Wednesday, July 9, 2008
haha!~~~
oh wait,
I am hooked onto this song ~~~ ^^~~~~~~~
\
anyway
dearest blog,
i often feel really happy whenever i talk to some one, especially if its an old friend.
oh~ and today, even though i bumped into revathi for a mere short 30 seconds, our short conversation was really, nice. She asked me why was i smiling so widely. i didn;t even notice that i was doing it t. i was observing my actions for the rest of the day, and i realized that do make faces and smile to myself unknowingly . kkkk~~ hhhh i think i amuse myself sometimes. hhh
for the past month or so, i;ve been pondering over this thought:
how come, when something happens,, people draw conclusions about it. sometimes, their imagination exaggerates it ,the things becomes mostly untrue. But at the end of the day, they end up believing their own imagination and then it becomes a hindrance / stumbling block for them.
kkkk you know, its interesting about how words are so linked to many things,
like when you read or say the word " tree" , the other words that you;d immediately link it to, are words like,
generally " green " or leafy, trunk, bugs -_- tall stuff, photosynthesis, carbon dioxide,maybe even negative stuff like forest fires, deforestation, or whatever you usually associate the tree with.
yeah but i guess that most of the time, people often associate a person with what they imagine them to be in their minds. Like, if you were to mention a name , ok fine i don;t really wanna know what you associate me to, but sometimes, if you are not careful, you could end up hindering yourself.
one thing i learned way back during the LForum, they said that most of the time, 1% is what really happens, and the 99% [ if i didn;t remember wrongly ] of it is what we do about it or perspective [ ok , i cant remember what the 90+% is ]. something along this line oh wait, i think its 1 % what happened, and 99% what you do about it, ah~~
i remembered that there was a lady *Mel, who shared with everyone, during the forum , that people often commented about her *leg [ she had only one] . Whenever someone did something like that, she would get really insecure about herself,. once, MEl;s colleague of hers kinda mocked her, just saying " she only has one leg what" . mel was really hurt,. and that if she thought about the incident or the colleague, mel simply felt :
her colleague was a !@#!@#
she ( mel herself ) was ugly,
its not ok to have disabilities,.
. . dot dot.
and if i am not mistaken, and i am not sure if i " got it" . but i think the point LM was trying to make was that ,even though mels colleague merely said that about her leg, , but, mel immediately linked other things, and caused herself such trauma. like her colleague just said that she had one leg, but she didn;t imply that mel was ugly. [and MEL's NOT UGLY!
*ok i hope my interpretion of what the LM guy said was right, cos it was pretty brain draining lol.
anyways,
during the forum, they asked us to call the people who used to be close to us, or someone who hurt you before, to apologise and to be [whole and complete ] with them, . they told us not to think about " what they would do" or " what if they ... " they just told us to do it, and even though the person's response is totally negative,, its alright ,because you could control the other 99% again, i guess cos sometimes what happens is turns out to be what you didn;t expect! ironic right,
i remembered that when i wanted to make up with my aunt, i was really really reluctant, because ,in my mind, i kept imagining that she would offend me again, or she would scream like " you don;t talk to me! " or she would be bereserk , still be the psycho she acted like back then, and would be unreasonable about it, i was imaging that she would hurt my feelings like back then , during the horrible incident two years ago during our, not so peaceful, trip to the peaceful j@pan.
as i was pondering whether to make the phonecall to her [ one year later, ]i imagined all these possibilities that may happen if she heard my voice.
irony, - expected vs unexpected
i expected her to be totally unreasonable, , but when when she heard my voice, she was like " hello ? kiki <<< -_- but lol, " and wow, even though it was so difficult for me to talk to her [ cos at that time, i still felt that she was totally at fault], but the way she responded was totally opposite to what i thought it would be. yup , so this meant that i did make up with my aunt anyway. haha~
Exactly my point, something happens,, but they draw conclusions about it, and sometimes, their imagination exaggerates it ,the things becomes mostly untrue. But at the end of the day, they end up believing their own imagination and then it becomes a hindrance / stumbling block for them.
Lately,two loved ones dear to my heart had a tiff. [ Margret* and Douglas* ]
last week, douglas texted margret and said something
margret refused to talk to douglas, i told margret that douglas didn;t know what he was doing. which was true, cause he didn;t know what was going on exactly .
Margret said that " if i talked to doughlas, ! i tell you, he will surely do this, do that do this do that, scold , blah " , , , , he will do it again. something like that
but, every one has their reasons, i know douglas,. although he;s a reasonable man, sometimes he can be really strict and protective. But margret kept thinking about how douglas would react or talk to her if she did talk to him , and the more she thought about it, the angrier and more emotional she got. yeah, her thoughts about how douglas may react made her feel worse repetitively.
my point again, something happens,, margret conclusions about it, her imagination exaggerates it ,the things becomes mostly untrue. But at the end of the day, she ends up believing their own imagination and then it becomes a hindrance / stumbling block to her.
but of course, everything is fine now,,, ,, margret and douglas didn;t talk since the tiff , but they are doing fine ,i hope margret did stop thinking about it , cos she didn;t mention about it for a few days now, which is good.
hmmm, if there;s one lesson i want to draw out from all these incidents, is that, i hope that i would learn to control what i can control, the 99%, my thoughts, instead a of picking on the 1% which happened, which could not be controlled. proving a point with the 1% that happened, will not beat the things i can do with the 99% of what ii control.
hhh,,,,
anyways, omt its one am@ good grief, i better to chiong some stuff now!
oh and yay, i am fairer,
and boo, cos gp is a meanie,
on the bright side, yes i did pass,
one the down side, it seems that i am struggling terribly hard with compre. i was pleading with ms toh to give me more guidance for GP, please save meeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee cos i would definitely not want to repeat the entire year just because of the unsatisfactory gp grade. oh dear me~~~ i really need to improve compre skills.
~ hh so i better practice more lah right, kk
kk better go do work now
smile~ even though things may be really bad............ ~~ lalalala
PS: i love youuuuuuuuuuuuu~*
oh wait,
I am hooked onto this song ~~~ ^^~~~~~~~
\
anyway
dearest blog,
i often feel really happy whenever i talk to some one, especially if its an old friend.
oh~ and today, even though i bumped into revathi for a mere short 30 seconds, our short conversation was really, nice. She asked me why was i smiling so widely. i didn;t even notice that i was doing it t. i was observing my actions for the rest of the day, and i realized that do make faces and smile to myself unknowingly . kkkk~~ hhhh i think i amuse myself sometimes. hhh
for the past month or so, i;ve been pondering over this thought:
how come, when something happens,, people draw conclusions about it. sometimes, their imagination exaggerates it ,the things becomes mostly untrue. But at the end of the day, they end up believing their own imagination and then it becomes a hindrance / stumbling block for them.
kkkk you know, its interesting about how words are so linked to many things,
like when you read or say the word " tree" , the other words that you;d immediately link it to, are words like,
generally " green " or leafy, trunk, bugs -_- tall stuff, photosynthesis, carbon dioxide,maybe even negative stuff like forest fires, deforestation, or whatever you usually associate the tree with.
yeah but i guess that most of the time, people often associate a person with what they imagine them to be in their minds. Like, if you were to mention a name , ok fine i don;t really wanna know what you associate me to, but sometimes, if you are not careful, you could end up hindering yourself.
one thing i learned way back during the LForum, they said that most of the time, 1% is what really happens, and the 99% [ if i didn;t remember wrongly ] of it is what we do about it or perspective [ ok , i cant remember what the 90+% is ]. something along this line oh wait, i think its 1 % what happened, and 99% what you do about it, ah~~
i remembered that there was a lady *Mel, who shared with everyone, during the forum , that people often commented about her *leg [ she had only one] . Whenever someone did something like that, she would get really insecure about herself,. once, MEl;s colleague of hers kinda mocked her, just saying " she only has one leg what" . mel was really hurt,. and that if she thought about the incident or the colleague, mel simply felt :
her colleague was a !@#!@#
she ( mel herself ) was ugly,
its not ok to have disabilities,.
. . dot dot.
and if i am not mistaken, and i am not sure if i " got it" . but i think the point LM was trying to make was that ,even though mels colleague merely said that about her leg, , but, mel immediately linked other things, and caused herself such trauma. like her colleague just said that she had one leg, but she didn;t imply that mel was ugly. [and MEL's NOT UGLY!
*ok i hope my interpretion of what the LM guy said was right, cos it was pretty brain draining lol.
anyways,
during the forum, they asked us to call the people who used to be close to us, or someone who hurt you before, to apologise and to be [whole and complete ] with them, . they told us not to think about " what they would do" or " what if they ... " they just told us to do it, and even though the person's response is totally negative,, its alright ,because you could control the other 99% again, i guess cos sometimes what happens is turns out to be what you didn;t expect! ironic right,
i remembered that when i wanted to make up with my aunt, i was really really reluctant, because ,in my mind, i kept imagining that she would offend me again, or she would scream like " you don;t talk to me! " or she would be bereserk , still be the psycho she acted like back then, and would be unreasonable about it, i was imaging that she would hurt my feelings like back then , during the horrible incident two years ago during our, not so peaceful, trip to the peaceful j@pan.
as i was pondering whether to make the phonecall to her [ one year later, ]i imagined all these possibilities that may happen if she heard my voice.
irony, - expected vs unexpected
i expected her to be totally unreasonable, , but when when she heard my voice, she was like " hello ? kiki <<< -_- but lol, " and wow, even though it was so difficult for me to talk to her [ cos at that time, i still felt that she was totally at fault], but the way she responded was totally opposite to what i thought it would be. yup , so this meant that i did make up with my aunt anyway. haha~
Exactly my point, something happens,, but they draw conclusions about it, and sometimes, their imagination exaggerates it ,the things becomes mostly untrue. But at the end of the day, they end up believing their own imagination and then it becomes a hindrance / stumbling block for them.
Lately,two loved ones dear to my heart had a tiff. [ Margret* and Douglas* ]
last week, douglas texted margret and said something
margret refused to talk to douglas, i told margret that douglas didn;t know what he was doing. which was true, cause he didn;t know what was going on exactly .
Margret said that " if i talked to doughlas, ! i tell you, he will surely do this, do that do this do that, scold , blah " , , , , he will do it again. something like that
but, every one has their reasons, i know douglas,. although he;s a reasonable man, sometimes he can be really strict and protective. But margret kept thinking about how douglas would react or talk to her if she did talk to him , and the more she thought about it, the angrier and more emotional she got. yeah, her thoughts about how douglas may react made her feel worse repetitively.
my point again, something happens,, margret conclusions about it, her imagination exaggerates it ,the things becomes mostly untrue. But at the end of the day, she ends up believing their own imagination and then it becomes a hindrance / stumbling block to her.
but of course, everything is fine now,,, ,, margret and douglas didn;t talk since the tiff , but they are doing fine ,i hope margret did stop thinking about it , cos she didn;t mention about it for a few days now, which is good.
hmmm, if there;s one lesson i want to draw out from all these incidents, is that, i hope that i would learn to control what i can control, the 99%, my thoughts, instead a of picking on the 1% which happened, which could not be controlled. proving a point with the 1% that happened, will not beat the things i can do with the 99% of what ii control.
hhh,,,,
anyways, omt its one am@ good grief, i better to chiong some stuff now!
oh and yay, i am fairer,
and boo, cos gp is a meanie,
on the bright side, yes i did pass,
one the down side, it seems that i am struggling terribly hard with compre. i was pleading with ms toh to give me more guidance for GP, please save meeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee cos i would definitely not want to repeat the entire year just because of the unsatisfactory gp grade. oh dear me~~~ i really need to improve compre skills.
~ hh so i better practice more lah right, kk
kk better go do work now
smile~ even though things may be really bad............ ~~ lalalala
PS: i love youuuuuuuuuuuuu~*
what we could have been, 8:44 AM.
