Wednesday, May 13, 2009
is something wrong with me, ?
everyday thousands of thoughts clutter my mind, i could be there, counting medicine tablets when suddenly, a thought of the embarrassing time pops up and i feel embarrassed and go "oh man i wanna die, i really wanna die"
My aunt says that i am a cartoon character, perhaps she means animated. One moment i could be really angry looking , as if the whole world owes me something ( which it def doesn't) , and the next thing, i could be smiling like theres everything to be happy about.
like everything could be so positive, there is a possibility of everything, anything. like you could be anything you want to be, and that everything that happened REALLY seemed to be there for its purpose, and the next moment , i feel like punching a douchebag. being really irritated with everything else. or , cracking open my skull haha, sounds gory..
anyways, the CONSTANT thing keeps coming up in my mind, its about the whole uni,future,what will i be, will i like it, thing, and its really getting on my nerves. thoughts like
kk the chemist!
kk the businesswoman / accountant!
kk the Therapist!
and kk the teacher.
then i imagine myself with a name tag, holding names like
L.K.K , - -
or ,
imagining students calling me " MISS LOH!~!!! "
or ,
DR. Loh.KK.
or, conversations like
" yah. my accountant ,, that miss loh"
-_- hahaha
i want to pull my hair when i think about all these. haha But i am almost 90% sure with my decision already.. just,, have a little bit of insecurities and doubt,. but !! man @@. . .i'm mulling over it almost every free second i've got! and even if i am preoccupied with something, i am still thinking about it !@@ dang
get it out of my head@@@!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 바보같이
hahaha
but the upside of this is that, with this occupying my mind all the time , i feel that all the embarrassing memories are slowly slipping away, , ,haha
my mind is seriously in a mess . ,햇갈렸다 ㅠ_ㅠ
aiya, i should let it rest.
anyway ,haha this song GEE by SNSD is so funny .every time i hear it on the MP3 on the bus rides to and fro the north and east of Singapore, it makes me feel like breaking out into , it makes you feel like breaking out in a dance. haha,
ok here, if you want to hear the song., haha
Gee-SNSD.MP3 - Girlsgeneration
너무 반짝 반짝 눈이 부셔 No No No No No! ~!!
hhh
and oh!! i really feel like taking on the name ERIN! i really like it. hahahah @@ - -
haha ok i know this has really been random, but i can't explain the randomness happening in my mind so its so hard to really organise my thoughts.
anyway i hope all has been well,
love , laugh , hate , laugh and enjoy : )
잘자!
everyday thousands of thoughts clutter my mind, i could be there, counting medicine tablets when suddenly, a thought of the embarrassing time pops up and i feel embarrassed and go "oh man i wanna die, i really wanna die"
My aunt says that i am a cartoon character, perhaps she means animated. One moment i could be really angry looking , as if the whole world owes me something ( which it def doesn't) , and the next thing, i could be smiling like theres everything to be happy about.
like everything could be so positive, there is a possibility of everything, anything. like you could be anything you want to be, and that everything that happened REALLY seemed to be there for its purpose, and the next moment , i feel like punching a douchebag. being really irritated with everything else. or , cracking open my skull haha, sounds gory..
anyways, the CONSTANT thing keeps coming up in my mind, its about the whole uni,future,what will i be, will i like it, thing, and its really getting on my nerves. thoughts like
kk the chemist!
kk the businesswoman / accountant!
kk the Therapist!
and kk the teacher.
then i imagine myself with a name tag, holding names like
L.K.K , - -
or ,
imagining students calling me " MISS LOH!~!!! "
or ,
DR. Loh.KK.
or, conversations like
" yah. my accountant ,, that miss loh"
-_- hahaha
i want to pull my hair when i think about all these. haha But i am almost 90% sure with my decision already.. just,, have a little bit of insecurities and doubt,. but !! man @@. . .i'm mulling over it almost every free second i've got! and even if i am preoccupied with something, i am still thinking about it !@@ dang
get it out of my head@@@!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 바보같이
hahaha
but the upside of this is that, with this occupying my mind all the time , i feel that all the embarrassing memories are slowly slipping away, , ,haha
my mind is seriously in a mess . ,햇갈렸다 ㅠ_ㅠ
aiya, i should let it rest.
anyway ,haha this song GEE by SNSD is so funny .every time i hear it on the MP3 on the bus rides to and fro the north and east of Singapore, it makes me feel like breaking out into , it makes you feel like breaking out in a dance. haha,
ok here, if you want to hear the song., haha
Gee-SNSD.MP3 - Girlsgeneration
너무 반짝 반짝 눈이 부셔 No No No No No! ~!!
hhh
and oh!! i really feel like taking on the name ERIN! i really like it. hahahah @@ - -
haha ok i know this has really been random, but i can't explain the randomness happening in my mind so its so hard to really organise my thoughts.
anyway i hope all has been well,
love , laugh , hate , laugh and enjoy : )
잘자!
what we could have been, 6:15 AM.
