Monday, September 14, 2009
mannnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn
how to forget
how to,
i think i am a big meanine leh,
so mean,
@@@@ must change that
why do people tihnk i am so superficial/? or dumb,
is it becuase i keep portraying myself that way,
must stop that, haha
ah just hope people would stop being so angry with each other, @@ and generate ECosts ,,
why am i becoming so tidmid, and so reluctant? this cannot be !!!! i am learning and becoming someone i really dislike, haha ,, i am not taking any risks!! so unfufilling, so,,, everything,ah i am boring myself to death. living a life without any risks, living it without doing anything that can contribute. i must change, perhaps joning some committe would be good. doing sometihng for others.
always like that, is that so expected of me? so child like, never ever really growing up, moving around in the shallow ends of the pool, never realy eating real food other than baby paste, haha should be reading real sutff like the bread of life but, i dont.
and even though being able to realise it,i am not taking any responsibility by doing anything about it. so childish
CHILDLIKE, alyway always.
i must learn ,. frmo my idol! shes freaking BOLD daring and she takes chances! a seeker, a DIVA! a dreamer. thats what i will be. AND SHE DOESNT WASTE TIMEEE!!
must. learn. improve. MOVE ON! have a fricking mind of my own!! I WILL PERSIST!
SIANJIPUAREALLY
how to forget
how to,
i think i am a big meanine leh,
so mean,
@@@@ must change that
why do people tihnk i am so superficial/? or dumb,
is it becuase i keep portraying myself that way,
must stop that, haha
ah just hope people would stop being so angry with each other, @@ and generate ECosts ,,
why am i becoming so tidmid, and so reluctant? this cannot be !!!! i am learning and becoming someone i really dislike, haha ,, i am not taking any risks!! so unfufilling, so,,, everything,ah i am boring myself to death. living a life without any risks, living it without doing anything that can contribute. i must change, perhaps joning some committe would be good. doing sometihng for others.
always like that, is that so expected of me? so child like, never ever really growing up, moving around in the shallow ends of the pool, never realy eating real food other than baby paste, haha should be reading real sutff like the bread of life but, i dont.
and even though being able to realise it,i am not taking any responsibility by doing anything about it. so childish
CHILDLIKE, alyway always.
i must learn ,. frmo my idol! shes freaking BOLD daring and she takes chances! a seeker, a DIVA! a dreamer. thats what i will be. AND SHE DOESNT WASTE TIMEEE!!
must. learn. improve. MOVE ON! have a fricking mind of my own!! I WILL PERSIST!
SIANJIPUAREALLY
what we could have been, 9:52 AM.
