Friday, May 1, 2009
This week has not been really good, i guess,
maybe 情绪不稳,,just ultra sensitive i think, ,, really beginning to see how friends can let you down, and things like that. perhaps its just that some friends are not aware at all, so perhaps i am being too sensitive.. . .but its ok. . . nobody should owe anybody anything anyway. . .
Many people wish to be children again. I guess its due to the element of not having any worries. Children , are often fearless, ( about many things), like, they could touch some sharp object not knowing that it would hurt them, only after the realization of something called pain , that they stop doing such things again. the adults make the more important decisions for them. They screw up and the reason is " they are kids ,, they know nothing" .. They jump from great heights, they pick up spiders , some even attempting to put them in their mouths. They love, not knowing if love could ever hurt, or turn into a backstabbing affair. things like that. i love you , you love me, and i friend you you friend me.
As we get older, there are more things to be concerned about,, more things to be aware of, more to the list. House, bills, things, jobs, stability. whatever. you make the important decisions.. and what you do now, could affect more people than you think. friends are no longer just play mates but they play a bigger part in emotional ,, dependency? ,, things could turn ugly. backstabbing ,, , lovers become affairs. you don;t do things as daringly anymore, there is something called FACE.
as we step into adulthood. Can we ever have the same kind of fearlessness we once had as a child? Seemingly ,the more you know, the more you become fearful.. is it ? ... but i hope, that noe day, i can overcome more fears , just like a child again,, and hope that i the more i know, the less fearless i will be and just dare to be something...
then, does it mean that, if we ever say things like " i wish i could be a child again".. show that we just want to give up on what is going on now,, and just shirk responsibility? . feels like it.
on the side note, N.U.S finally replied! and they are offering me a place in their science faculty~!
and Smu and Ntu accepted me into their accounting faculties. ,I am almost decided! haha and i want to make a right choice,, . i really do. . . ._. because, right now ,, i am considering cognitive ( social) sciences,, and science.. . ., its a whole set of.. things to consider again. . . head spins when i think about it. . . .
but you know, just something about entering an entirely new school and having to make new friends again, it makes me feel quite weary,,, just,, something, . .
괜찮아요. .
할수있어@!
maybe 情绪不稳,,just ultra sensitive i think, ,, really beginning to see how friends can let you down, and things like that. perhaps its just that some friends are not aware at all, so perhaps i am being too sensitive.. . .but its ok. . . nobody should owe anybody anything anyway. . .
Many people wish to be children again. I guess its due to the element of not having any worries. Children , are often fearless, ( about many things), like, they could touch some sharp object not knowing that it would hurt them, only after the realization of something called pain , that they stop doing such things again. the adults make the more important decisions for them. They screw up and the reason is " they are kids ,, they know nothing" .. They jump from great heights, they pick up spiders , some even attempting to put them in their mouths. They love, not knowing if love could ever hurt, or turn into a backstabbing affair. things like that. i love you , you love me, and i friend you you friend me.
As we get older, there are more things to be concerned about,, more things to be aware of, more to the list. House, bills, things, jobs, stability. whatever. you make the important decisions.. and what you do now, could affect more people than you think. friends are no longer just play mates but they play a bigger part in emotional ,, dependency? ,, things could turn ugly. backstabbing ,, , lovers become affairs. you don;t do things as daringly anymore, there is something called FACE.
as we step into adulthood. Can we ever have the same kind of fearlessness we once had as a child? Seemingly ,the more you know, the more you become fearful.. is it ? ... but i hope, that noe day, i can overcome more fears , just like a child again,, and hope that i the more i know, the less fearless i will be and just dare to be something...
then, does it mean that, if we ever say things like " i wish i could be a child again".. show that we just want to give up on what is going on now,, and just shirk responsibility? . feels like it.
on the side note, N.U.S finally replied! and they are offering me a place in their science faculty~!
and Smu and Ntu accepted me into their accounting faculties. ,I am almost decided! haha and i want to make a right choice,, . i really do. . . ._. because, right now ,, i am considering cognitive ( social) sciences,, and science.. . ., its a whole set of.. things to consider again. . . head spins when i think about it. . . .
but you know, just something about entering an entirely new school and having to make new friends again, it makes me feel quite weary,,, just,, something, . .
괜찮아요. .
할수있어@!
what we could have been, 7:18 AM.
