Wednesday, August 19, 2009
you know, being me for over well, nearing nineteen years, i never really imagined to describe myself as extroverted, until people keep talking about extroverts as if i am really one.
people tihnk that i am predictable because of the way i behave or whatever.
people think this think that, but they are all wrong,
its awlays like that, so what if i can make myself comfortable in a totally new unkown and strange social situation. does that mean that i have many good friends:?
why do i find myself lonelier than ever now that i have made more friends.
why am i always alone then
is it that i choose to exclude myself
like how i am shunning almost every other social event, or what not.
like how i find it so difficult to maintain a fun conversation , just one person to the other.
hate me hate me hate me
psychologically tormented every other day,
i wanna forget!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! why do i not forget the stupid things,,,,,,,,, save me!
people tihnk that i am predictable because of the way i behave or whatever.
people think this think that, but they are all wrong,
its awlays like that, so what if i can make myself comfortable in a totally new unkown and strange social situation. does that mean that i have many good friends:?
why do i find myself lonelier than ever now that i have made more friends.
why am i always alone then
is it that i choose to exclude myself
like how i am shunning almost every other social event, or what not.
like how i find it so difficult to maintain a fun conversation , just one person to the other.
hate me hate me hate me
psychologically tormented every other day,
i wanna forget!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! why do i not forget the stupid things,,,,,,,,, save me!
what we could have been, 9:39 AM.
