Sunday, May 17, 2009
this coming Tuesday, it could really be an opportunity.
i;m digging the depths of my soul, scratching every corner of my brains and thinking about it over and over again.
on one hand, i am being blessed with some opportunities, and the other ,i wonder whether i can cope with it. if i am really given this chance, it could be a challenge which i think i will have to fight and overcome.
I stumbled upon a blog of a person who took up the scholarship, who was thinking about this a few years back. After skimming through some events which he documented , i realized that , if i really am blessed enough to get it, i might not survive. ,.
if they really entrust me with this, it would be a miracle, a blessing, something so important entrusted into my hands . There are so many of them who want this, so many of them who want to do it, so many of them who are capable and qualified to do this! ? ,i could be dreaming.
,,some challenges i foresee,
the study of biology, which i have never done,, the possibility of a strong-accent-barrier, being alone, and finally, comparing my standard of English to many, i feel almost incompetent.
The latter is really a great challenge to me, as i still struggle with, what?, English. Tenses, phrasing. . .Vocabulary.. .. ? ? ?? and of course, patience. . which i feel that, yeah , it might take some time for me to really learn how to inculcate patience in me. . i am selective. i can wait in a queue, but i can't wait to express myself. ..
Taking on this challenge, means that i must really humble myself , and be willing to learn all over again. To every path i choose from now, its definite that i will face a tough challenge, all differing in their nature and type. . but this, could totally, put me in a different zone. .
But all these are based on the assumption that i really do get it, because after all, the interview has yet to happen. They said that they will let me know within a matter of day(s). . haha,,eek, , ,
haha i am thinking too far now,, just wait and see how it goes. . . OK YES i am thinking too far, two days early to be exact. . hahah well that's just me, , , ok yes, i am thinking to far ahead.. haha
because there is also a possibility of me not getting it.
oh well, back to thinking on a local level..
my sister says i should go for the next hi-tea and then decide.
i hope it makes me clear,
and,
I am really sorry to you all,, for you having to put up with me talking about these all the time, that i feel that you might want to slap me ? Forgive me if i have occupied many of our conversations with this, i promise that i will figure this out soon and make it up to you. Its been an all time low.
i;m digging the depths of my soul, scratching every corner of my brains and thinking about it over and over again.
on one hand, i am being blessed with some opportunities, and the other ,i wonder whether i can cope with it. if i am really given this chance, it could be a challenge which i think i will have to fight and overcome.
I stumbled upon a blog of a person who took up the scholarship, who was thinking about this a few years back. After skimming through some events which he documented , i realized that , if i really am blessed enough to get it, i might not survive. ,.
if they really entrust me with this, it would be a miracle, a blessing, something so important entrusted into my hands . There are so many of them who want this, so many of them who want to do it, so many of them who are capable and qualified to do this! ? ,i could be dreaming.
,,some challenges i foresee,
the study of biology, which i have never done,, the possibility of a strong-accent-barrier, being alone, and finally, comparing my standard of English to many, i feel almost incompetent.
The latter is really a great challenge to me, as i still struggle with, what?, English. Tenses, phrasing. . .Vocabulary.. .. ? ? ?? and of course, patience. . which i feel that, yeah , it might take some time for me to really learn how to inculcate patience in me. . i am selective. i can wait in a queue, but i can't wait to express myself. ..
Taking on this challenge, means that i must really humble myself , and be willing to learn all over again. To every path i choose from now, its definite that i will face a tough challenge, all differing in their nature and type. . but this, could totally, put me in a different zone. .
But all these are based on the assumption that i really do get it, because after all, the interview has yet to happen. They said that they will let me know within a matter of day(s). . haha,,eek, , ,
haha i am thinking too far now,, just wait and see how it goes. . . OK YES i am thinking too far, two days early to be exact. . hahah well that's just me, , , ok yes, i am thinking to far ahead.. haha
because there is also a possibility of me not getting it.
oh well, back to thinking on a local level..
my sister says i should go for the next hi-tea and then decide.
i hope it makes me clear,
and,
I am really sorry to you all,, for you having to put up with me talking about these all the time, that i feel that you might want to slap me ? Forgive me if i have occupied many of our conversations with this, i promise that i will figure this out soon and make it up to you. Its been an all time low.
what we could have been, 9:58 AM.
