Tuesday, September 15, 2009
Omg
am i starting to irritate the F out of my friends like how i annoyed my sister the other time? By being the me that i think is acceptable?
whats worst. The fact that you can;t accept yourself for who you are, or that you are unsure of who you are.
sometimes i just act weirdly becuase i dont knwo what to say.
even though i laugh much but i am serious. i am serious. or that i dont take many things lightly. I am too easily affected. i dont know why.
omg me mememememem
can i please stop talking about me for many moments. That everytime i have to end off with a comment about me, i am seriously becoming someone i really HATE.
the fact that i will WHAT! loudly if i hear some shocking news, and i really hate it when someone else does it, but i seem to be doing it myself.
or the fact that i really hate the fact that someone keeps whining about something they cant do. but i AM doing them myself.
the fact that i am talking to myself, nad acting all weird, but i always talk to myself@@@
why am i becoming so tidmid, and so reluctant? this cannot be !!!! i am learning and becoming someone i really dislike, haha ,, i am not taking any risks!! so unfufilling, so,,, everything,ah i am boring myself to death. living a life without any risks, living it without doing anything that can contribute. i must change, perhaps joning some committe would be good. doing sometihng for others.
always like that, is that so expected of me? so child like, never ever really growing up, moving around in the shallow ends of the pool, never realy eating real food other than baby paste, haha should be reading real sutff like the bread of life but, i dont.
and even though being able to realise it,i am not taking any responsibility by doing anything about it. so childish
imust let the " novelty " of the feeling, just 4 weeks ago, to fade away, really must. i really really must T_T
feelings, please, plesae , go away
i knwo that i do not have the maturity to be placed in certain situations yet. so please, i pray that i will learn from here, that i would be able to accept the things that come, and be prepared. whtehr or not if its for a relationship, or perhaps, a certain trust, job, responsibility.
GOTTA FOCUS!!!
:) love laugh and live !!
am i starting to irritate the F out of my friends like how i annoyed my sister the other time? By being the me that i think is acceptable?
whats worst. The fact that you can;t accept yourself for who you are, or that you are unsure of who you are.
sometimes i just act weirdly becuase i dont knwo what to say.
even though i laugh much but i am serious. i am serious. or that i dont take many things lightly. I am too easily affected. i dont know why.
omg me mememememem
can i please stop talking about me for many moments. That everytime i have to end off with a comment about me, i am seriously becoming someone i really HATE.
the fact that i will WHAT! loudly if i hear some shocking news, and i really hate it when someone else does it, but i seem to be doing it myself.
or the fact that i really hate the fact that someone keeps whining about something they cant do. but i AM doing them myself.
the fact that i am talking to myself, nad acting all weird, but i always talk to myself@@@
why am i becoming so tidmid, and so reluctant? this cannot be !!!! i am learning and becoming someone i really dislike, haha ,, i am not taking any risks!! so unfufilling, so,,, everything,ah i am boring myself to death. living a life without any risks, living it without doing anything that can contribute. i must change, perhaps joning some committe would be good. doing sometihng for others.
always like that, is that so expected of me? so child like, never ever really growing up, moving around in the shallow ends of the pool, never realy eating real food other than baby paste, haha should be reading real sutff like the bread of life but, i dont.
and even though being able to realise it,i am not taking any responsibility by doing anything about it. so childish
imust let the " novelty " of the feeling, just 4 weeks ago, to fade away, really must. i really really must T_T
feelings, please, plesae , go away
i knwo that i do not have the maturity to be placed in certain situations yet. so please, i pray that i will learn from here, that i would be able to accept the things that come, and be prepared. whtehr or not if its for a relationship, or perhaps, a certain trust, job, responsibility.
GOTTA FOCUS!!!
:) love laugh and live !!
what we could have been, 6:49 AM.
