Friday, October 24, 2008
When i look into my future,
i always see .. . . . .
hhh,, i'll tell you next time,
studying hard is hard work haha!
everytime i read the notes, i really don't want to believe what its says
perhaps its my lack of understanding that fuels my disbelief in the notes
or perhaps i just don't want to accept whats 'right' theoretically.
but dad says that
" in theory , its always like that, but in practical, always not one lahhhh, just write what they want to see lorh "
haha. yeah he's right, no use arguing for now
you know,
Even though you've forgotten me
and even though math, i've forgotten most of you
but i'm Willing to know you even better
i'll integrate you into my life AGAIN. [ can't remember how many times have i done this ]
hopefully things won't be as complex as it seems
i always see .. . . . .
hhh,, i'll tell you next time,
studying hard is hard work haha!
everytime i read the notes, i really don't want to believe what its says
perhaps its my lack of understanding that fuels my disbelief in the notes
or perhaps i just don't want to accept whats 'right' theoretically.
but dad says that
" in theory , its always like that, but in practical, always not one lahhhh, just write what they want to see lorh "
haha. yeah he's right, no use arguing for now
you know,
Even though you've forgotten me
and even though math, i've forgotten most of you
but i'm Willing to know you even better
i'll integrate you into my life AGAIN. [ can't remember how many times have i done this ]
hopefully things won't be as complex as it seems
what we could have been, 6:56 PM.
Wednesday, October 22, 2008
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHh
MY ROLEMODEL IS COMING TO SINGAPORE BUT I CANNOT SEE HERRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR
thats really sad. haha
but its ok~
am damn lazy can.
am damn restless
you know, the excruciating feeling is to have to FORGET and revisit everything again. . .
sigh i am sorry
why must i be graded for the kind of thoughts i have about society or what not
ok so we can think critically , but then
theres some kind of grade you attach to my level of thought
but everyone thinks they are right
so how can we actually be graded for it ? ??
but ok i know on one hand we have to test our language skills and what not.
and then we;ll be judged on whether we are the thinker and the not so critical thinker and what not.
but ok yes you know what i really do love this subject , it has added quite a bit of value to my life.
sigh, lack of self control
TV THE BEST
singlish is funny
capturing the essence of a sentence whilst omitting the verbs and what not
nouns and a couple of "lahs" and wahla
and thei;m so annoyed with myself
i am so annoyed
the point beyond forgiveness? ?? i don;t know.
sigh will you forget me
why are you forgetting me
i should be sighing off soon.
MY ROLEMODEL IS COMING TO SINGAPORE BUT I CANNOT SEE HERRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR
thats really sad. haha
but its ok~
am damn lazy can.
am damn restless
you know, the excruciating feeling is to have to FORGET and revisit everything again. . .
sigh i am sorry
why must i be graded for the kind of thoughts i have about society or what not
ok so we can think critically , but then
theres some kind of grade you attach to my level of thought
but everyone thinks they are right
so how can we actually be graded for it ? ??
but ok i know on one hand we have to test our language skills and what not.
and then we;ll be judged on whether we are the thinker and the not so critical thinker and what not.
but ok yes you know what i really do love this subject , it has added quite a bit of value to my life.
sigh, lack of self control
TV THE BEST
singlish is funny
capturing the essence of a sentence whilst omitting the verbs and what not
nouns and a couple of "lahs" and wahla
and thei;m so annoyed with myself
i am so annoyed
the point beyond forgiveness? ?? i don;t know.
sigh will you forget me
why are you forgetting me
i should be sighing off soon.
what we could have been, 6:35 AM.
Monday, October 20, 2008
am studying hard.
but studies are not the thing thats buggin me the most.
but ok so why should i tell you anyway.
Is flipping annoyed with the flesh
is irritated with the unreasonable.
really ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
nugget
but even so,all these things just die off eventually
but seriously, how come i don;t seem to experience the same outcome as those who engage it ? ?
lame.
i;ll just ditch this whole thing from now on,
SEVEN.
but studies are not the thing thats buggin me the most.
but ok so why should i tell you anyway.
Is flipping annoyed with the flesh
is irritated with the unreasonable.
really ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
nugget
but even so,all these things just die off eventually
but seriously, how come i don;t seem to experience the same outcome as those who engage it ? ?
lame.
i;ll just ditch this whole thing from now on,
SEVEN.
what we could have been, 9:25 AM.
Thursday, October 2, 2008
there are certain times that you just want to tell that very thing or splinter in your hand to just Foff , but then you realise that you can;t just do that , it can;t move, and we just find a way to get it out.
like the times i wanna cuss the notes and say " id on;t care that you function like this"hahah
but its ok.~
so to the many things in life please suggest good solutions and be logical.
have you ever come to a point of time when you look at yourself and wonder if its really you?
when you recall an actionor remember what you;ve saida picture to remind you of the fugly times when you thought you looked OK.when you call your own name and realise " gosh , this is actually my name"when you look at a list and can;t beleive that your name is there.
to the many times i can't recognize myself.i wish they were proud moments, but many , i hope everyone else forget.
to the many times i wish i was more humane.
lets just push them all aside and leave it for a month and a half later
quit being defensivequit stuffing words into someone;s face and then just ignore it. quit being jealous for the wrong reasons
i wish.
like the times i wanna cuss the notes and say " id on;t care that you function like this"hahah
but its ok.~
so to the many things in life please suggest good solutions and be logical.
have you ever come to a point of time when you look at yourself and wonder if its really you?
when you recall an actionor remember what you;ve saida picture to remind you of the fugly times when you thought you looked OK.when you call your own name and realise " gosh , this is actually my name"when you look at a list and can;t beleive that your name is there.
to the many times i can't recognize myself.i wish they were proud moments, but many , i hope everyone else forget.
to the many times i wish i was more humane.
lets just push them all aside and leave it for a month and a half later
quit being defensivequit stuffing words into someone;s face and then just ignore it. quit being jealous for the wrong reasons
i wish.
what we could have been, 9:38 PM.
