Wednesday, May 6, 2009
its a tough decision,
i keep saying that i am almost decided, but i am not, really not.
its bugging me, a lot.
if i study local, its between ntu/smu's Acc.at and chem at nus
m0h is really giving me an opportunity, i am so excited about it, at the same time, reality strikes, as to,, studying overseas meaning that i have to be entirely independent and alone?... alone,,, yeah.. and also,, specialized... ...
hh.. i wish perhaps a future me will come back and tell me,., like in the movies,, or perhaps, a note falling from heaven and into my palm giving me an answer. or perhaps, crack open my skull like an egg and pour out its contents,, and read my brain like a palm... haha
now all these are just plain unrealistic,, and the latter is gross. haha.
everyone is asking or telling me, what do you like ? what do you see yourself as in the future? and what do you think you can handle?
hh i wish i knew myself better too, to know what i like,.and better to be. a dream chaser, yeah. that would be nice.
enough of that, its a tough call,,, some serious thinking to do again, the weight of the responsibility of having to decide for myself has faded slightly,, but its still the reality. coming up to me and giving me two slaps saying " you still have to do something about it !!"
haha
about this whole thing ,,, i am not complaining,, im just., what do you say. contemplating carefully...kk
all that aside..
i went swimming today.. didn;t stretch before i swam,, quite a bad idea cos my arm is cramping up.. hhh
oh well,., think well, laugh hard and sleep well.
ps, enjoy this song,, :)
i keep saying that i am almost decided, but i am not, really not.
its bugging me, a lot.
if i study local, its between ntu/smu's Acc.at and chem at nus
m0h is really giving me an opportunity, i am so excited about it, at the same time, reality strikes, as to,, studying overseas meaning that i have to be entirely independent and alone?... alone,,, yeah.. and also,, specialized... ...
hh.. i wish perhaps a future me will come back and tell me,., like in the movies,, or perhaps, a note falling from heaven and into my palm giving me an answer. or perhaps, crack open my skull like an egg and pour out its contents,, and read my brain like a palm... haha
now all these are just plain unrealistic,, and the latter is gross. haha.
everyone is asking or telling me, what do you like ? what do you see yourself as in the future? and what do you think you can handle?
hh i wish i knew myself better too, to know what i like,.and better to be. a dream chaser, yeah. that would be nice.
enough of that, its a tough call,,, some serious thinking to do again, the weight of the responsibility of having to decide for myself has faded slightly,, but its still the reality. coming up to me and giving me two slaps saying " you still have to do something about it !!"
haha
about this whole thing ,,, i am not complaining,, im just., what do you say. contemplating carefully...kk
all that aside..
i went swimming today.. didn;t stretch before i swam,, quite a bad idea cos my arm is cramping up.. hhh
oh well,., think well, laugh hard and sleep well.
ps, enjoy this song,, :)
what we could have been, 5:41 AM.
