Friday, September 11, 2009
can i just promise myself that i wont be so dumb the next few days,
yes, i shall just keep mum...
OH PLEASE i have no such time for such juvenielle and dumb things,
i msut not be so dumb ok
when your heart and mind does't work together, that is just plain , irritating ,, now my mind is saying NO! I DONT WANT IT , but my heart is so wilful, hahaha so dumb dumb!! hahah i wish i could control my heart like some puppet.
why, you kept my hopes up so high ,and then you let me go suddenly. You know that feeling ? i hate it , i hate it ,i hate it. False hope man,. when you keep lying to yourself that its gonna be ok, when you realise that you;re gonna hit the ground eventually.
i am a kid, on the inside still, i am still a kid, so childish.
i wanna go out and play, but, no one wants to go and play with me. = (
FINALLY feel myself tuning into lectures. OR at least, taking away something new from each lecture. FINALLY really!!! u know the feeling is omg, good. becuase after entering almost 16X 5 hours worth of lectures and having every word from the lecturer to seemingly repel from my brain like an alpha particle approaching a nucleus, i finally feel like i am learning , LEARNING!
Birthday birthday birthday, i just hope this year it would be good, that there wont be someone complaining about something else. someone angry about some one else, nothing negative please.
what do i wish for this year?
intanglibe... hugs! free hugs! no kidding,
tanglible, i dont know,
see i dont even know what i want, how can i even decide the important things? haha
but its okay~~~
anyway!! gonna do some mugging now,
yes, i shall just keep mum...
OH PLEASE i have no such time for such juvenielle and dumb things,
i msut not be so dumb ok
when your heart and mind does't work together, that is just plain , irritating ,, now my mind is saying NO! I DONT WANT IT , but my heart is so wilful, hahaha so dumb dumb!! hahah i wish i could control my heart like some puppet.
why, you kept my hopes up so high ,and then you let me go suddenly. You know that feeling ? i hate it , i hate it ,i hate it. False hope man,. when you keep lying to yourself that its gonna be ok, when you realise that you;re gonna hit the ground eventually.
i am a kid, on the inside still, i am still a kid, so childish.
i wanna go out and play, but, no one wants to go and play with me. = (
FINALLY feel myself tuning into lectures. OR at least, taking away something new from each lecture. FINALLY really!!! u know the feeling is omg, good. becuase after entering almost 16X 5 hours worth of lectures and having every word from the lecturer to seemingly repel from my brain like an alpha particle approaching a nucleus, i finally feel like i am learning , LEARNING!
Birthday birthday birthday, i just hope this year it would be good, that there wont be someone complaining about something else. someone angry about some one else, nothing negative please.
what do i wish for this year?
intanglibe... hugs! free hugs! no kidding,
tanglible, i dont know,
see i dont even know what i want, how can i even decide the important things? haha
but its okay~~~
anyway!! gonna do some mugging now,
what we could have been, 10:48 AM.
