Friday, January 30, 2009
はは～～ its my first ひらがな てすつ this sundayyyyyyyyyyyyy!!
and i;m only halfway thru. . .
haha i am quite surprised that i went ahead to learn Japanese with my twinnnnnnn even though i have almost no interest in Japanese music, ( exception of food and their culture) not even Anime. . .. , and by the way, the only anime i watch is AVATAR- the last air bender, which, in the first place is ALMOST purely English ! which is not considered anime by some, but is still kinda influenced by . .. aye.. shan't delve into that.
With the exception of avatar, which i really like. haha, speaking of it, i watched the last few episodes today. since i;ve been watching the same few episodes on nick ( ok please don;t laugh repetitavely for about, four five years now ? ? now that is really wayyyy back. . .haha. its about time the series came to a good end. ( which it did.)
Anyway, i really ( almost highly ) recommend this anime. ( since ,well, its almost the only anime on my list of watched animes -_- ). . .
First off, its pretty funny, really makes me laugh sometimes.
Secondly, Fighting scenes. Yes, ALMOST the best please, must must comment about that. Its really awesome, pretty realistic and it makes you feel getting the ability to bend some water or air . haha, i can see how they really capture the movement of the elements and even
the way the chi flows ,it follows the martial art movements,, the stances and all. Its not like ( i stick out my hand like spider-man and some electricity flows out). nope, its all the fancy big swift movements of the arms and gathering of some invisible energy sort of thing, and BOOM! lightning, directed out of the outstretched arm, through the fingers pointing at the victim, who is also mustering up some strength to counter the attack..
Finally, the animation, its seriously good., everything, the sound effects and stuff. ( damn good )
Sounds damn power right. yep, i love that.
but ohhhh right at the end, where kitara and the avatar was alone ? well ,that was, haha a little strange,. . no comments. (considering the seemingly religious parts of the show) . but hey, its just a cartoon ? haha.
But overall, nice show, has pretty deep meaning to it. Set me thinking when Aang ( the avatar) had to battle his conscience when he was deciding whether or not to kill the firelord or not. Pretty applicable to real life, i can imagine lawyers. . . justice vs conscience/your own philosophy.. hmmm.. ..
I like toph!, ,haha or rather to be more precise,, i;m just pretty amazed by her ability ( man i make it sound like shes real). In the show, the way the creators seem to conjure up her personality and her ability is really awesome, how she feels vibrations to see everything around her, sometimes it makes you forget that shes actually blind.
SO, , if you are really FINDING something to do, then , you could invest some time to watch this show.
anyway, ,, ,
나는 다른 길을 가고 싶어
다른 색을 그려보고 싶어
누구도 걸어보지 못했던
. . .
솔직히 나의 길조차 모르겠어
ㅠ_ㅠ.
its not a good time to say
"신경쓰지안써. . .. "
i should dial the triple three now,
you get the drift?
and i;m only halfway thru. . .
haha i am quite surprised that i went ahead to learn Japanese with my twinnnnnnn even though i have almost no interest in Japanese music, ( exception of food and their culture) not even Anime. . .. , and by the way, the only anime i watch is AVATAR- the last air bender, which, in the first place is ALMOST purely English ! which is not considered anime by some, but is still kinda influenced by . .. aye.. shan't delve into that.
With the exception of avatar, which i really like. haha, speaking of it, i watched the last few episodes today. since i;ve been watching the same few episodes on nick ( ok please don;t laugh repetitavely for about, four five years now ? ? now that is really wayyyy back. . .haha. its about time the series came to a good end. ( which it did.)
Anyway, i really ( almost highly ) recommend this anime. ( since ,well, its almost the only anime on my list of watched animes -_- ). . .
First off, its pretty funny, really makes me laugh sometimes.
Secondly, Fighting scenes. Yes, ALMOST the best please, must must comment about that. Its really awesome, pretty realistic and it makes you feel getting the ability to bend some water or air . haha, i can see how they really capture the movement of the elements and even
the way the chi flows ,it follows the martial art movements,, the stances and all. Its not like ( i stick out my hand like spider-man and some electricity flows out). nope, its all the fancy big swift movements of the arms and gathering of some invisible energy sort of thing, and BOOM! lightning, directed out of the outstretched arm, through the fingers pointing at the victim, who is also mustering up some strength to counter the attack..
Finally, the animation, its seriously good., everything, the sound effects and stuff. ( damn good )
Sounds damn power right. yep, i love that.
but ohhhh right at the end, where kitara and the avatar was alone ? well ,that was, haha a little strange,. . no comments. (considering the seemingly religious parts of the show) . but hey, its just a cartoon ? haha.
But overall, nice show, has pretty deep meaning to it. Set me thinking when Aang ( the avatar) had to battle his conscience when he was deciding whether or not to kill the firelord or not. Pretty applicable to real life, i can imagine lawyers. . . justice vs conscience/your own philosophy.. hmmm.. ..
I like toph!, ,haha or rather to be more precise,, i;m just pretty amazed by her ability ( man i make it sound like shes real). In the show, the way the creators seem to conjure up her personality and her ability is really awesome, how she feels vibrations to see everything around her, sometimes it makes you forget that shes actually blind.
SO, , if you are really FINDING something to do, then , you could invest some time to watch this show.
anyway, ,, ,
나는 다른 길을 가고 싶어
다른 색을 그려보고 싶어
누구도 걸어보지 못했던
. . .
솔직히 나의 길조차 모르겠어
ㅠ_ㅠ.
its not a good time to say
"신경쓰지안써. . .. "
i should dial the triple three now,
you get the drift?
what we could have been, 8:24 AM.
Friday, January 23, 2009
Everywhere I'm looking now
I'm surrounded by your embrace
Baby I can see your halo
You know you're my saving grace
You're everything I need and more
It's written all over your face
Baby I can feel your halo
Pray it won't fade away
hhh,
happy CNY :)
I'm surrounded by your embrace
Baby I can see your halo
You know you're my saving grace
You're everything I need and more
It's written all over your face
Baby I can feel your halo
Pray it won't fade away
hhh,
happy CNY :)
what we could have been, 9:03 PM.
Thursday, January 22, 2009
its Four a.m in the morning right now,
Can't seem to fall asleep. . .
Thinking a lot.
i don't want to do that
really annoying,
i really dislike purple.
you know why i SAID i liked purple all this while? ( LOL stupid reason)
Lol, in actual my favourite colour is white
Everything ends up grey black - plain dirty
sometimes i don;t feel like i;m made for such a place and culture
i wanna shut up
i really want to discard this "vivacious personality" i possess
loud is fine
loud and obnoxious is not fine
so angry, so so angry.
perhaps envy is taking over,
i shouldn't be envying.
i hate this
i really hate this
damn it.
i should not be making excuses all the time
#!@@! thats not good
i;m sooooooooooo lost!!!!!!!!! damn it
and damn it , i;m complaining
ASDFJKL?!?!?@
Can't seem to fall asleep. . .
Thinking a lot.
i don't want to do that
really annoying,
i really dislike purple.
you know why i SAID i liked purple all this while? ( LOL stupid reason)
Lol, in actual my favourite colour is white
Everything ends up grey black - plain dirty
sometimes i don;t feel like i;m made for such a place and culture
i wanna shut up
i really want to discard this "vivacious personality" i possess
loud is fine
loud and obnoxious is not fine
so angry, so so angry.
perhaps envy is taking over,
i shouldn't be envying.
i hate this
i really hate this
damn it.
i should not be making excuses all the time
#!@@! thats not good
i;m sooooooooooo lost!!!!!!!!! damn it
and damn it , i;m complaining
ASDFJKL?!?!?@
what we could have been, 12:23 PM.
Everywhere I'm looking now
I'm surrounded by your embrace
Baby I can see your halo
You know you're my saving grace
You're everything I need and more
It's written all over your face
Baby I can feel your halo
Pray it won't fade away
i'm really liking this song.
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You know what?
i'm really happy that mom's really kan kai a whole lot over the past year
its really good, i don';t feel trapped by her and her emotions anymore
its a difficult situation to describe and explain unless you experience it for yourself.
it feels good that for once i feel actually quite safe and at ease
quite thankful for that.
----------------------------------
Do you know that i am so babo?
haha, wanna drive my head through a wall again.
mhmmmm
dreams, again i had one the other day
quite thrilling, in the dream, my sister called me to tell me about my Alevel results,
i could feel this adrenalin rush and my heart was beating so fast!
haha thats really fun, :D You know what i mean? like a simulator or something
oh i really hope for an opportunity to study overseas,
that would be nice.
for now, i;ll just work hard and improve on myself
chao!
I'm surrounded by your embrace
Baby I can see your halo
You know you're my saving grace
You're everything I need and more
It's written all over your face
Baby I can feel your halo
Pray it won't fade away
i'm really liking this song.
--------------------------------------------
You know what?
i'm really happy that mom's really kan kai a whole lot over the past year
its really good, i don';t feel trapped by her and her emotions anymore
its a difficult situation to describe and explain unless you experience it for yourself.
it feels good that for once i feel actually quite safe and at ease
quite thankful for that.
----------------------------------
Do you know that i am so babo?
haha, wanna drive my head through a wall again.
mhmmmm
dreams, again i had one the other day
quite thrilling, in the dream, my sister called me to tell me about my Alevel results,
i could feel this adrenalin rush and my heart was beating so fast!
haha thats really fun, :D You know what i mean? like a simulator or something
oh i really hope for an opportunity to study overseas,
that would be nice.
for now, i;ll just work hard and improve on myself
chao!
what we could have been, 8:09 AM.
Monday, January 19, 2009
when they placed themselves in seats a hand width away from me,
i felt my heart racing, myself almost breathless.
i tried making myself look nonchalant, but i felt stupid-er .
Good thing they looked away when i did, the rush went away eventually..
That was when my eyes met hers. It felt almost foreign, wasn't supposed to be like this.
She looked tired, worn,,but just different. I don;t know, just , i felt inferior, almost.
i don;'t remember her this way when i saw her before.
She didnt seem to want to see me either
i know how much has changed, detailedly.
i felt more than she did. Nothing really could get to her though.
Though we are almost similar, shes almost the opposite of me, character wise perhaps.
Comparing us, i;m a loud hailer. I don;t like being like that, she knows that too. Shes just ,
We both know we feel sorry about each other
If she had better control over herself, i don;t think things would be this state.
and if i had better control, i won;t be this sorry about it either.
But its ok, i guess someday when i look at her again,i know things would be better
by the time she learns and when i learn too. That would be good, i suppose.
someday i hope to look her in the eye
and say , " we did it, we overcame our obstacle".
we know we both don;t just hope,
we try, hard, but perhaps not hard enough.
Till then, when i see you again.
i hope we won't feel this way .
------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
anyway, on to deciding the university
hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm@@@@@@@@@@@
i felt my heart racing, myself almost breathless.
i tried making myself look nonchalant, but i felt stupid-er .
Good thing they looked away when i did, the rush went away eventually..
That was when my eyes met hers. It felt almost foreign, wasn't supposed to be like this.
She looked tired, worn,,but just different. I don;t know, just , i felt inferior, almost.
i don;'t remember her this way when i saw her before.
She didnt seem to want to see me either
i know how much has changed, detailedly.
i felt more than she did. Nothing really could get to her though.
Though we are almost similar, shes almost the opposite of me, character wise perhaps.
Comparing us, i;m a loud hailer. I don;t like being like that, she knows that too. Shes just ,
We both know we feel sorry about each other
If she had better control over herself, i don;t think things would be this state.
and if i had better control, i won;t be this sorry about it either.
But its ok, i guess someday when i look at her again,i know things would be better
by the time she learns and when i learn too. That would be good, i suppose.
someday i hope to look her in the eye
and say , " we did it, we overcame our obstacle".
we know we both don;t just hope,
we try, hard, but perhaps not hard enough.
Till then, when i see you again.
i hope we won't feel this way .
------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
anyway, on to deciding the university
hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm@@@@@@@@@@@
what we could have been, 6:57 AM.
Sunday, January 18, 2009
cny is here and i;m not even done with shopping
i dislike shopping really.
ah~ ,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,
don;t like it when people keep comparing my looks or physique with someone else.
so annoying.
anyways, i;ve been writing a few things, i hope the come out well : )
byeeeee~
i dislike shopping really.
ah~ ,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,
don;t like it when people keep comparing my looks or physique with someone else.
so annoying.
anyways, i;ve been writing a few things, i hope the come out well : )
byeeeee~
what we could have been, 8:44 AM.
i;m in this phase of picking on myself again
picking out the flaws in my character
and trying to correct myself again and again
regarding physical appearances,
i almost can;t be bothered, but again i sound almost bothered 90 % of the time
which really annoys me because i don;t want to about it !
but somehow i just do end up talking about it
i hate looking into the mirror now
i just take a 5 second glimpse, straighten out my mane
put on the blimming clothes which i hate
and i briskly make my way to the next destination.
I notice people staring at my mane
wondering if it really originated from the wilderness
staring at my appearance, which makes me go -ugh-
i don;t like that
but it doesn't matter,
i am just gonna ignore.
anyway i decided to, do wahat i want to do : )
picking out the flaws in my character
and trying to correct myself again and again
regarding physical appearances,
i almost can;t be bothered, but again i sound almost bothered 90 % of the time
which really annoys me because i don;t want to about it !
but somehow i just do end up talking about it
i hate looking into the mirror now
i just take a 5 second glimpse, straighten out my mane
put on the blimming clothes which i hate
and i briskly make my way to the next destination.
I notice people staring at my mane
wondering if it really originated from the wilderness
staring at my appearance, which makes me go -ugh-
i don;t like that
but it doesn't matter,
i am just gonna ignore.
anyway i decided to, do wahat i want to do : )
what we could have been, 7:09 AM.
Sunday, January 11, 2009
because i love this song, i removed the noisy playlist
ohhhh no no no
i think i need some time on my own.
more time.
what we could have been, 7:13 AM.
Saturday, January 10, 2009
mom ej and i went to malaysia today
got haircuts!!!!! :D hahaha
its no longer a mane . , and my hair looks tamed now lol
흠,,. .
theres so much on my mind,
but i don;t really know what to say.
we know that we don't want to live to prove to others
how much we can achieve, or how much we can do.
but sometimes we are just forced by our circumstances or perhaps just by someone who has more influence over us.
we end up trying to prove ourselves if we are not careful.
I feel lost,
perhaps we are so used to having people exerting certain influence over us that we live the life that the person wants and not what we want.
Sadly, i feel lost about what i want.
Later on , we are given our pair of wings to take flight,
they say we should do what we want.
stretch out your wings and move on.
But i don;t know how to fly, without instructions, without an operator
we wait for a strong gust of wind to carry our wings and help us take flight.
but, i'm just spiraling towards the floor.
we are no kite.
we are living
we must learn to take flight ourselves
i am fearing.
man i taunt about the same problem too often.
-autopilot
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sit in perfect silence, and savor every second .
thats the kind of friendship and relationship i want to develop.
got haircuts!!!!! :D hahaha
its no longer a mane . , and my hair looks tamed now lol
흠,,. .
theres so much on my mind,
but i don;t really know what to say.
we know that we don't want to live to prove to others
how much we can achieve, or how much we can do.
but sometimes we are just forced by our circumstances or perhaps just by someone who has more influence over us.
we end up trying to prove ourselves if we are not careful.
I feel lost,
perhaps we are so used to having people exerting certain influence over us that we live the life that the person wants and not what we want.
Sadly, i feel lost about what i want.
Later on , we are given our pair of wings to take flight,
they say we should do what we want.
stretch out your wings and move on.
But i don;t know how to fly, without instructions, without an operator
we wait for a strong gust of wind to carry our wings and help us take flight.
but, i'm just spiraling towards the floor.
we are no kite.
we are living
we must learn to take flight ourselves
i am fearing.
man i taunt about the same problem too often.
-autopilot
----------------------------------------------
sit in perfect silence, and savor every second .
thats the kind of friendship and relationship i want to develop.
what we could have been, 7:25 AM.
Thursday, January 8, 2009
나 바보같이 -_-ㅗ
ahhhh so stupid
sometimes i wanna drive my head through the wall
you know that feeling?
i mean not my head, i mean your own.
ahhhh so stupid
sometimes i wanna drive my head through the wall
you know that feeling?
i mean not my head, i mean your own.
what we could have been, 8:12 PM.
wahlaooooooooooooooooooooo
p c. anddddddddddd they don;t do anything about it
my supposed "ROLE MODEL" shows me that you should IGNORE your blood family member when they are not behaving desirably.. . or " negative ions~!@" -_-
please imagine if your child behaves the same way to you
i've no other no comments.
but its ok~
anyway i better rest
good night.
p c. anddddddddddd they don;t do anything about it
my supposed "ROLE MODEL" shows me that you should IGNORE your blood family member when they are not behaving desirably.. . or " negative ions~!@" -_-
please imagine if your child behaves the same way to you
i've no other no comments.
but its ok~
anyway i better rest
good night.
what we could have been, 8:22 AM.
Monday, January 5, 2009
This morning was the first time i experienced the clinic bustling with people .
kinda exhausting.. but i am getting the hang of the tablets and stuff :D!haha
my aunt dropped me to pick my two younger cousins from school today,.
outside the school gates, young kids were flipping out their flip phones that seemed a little oversized for their average 7/8/9/10 year old hands. haha. and not just one,, but many,. lol.
i asked dan, the 10 year old cousin, [ status : no phone] what his friends usually texted about.. . .
he said
" dno ,, i saw my friend type things like " hi sweetie!!~ " and all the very ~~~ stuff. . .. hh"
i stayed at my aunt;s place while i waited for the rain to subside. Observing the two kids was pretty interesting, [ made an attempt to teach chinese -0-!@!~~]
anyway, i have been thinking and been in a dilemma over this thing for a couple of weeks.
" an eye for an eye VS treat your neighbor how you want to be treated. "
i guess the latter is preferred as a better judgment of character [ for some ] but ,, the latter is really difficult to perform.. ... . .
hhh let me ponder over this..
kinda exhausting.. but i am getting the hang of the tablets and stuff :D!haha
my aunt dropped me to pick my two younger cousins from school today,.
outside the school gates, young kids were flipping out their flip phones that seemed a little oversized for their average 7/8/9/10 year old hands. haha. and not just one,, but many,. lol.
i asked dan, the 10 year old cousin, [ status : no phone] what his friends usually texted about.. . .
he said
" dno ,, i saw my friend type things like " hi sweetie!!~ " and all the very ~~~ stuff. . .. hh"
i stayed at my aunt;s place while i waited for the rain to subside. Observing the two kids was pretty interesting, [ made an attempt to teach chinese -0-!@!~~]
anyway, i have been thinking and been in a dilemma over this thing for a couple of weeks.
" an eye for an eye VS treat your neighbor how you want to be treated. "
i guess the latter is preferred as a better judgment of character [ for some ] but ,, the latter is really difficult to perform.. ... . .
hhh let me ponder over this..
what we could have been, 3:26 AM.
