if your friend said this to you right, kk
haha its been a really fast week, and to think i;ve not been online for one week!! new personal record!! wahah
its tough but we keep going!
laugh it off and it will be ok
please give me a direction
what should i study in the future
and should we still proceed for the comp next week?
oh~ look what you;ve done
what we could have been, 4:47 AM.
T__T T__T T__T T__T T__T T__T
Can you feel my insecurity now..? :(
what we could have been, 4:25 AM.
like mark twain says, Dance like no one is watching. Sing like no one is listening. Love like you've never been hurt and live like it's heaven on Earth.
Love like you;ve never been hurt
사랑하라, 한번도 상처받지 않은 것처럼.
STUDY LIKE YOU:VE NEVER STUDIED BEFORE
REVISE LIKE THERES NO TOMORROW
HAHA~!
STILL GOT TONNES TO DO And tests are barely one week away!
ohhhhhhhh~~ and yes i thought i did a lot for the past week cos i practically glued my butt to the CHAIR, and unfortunately i;m still left with so much undone homEwork! FEELS LIKE A LOT LEH!! and yesterday i almost wanted to [gao lou pao wu ] , high floor throw house ,[ direct translation ], with my physics tys man! . -_-!@~
initially, i was so psyched and [insert verb] to get started on my physics!! and my optimism seemed to be burning at both ends. soon after i was already dubious about everything.
but its ok! i shall re attempt the questions today!! toillllllllllllllllllllll!!
oh i think , like a sim, my social bar is in the red now.YES I AM REALLY BORED COS NO ONE IS ONLINE
MAJOR SOCIAL DEPRIVATION PLEASE,
hahahaha maybe its an indication that i should return back to the hol homework
숙제해야하는데!! -0-
hehehehehe~ laugh silly and study hard.
MAI TOU KU GAN
what we could have been, 8:24 AM.
a disappointing short letter
seemingly unsolvable yet easy physics questions
an annoying failing memory
an expanding appetite
an unhappy parent
Seemingly permanent scars
high paying tuition teachers
wait, after high paying tutors, make that two unhappy parents
haha~~~
SIGH PLEASE.
but its ok,
i;m getting over it now.
choose happiness
*inhaleeeeee DEEPLY*
my root reaches deep
blow away the dust
clear the path
Find me firm ground
on stable ground
nothing to hold on to,
i;m simply losing grip
i wither and am unfruitful
just so,
Without soil, a plant would be nothing
when there;s soil, you must toil
just answered my question @
a tough journey makes you different
builds you up
ANYWAYS..............
haha, eiyahhhhhhhh left four days to revise math and finish h!!
still left with
HW
1physics
2 ECONS
3- half of chem revision WS
4 GP ESSAY OUTLINES
revision for chem
maths
physics
-_-||| that marks about like three quarters of our hol hw lah
haha@@@@~~~~~~~~~~~~
but its ok!
강한여자!!
32 hour chiong!!!!!!!!!!!!
what we could have been, 11:03 AM.
i Met wanting for dinner yesterday~
Had alfredo pasta at coffeeclub. Heavenly please!
hahaha! i thought the glass looks really cool, so i wanted her to pose with it.
looks blissful right? lol
: ) ~
as usual, PICTURES! haha
and this time , no excessive pictures taken! now thats a first
anyways,
let me just say,
GREEN TEA IS SO ADDICTIVEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEwahlao,!!! hahahaa threw away quite a number of bottles
biang eh its , ,haha~!@ addictive!
good grief, my peers tell me that it can kill your decedents , guys and girls like wise,,
anyways .
Hols are a blast!! as it comes,, everyday , wake up, drink green tea, bathe, watch MYTHBUSTERS at 12, watch a little of OPRAH< LOL. and then study whilst drinking green tea, study, run to the toilet, study, drink more green tea, watch some tv, run to toilet, watch, study, drink , study drink ,, F.RI..E.N.D.S at 8,,dinner, study, green tea, study green tea, 2 oclock ,watch vanity insanity, oh forgot to add day dream , walk around the house, stare at face condition and all that crap in between my daily activity.
haha so much for that ! But i like the feeling~ nothing to worry about [yet. ] lol
oh anyway did i mention green tea? yeah i think i did, man the effects are so drastic! i feel so awake even though its 2 o clock and i slept at 4 yesterday!! Green tea is really , wow. hahaha
gosh hahaha
greenteagreenteagreentea,
friends is also addictive
andddddd of course! mythbustersssss wahahah
never watched so much tv man! haha
going to meet Tkd mates to celebrate samantha;s birthday at dhoby gaught tomorrow : ) ~~~~~~~
나 여행 가고싶어!
자짱면 먹거싶어 ~~!!
on an informal note, i;ve been thinking about this lately
" how do you measure maturity?"
hmm
what we could have been, 10:22 AM.
dearest problem,
this is probably one of the hardest things for me to say.,but first of all, i just want to thank you.
Thank you for always being there and making me stronger, always making me think about you and figuring you out, you;ve never failed to remind me of you before i sleep. And just so you know, I;ve loss countless nights just thinking .And crying over you cos you are so complicated and you always make me confused.
Honestly, In the beginning ,i was so frustrated with you and i was so annoyed with you, but it was soon that i realised that there was no point and that i couldn;t get angry with you. The angrier i got, the worst i felt, and the more i couldn;t figure you out. I then realised that i had to accept you into my life with open arms, just as you are, and just embrace the present.
your existence has made my life so meaningful and different, you;ve made me see the things which i could not see before,, you;ve helped me move on and see the brighter side of things, changing my perspectives in which, i would have never imagined to be!
right now, i want to focus and study hard so that i;ll be too exhausted to think about you, i will miss the times you challenge me and of course, becuase you;re always there no matter what, even if i bury you in the back of my mind or in the depths of my hollow heart, i;ll always be reminded of you some way or another .
i;ll be back, don;t worry .
just give me a moment.
love. me.
got so much hw to do , i don;t want to think of you now.
what we could have been, 8:15 AM.
still like this song
took these in Taiwan,
i;m feeling really strange lately,
i don;t know why,
i;m so apprehensive to face the things that are coming
i;m so disappointed that people choose to be such let downs sometimes
T_T.
friends. -0-.
i wish mother could see the better things and not be so miserable all the time
its upsetting and its stumbling
but don;t worry, i;m strong
what we could have been, 7:59 AM.
ITS FRIDAY!! : )
upside : don;t have to return to school anymore!! : )
downside is : two weeks of holiday left [ this excludes using this holiday to study for the term tests ?
lol~! but its ok~~ i guess i;m pretty optimistic for a pessimist ,, kk
NEWAYS, This month seems to be like a birthday galore! and yesterday , the fifth of june, was SQ006's birthday!!!
presenting ,the birthday girl!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY SIQIAN!! : ) ~
make wish make wish .. ..
hehehe can you see the glow on her face >> ~^_^~
happy girls~ haha
we were about to officially call 5th of june sushi day cos we eat sushi with her every birthday! And this year would have been its fourth year in a row , doing that,, but!! we broke the trend -0-! hahaha
siqian's funny, she took really long to take about,, lets see,, 4 bites out of the cake ? There was this group of people on the other table struggling to finish a whole cake, whilst four of us were struggling to finish this small one. haha~~
and to siqian : i hope your wish comes true this year! you can see it, you can have it!
PS CHRISTINE! WISH YOU WERE HERE TOO ~~!
oh well,~ chionging tomorrow!
fighting!
feeling,, , thoughtful
what we could have been, 5:54 AM.
MAN! so many vids to watch
so many songs to hear
so many comments to make
so much work to do,
still many tests to come
so anyways!!!!!
hahah!! WG's new song .
LOL.
JYP And Wonder Girls we’re back
왜 자꾸 쳐다보니 왜 에 에 내가 그렇게 예쁘니 이 이 아무리 그렇다고 그렇게 쳐다보면 내가 좀 쑥쓰럽잖니 이 이 내가 지나갈 때 마다 아 아 고갤 돌리는 남자들 을 을 뒤에서 느껴지는 뜨거운 시선들 어떻게 하면 좋을지 이 이
i’m so hot 난 너무 예뻐요 i’m so fine 난 너무 매력있어 i’m so cool 난 너무 멋져 i’m so so so hot hot
언제나 나를 향한 눈길들이 이 항상 따라오는 이 남자들이 이 익숙해 질 때도 된것같은데 왜 아직 부담스러운지 이 조용히 살고 싶은데 에 에 다른 여자애들 처럼 엄 엄 엄마는 왜 날 이렇게 낳았어 내 삶을 피곤하게 하는지
i’m so hot 난 너무 예뻐요 i’m so fine 난 너무 매력있어 i’m so cool 난 너무 멋져 i’m so so so hot hot
i’m so hot 난 너무 예뻐요 i’m so fine 난 너무 매력있어 i’m so cool 난 너무 멋져 i’m so so so hot hot
everybodys watching me cuase i’m hot hot everybodys wanting me cause i’m hot hot 언제나 어디서나 날 따라다니는 이 스포트 라이트 어딜가나 쫓아오지 식당 길거리 까페 나이트 도대체 얼마나 나이 들어야 이놈의 인기는 식으러 들지 원 섹시한 내 눈은 고소영 아름다운 내 다린 좀 하지원 어쩌면 좋아 모두 나를 좋아하는 것 같애 oh no please leave me alone all the boys be loving me girls be hating me they will never stop cause they know i’m so hot hot
i’m so hot 난 너무 예뻐요 i’m so fine 난 너무 매력있어 i’m so cool 난 너무 멋져 i’m so so so hot hot |
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hahha!! the song is so trance-like lol.... ~
and as usual, addictive . but the song's really funny man, hahaha
so hot~!
" all the girls be hatin me "
she sings.
hahaha~!
Now this would be a sharp contrast,
Ringtone used in the
CRYBABY episode on smosh .
super cute right!
speaking of sm0sh Vids, here are some more!!!
super funny !LOL
YARDSAIL
CRYBABY
HAHA FRED THE SIXYEAROLD lol all these vids and songs are so addictive!and they work like drugs
hahaha better get addicted to studying soon kkk
speaking of which, i;m now full time student and part time pest exterminator and a retired DJ.
whilst studying, strange insects swarm my table , and when i actually kill them, they turn into dust, and some of them have green fluids in its body, gross.. .. .yeah, they left some pieces of evidence on some of my tutorials as well. lol.
haha got a haircut today. my head feels a few grammes lighter. lol
STOP AND STAREthis girl has a gr8 voice.
``steady hands just take the pen``~~
stop and muggggggggggggggggg
i think i;m studying but i;m stoning
what we could have been, 12:40 PM.
heheh~ 안녕안녕~~
i just spent the past two hours or so adjusting and editing this blog skin,~!~[finally! !! lol] feels like ages. , ok yes i edited someone else's edited picture and original template and hhh!! i;m pretty satisfied with the outcome of this look! : ) its really simple and clean looking ~~ and totally portrays what i;ve been feeling for the past few days or so,,, lol and don;t be deceived by its SEEMINGLY simple looking exterior! Its tough to edit a template that has already been so nicely pieced together you know. ~? lol~..cos till now,, i;m still kinda blur looking at all the HTML codes -_-@?
ANYWAYS thanks to the >>>>holidays<< i kinda got more time to take a few steps back and look at the things we;ve learnt and had so far. kinda learning how to appreciate the things i neglected and also finally understand what we are working for and reshuffle my thoughts and all,, kkk
oh well, anyway i seed the ct econs test which i studied so hard for.... kinda disappointed that right now i forgot most of the things i studied..i hope to have a higher retention rate than this . lol.. but its ok~~~
on a brighter note, i;m gonna meet my besties on thursday to celebrate SQ;s 18th bday: ) !~
heheheh`~~
aynways better go do hw now. lol time check its 3.47 am , i think everyones like dreaming of something or what not now lol... better go do math tutorial before sunrise!
~~~
i want to learn how to be equal to everyone
나 정말이지 갖고싶어 ~~ kkk
^_^~
what we could have been, 11:22 AM.
what we could have been, 9:55 AM.
hehehehe
i fell ill today : (
thought i could start chionging today
"damnit! FOILED AGAIN! " , lol
i;m feverish, yet i have
back ache,, body ache
feel like i am 80 years older. lol
haha but thank God and thank PAnadol , i;m feeling a tad better lol
keep having strange dreams these few days
i hope i can stop dreaming,, it makes me feel exhausted and more tired when i wake up.
oh well~~
this week, is going to past really fast
fight on~
what we could have been, 5:08 AM.
annannannannannanannyoung~~!
Jnee says that she doesent like the fact that one likes to keep changing her self and put on a mask so that people would think better of her
she wants to work hard
she wants to look back at her life and say that she lived everyday without regrets
: )
lalala
i love the simple life
hahaha~~
sigh feeling soooooooooooooooooooooooo tired....................
give me some motivation : (
what we could have been, 8:08 AM.