Sunday, March 29, 2009
some falter at obstacles even without knowing
some choose to falter not knowing that they would eventually emerge stronger.
If you do not choose the challenge, you will not grow,
you will not stretch and you will know discover how much potential you have.
hello all,
its been a while, pretty busy for me, , in my mind, its bustling with activity every single minute and second. And in the morning till night, i am in and out and on my toes going from one place to another. i feel glad that i am actually doing something with my time. But i just dislike it when people treat it as if they have the right over my time, like "COME HERE NOW. "... but its ok~ it will pass.
but its ok. anyway , i have finally submitted my U-applications. I hope earnestly and pray that if its not for me, that the door will close. praying hard!
strong. -/
강한 여자예요.
some choose to falter not knowing that they would eventually emerge stronger.
If you do not choose the challenge, you will not grow,
you will not stretch and you will know discover how much potential you have.
hello all,
its been a while, pretty busy for me, , in my mind, its bustling with activity every single minute and second. And in the morning till night, i am in and out and on my toes going from one place to another. i feel glad that i am actually doing something with my time. But i just dislike it when people treat it as if they have the right over my time, like "COME HERE NOW. "... but its ok~ it will pass.
but its ok. anyway , i have finally submitted my U-applications. I hope earnestly and pray that if its not for me, that the door will close. praying hard!
strong. -/
강한 여자예요.
what we could have been, 7:51 AM.
Tuesday, March 24, 2009
What do i do
something safe? something that fits my personality? or something which i like ?
everything people say always falls into these three categories.
haha the most that i can get is 2/3
what is the right answer then. ?
햇갈려 ㅠㅠ~
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why do we sleep
a restoration of your physical body?
resting of the mind ?
if that is the sole purpose of sleep, then why must we dream?
dreaming takes a hell lot of energy out of you
and it makes your mind so active that, your mind is not resting anymore.
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hmm.
Sometimes when you look at people getting things which they seemingly don't deserve, you wonder how. How will they carry on with it. or in the first place, how did they get it. But you know, we shouldn't judge. It happens for a reason. they may have to overcome their own obstacles to get it, or just , some to come. if it happens to me, just face it strong. Don;t be to quick to judge. Don;t look down on anything that is created.
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anyway i am going to take the basic theory test tomorrow!! haha
better study now~
something safe? something that fits my personality? or something which i like ?
everything people say always falls into these three categories.
haha the most that i can get is 2/3
what is the right answer then. ?
햇갈려 ㅠㅠ~
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why do we sleep
a restoration of your physical body?
resting of the mind ?
if that is the sole purpose of sleep, then why must we dream?
dreaming takes a hell lot of energy out of you
and it makes your mind so active that, your mind is not resting anymore.
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hmm.
Sometimes when you look at people getting things which they seemingly don't deserve, you wonder how. How will they carry on with it. or in the first place, how did they get it. But you know, we shouldn't judge. It happens for a reason. they may have to overcome their own obstacles to get it, or just , some to come. if it happens to me, just face it strong. Don;t be to quick to judge. Don;t look down on anything that is created.
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anyway i am going to take the basic theory test tomorrow!! haha
better study now~
what we could have been, 7:45 AM.
Sunday, March 22, 2009
. . .
what we could have been, 9:06 AM.
Friday, March 20, 2009
i should humble myself.
i should humble myself
i should humble myself.
i should put on a new pair of glasses to see this situation
i should put on a new pair of glasses to see this situation
i should put on a new pair of glasses to view this matter.
i should rethink and have a new perspective towards this situation.
I Must not be mean
i must humble myself.
i will not become what i hate.
i must not become what i hate.
laws of attraction
we embrace it and it embraces us
we seek it and it seeks us.
i think i get it now.
i should humble myself
i should humble myself.
i should put on a new pair of glasses to see this situation
i should put on a new pair of glasses to see this situation
i should put on a new pair of glasses to view this matter.
i should rethink and have a new perspective towards this situation.
I Must not be mean
i must humble myself.
i will not become what i hate.
i must not become what i hate.
laws of attraction
we embrace it and it embraces us
we seek it and it seeks us.
i think i get it now.
what we could have been, 9:02 AM.
just,,
. . .
. . .
what we could have been, 6:49 AM.
Sunday, March 15, 2009
am i courting death.
am i courting difficult times ?
haha we wouldn;t really know until it has taken its course
ahhhhhhhhhh i love EP!!!!!!!!!! her voice is so gooddddddddddddddddddddddddddddd
SIGH
its not good to envy. not good. haha
am i courting difficult times ?
haha we wouldn;t really know until it has taken its course
ahhhhhhhhhh i love EP!!!!!!!!!! her voice is so gooddddddddddddddddddddddddddddd
SIGH
its not good to envy. not good. haha
what we could have been, 8:26 AM.
Thursday, March 12, 2009
so, i have been thinking for quite a bit recently.
Everyone has different takes on it,
i think that my parents are more concerned about having a good career prospect. Especially my mom. After narrowing down my options to a couple of courses, i have a slightly clearer view. haha so i have decided, to appease my parents and also to take my interest into account. I am going to apply for a spectrum of different courses and faculties across the three universities first. Then when the time comes, hopefully there would be an array of choices and we can another round of decision making.. oh~ But i am almost settled on one, and i really hope that if thats for me, then it will happen!! haha so difficult to choose when you love so many things huh! haha but its ok~
haha! lets see pray hope and , for now, i want to rest. haha
love love love.
Everyone has different takes on it,
i think that my parents are more concerned about having a good career prospect. Especially my mom. After narrowing down my options to a couple of courses, i have a slightly clearer view. haha so i have decided, to appease my parents and also to take my interest into account. I am going to apply for a spectrum of different courses and faculties across the three universities first. Then when the time comes, hopefully there would be an array of choices and we can another round of decision making.. oh~ But i am almost settled on one, and i really hope that if thats for me, then it will happen!! haha so difficult to choose when you love so many things huh! haha but its ok~
haha! lets see pray hope and , for now, i want to rest. haha
love love love.
what we could have been, 5:38 AM.
Tuesday, March 10, 2009
i think that everyone who has passed this phase of life , of A levels , deserve some credit. Regardless of situation.
hhaha, even though it is over for quite some time, it feels like a very long time ago. . .
sigh, u know i am really feeling so @@ about certain things right now,
ahhhhhh i need sOMEONE to talk to !!
hhaha, even though it is over for quite some time, it feels like a very long time ago. . .
sigh, u know i am really feeling so @@ about certain things right now,
ahhhhhh i need sOMEONE to talk to !!
what we could have been, 8:29 AM.
Monday, March 9, 2009
i guess my blog reading has surged since the release the ever so controversial A level results last Friday. haha
before i begin,
congrats to those who scored well!, and to those who have improved , of course to everyone who survived this ordeal. !
haha i didn;t know how to react honestly? i was happy at the same time, yet i was a little bit disappointed. that's why i cried and laughed simultaneously. strange emotion really. . . i have not told anyone my scores really. haha other than my family though. Reason being, its such a touchy subject. everyone is dealing with it so differently, reacting differently.. .everyone has their own concerns. . . i guess everyone is curious and concerned about how everyone is doing and coping with the situation. just hope that everyone finds their own solutions soon.
to those who are really concerned, i am fine, satisfied ,, i scored reasonable results, enough to enter most courses . and i am glad that most of my hard work paid off. . It has been really insane for me the past year. , ,, tonnes of crying and studying. haha ~~thank you those who prayed for me, taught me!! studied with me , laughed with me , attended to my emotional needs during this time, and thank You
you know, the moment i got my results,! its so hard to be happy or enjoy what you have reaped. , arggh honestly speaking, i have not been feeling happy about it since i got it , argh just tonnes of external factors, just how people are behaving. .what some people are telling me or really pushing me to my limits and pestering me . .. . arggh . ... i can;t explain but if u really want to know what i think u can definitely ask me about it ,, , hahahhah but seriously , i am really fricking pissed about it . honestly. .. kk
but its ok~
gonna hit the hay now,
btw, does anyone want to watch a movie ?? no no ~? haha
before i begin,
congrats to those who scored well!, and to those who have improved , of course to everyone who survived this ordeal. !
haha i didn;t know how to react honestly? i was happy at the same time, yet i was a little bit disappointed. that's why i cried and laughed simultaneously. strange emotion really. . . i have not told anyone my scores really. haha other than my family though. Reason being, its such a touchy subject. everyone is dealing with it so differently, reacting differently.. .everyone has their own concerns. . . i guess everyone is curious and concerned about how everyone is doing and coping with the situation. just hope that everyone finds their own solutions soon.
to those who are really concerned, i am fine, satisfied ,, i scored reasonable results, enough to enter most courses . and i am glad that most of my hard work paid off. . It has been really insane for me the past year. , ,, tonnes of crying and studying. haha ~~thank you those who prayed for me, taught me!! studied with me , laughed with me , attended to my emotional needs during this time, and thank You
you know, the moment i got my results,! its so hard to be happy or enjoy what you have reaped. , arggh honestly speaking, i have not been feeling happy about it since i got it , argh just tonnes of external factors, just how people are behaving. .what some people are telling me or really pushing me to my limits and pestering me . .. . arggh . ... i can;t explain but if u really want to know what i think u can definitely ask me about it ,, , hahahhah but seriously , i am really fricking pissed about it . honestly. .. kk
but its ok~
gonna hit the hay now,
btw, does anyone want to watch a movie ?? no no ~? haha
what we could have been, 8:49 AM.
Thursday, March 5, 2009
it feels like the night before i took the first paper. gp.
for the exception that i am not reading notes of course.
spent the evening crying and feeling so scared i remember.
my stomach churned. i lay wide awake on my bed for an hour before crawling up beside my mom's bed saying " mom i can't sleep , , i can't sleep ".
she said i would do just fine .
i never had much trouble with sleep before.
Then, it was different.
Sentences of information regarding controversial issues in society ran through my brain as if my eyes were scanning texts on the paper.
Within an hour my body was still and i fell asleep.
But my mind still as active and alert.
right now i am trying to shove the thought of taking the slip from miss lim's hands away from my mind. My anticipation now, a tinge of anxiety and excitement . . .aye. .. . . .
Trying to get to bed early but i can't seem to keep the damn eyelid shut.
just about 13 hours from now, my life would take a whole new direction, as if following a divine plan or map. i am sick of seeking, now i will let it present itself to me.
I don;t know what to expect. Just saying this, my heart beats faster.
perhaps the dream i had 3 years ago would come to life , except not green, blur and so surreal, but multi coloured and real.
perhaps the moment i described so vividly to my peers to picture would come alive.
perhaps the unexpected would come slowly taking all the colour away from my world.
kk k,, i can;t be too sure about this.
so what if either happened.
it would be different if i had something.
three ways we see, the first, a kid in an endless candy store, not knowing what to pick, all the colours zipping and whirling around him and leaving , not knowing that he had taken the expired.
or, looking into the miserable jar with the expired and a last good candy he did not fancy at the bottom of it.
or, a picky kid in the endless candy store, heading straight only for ones that he loved, and savouring every last bit of sweet. .
just because something is missing, lost, the reason why i don;t know how to become.
. . . . . . . . . . . .
the winds are howling now, some what like strong assurance.
the rain is pouring from the heavens now,
as if burrowing my sorrows or flowing into my heart.
Am i being heard. . ?. .
for the exception that i am not reading notes of course.
spent the evening crying and feeling so scared i remember.
my stomach churned. i lay wide awake on my bed for an hour before crawling up beside my mom's bed saying " mom i can't sleep , , i can't sleep ".
she said i would do just fine .
i never had much trouble with sleep before.
Then, it was different.
Sentences of information regarding controversial issues in society ran through my brain as if my eyes were scanning texts on the paper.
Within an hour my body was still and i fell asleep.
But my mind still as active and alert.
Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus. (Phil. 4:6-7)
right now i am trying to shove the thought of taking the slip from miss lim's hands away from my mind. My anticipation now, a tinge of anxiety and excitement . . .aye. .. . . .
Trying to get to bed early but i can't seem to keep the damn eyelid shut.
just about 13 hours from now, my life would take a whole new direction, as if following a divine plan or map. i am sick of seeking, now i will let it present itself to me.
I don;t know what to expect. Just saying this, my heart beats faster.
perhaps the dream i had 3 years ago would come to life , except not green, blur and so surreal, but multi coloured and real.
perhaps the moment i described so vividly to my peers to picture would come alive.
perhaps the unexpected would come slowly taking all the colour away from my world.
kk k,, i can;t be too sure about this.
so what if either happened.
it would be different if i had something.
three ways we see, the first, a kid in an endless candy store, not knowing what to pick, all the colours zipping and whirling around him and leaving , not knowing that he had taken the expired.
or, looking into the miserable jar with the expired and a last good candy he did not fancy at the bottom of it.
or, a picky kid in the endless candy store, heading straight only for ones that he loved, and savouring every last bit of sweet. .
just because something is missing, lost, the reason why i don;t know how to become.
. . . . . . . . . . . .
the winds are howling now, some what like strong assurance.
the rain is pouring from the heavens now,
as if burrowing my sorrows or flowing into my heart.
Am i being heard. . ?. .
what we could have been, 5:53 AM.
hh. . . .
swift steady strong..
swift steady strong..
what we could have been, 4:33 AM.
Wednesday, March 4, 2009
i used to think that the ok part of myself were my legs.
now its hard not to hate them when they are so easily bruised and increasingly scarred. ugh.
just complaining about the little things. nothing special.
this Friday would may be the last time i drop by that faithful bus stop.
its been long. What would be the reason i get off that stop the next time ?
we really won't know, don't we ? hh, ,
i can't enter the building looking like i blend in ,. cos i know i may not be able to anymore.
hh. . .
what matters is that we finish strong.
now its hard not to hate them when they are so easily bruised and increasingly scarred. ugh.
just complaining about the little things. nothing special.
this Friday would may be the last time i drop by that faithful bus stop.
its been long. What would be the reason i get off that stop the next time ?
we really won't know, don't we ? hh, ,
i can't enter the building looking like i blend in ,. cos i know i may not be able to anymore.
hh. . .
what matters is that we finish strong.
what we could have been, 6:02 AM.
Tuesday, March 3, 2009
i took some time off for myself today.
After working at the clinic, i sat outside some cafe at novena reading a book and freezing myself with a blended alongside the cold weather. .. its been long. . . the cold weather is really nice. .
been having some problems sleeping lately.
my skin is so dry, i keep scratching myself.
i seem to always wake up with my face stuffed into the pillow, and i wake up in the middle of the night cos i feel like i am suffocating. hh.
mosquitoes.
and i keep having nightmares. .. aye. ..
so much for sleeping problems.
lets see. .
what now.
After working at the clinic, i sat outside some cafe at novena reading a book and freezing myself with a blended alongside the cold weather. .. its been long. . . the cold weather is really nice. .
been having some problems sleeping lately.
my skin is so dry, i keep scratching myself.
i seem to always wake up with my face stuffed into the pillow, and i wake up in the middle of the night cos i feel like i am suffocating. hh.
mosquitoes.
and i keep having nightmares. .. aye. ..
so much for sleeping problems.
lets see. .
what now.
what we could have been, 6:05 AM.
Sunday, March 1, 2009
fall from the heavens into my heart
what we could have been, 12:45 AM.
