Wednesday, January 13, 2010
Things I want to do before I die
1) Be a host of an event
2) Speak on the microphone in front of audiences and get a good response
3) Perform on the piano for a public at least once or a wedding
4) Act in a movie or a show!!
5) To be a face for something like campaign :D HAHAHA
6) Top the cohort for a module. At least once! Just once is all I ask for
7) Go for an overseas exchange programme. Be a FOREIGN student at least once!
8) Go for a voluntary community service program
Haha and still others I;ve not written.
Well some of these have been things I’ve always wanted to TRY! But you know
Part of me has always been a coward. Part of me has always wanted to be in the limelight. Part of me has always been so scared of criticism. Part of me has always been feeling inferior. I never dared to be in front of a camera cos I never thought I would be pretty enough. Part of me has always been scared to even step up and take a microphone because I can’t even stand my own voice.
It is not because things are difficult
that we do not dare.
It is because we do not dare
that they are difficult.
~ Seneca
Part of me also have been surrounded by friends who are mostly skeptical of such activities.. I think I fear being judged by them the most. ... If my fear were just taken away and if I loved my own voice and my own image then that would be awesome. It just boils down to being more secure with myself. Who I am. Who I am . I can’t even say my name is _ _ _ w/o being ~~~ about it . .. .
Haha ok this year I want to learn how to be more secure in my own skin. To be more secure of who I am . to know who I am even more ! to know what I like, what I don’t like. I can’t seem to have a good stand on anything! It’s like to me, everything is ok,, because I am ALWAYS compromising! Perhaps its just me that I don’t dare to be ,, cos I fear that friends me or whatever if I am so opinionated. But I realized that…. Haha being so compromising all the time is so bad,, so so bad,, I mean people don’t trust me cos I change my mind so often.
I wont depend on others to make me feel secure. I will rebuild myself.
Its going to be a great year I will never forget : D
1) Be a host of an event
2) Speak on the microphone in front of audiences and get a good response
3) Perform on the piano for a public at least once or a wedding
4) Act in a movie or a show!!
5) To be a face for something like campaign :D HAHAHA
6) Top the cohort for a module. At least once! Just once is all I ask for
7) Go for an overseas exchange programme. Be a FOREIGN student at least once!
8) Go for a voluntary community service program
Haha and still others I;ve not written.
Well some of these have been things I’ve always wanted to TRY! But you know
Part of me has always been a coward. Part of me has always wanted to be in the limelight. Part of me has always been so scared of criticism. Part of me has always been feeling inferior. I never dared to be in front of a camera cos I never thought I would be pretty enough. Part of me has always been scared to even step up and take a microphone because I can’t even stand my own voice.
It is not because things are difficult
that we do not dare.
It is because we do not dare
that they are difficult.
~ Seneca
Part of me also have been surrounded by friends who are mostly skeptical of such activities.. I think I fear being judged by them the most. ... If my fear were just taken away and if I loved my own voice and my own image then that would be awesome. It just boils down to being more secure with myself. Who I am. Who I am . I can’t even say my name is _ _ _ w/o being ~~~ about it . .. .
Haha ok this year I want to learn how to be more secure in my own skin. To be more secure of who I am . to know who I am even more ! to know what I like, what I don’t like. I can’t seem to have a good stand on anything! It’s like to me, everything is ok,, because I am ALWAYS compromising! Perhaps its just me that I don’t dare to be ,, cos I fear that friends me or whatever if I am so opinionated. But I realized that…. Haha being so compromising all the time is so bad,, so so bad,, I mean people don’t trust me cos I change my mind so often.
I wont depend on others to make me feel secure. I will rebuild myself.
Its going to be a great year I will never forget : D
what we could have been, 8:45 AM.
