Monday, February 22, 2010
my heart is sinking deeper in
is it me that always takes self pity on myself
that i am actually just not being thankful for the things that i alerady have
one way you look at it, sometimes we think that we deserve more than that, but no the other hand, there are something we don't even deserve.
when i look at it, i walys feel that eVERYONE deserves it. everyone has it, but me. BUT is it that i am just obliviant even though its staring straight at me in the face ? .
i felt quite angry today,
its a rare occurence i guess,
i dont normally get angry, unless its regarding - ultimate questions -
even if i do get angry ,its easy to make it up to me, i;ll laugh within seconds,
how many of your very own "good friends " can tell you this characteristic about yourself. ,, you wonder,
this is not my place,,
no this is not what i had in my mind,
not this restricted life,
not anything
i feel like i am losing interest in whatever i am doing,
i am so dead at this rate;
T_T.
i just need another living organism to interact with me
social deficit,
aye;;;
can you see the frustration that is burning within me ,
this impatience, the desperation,
its getting riddiculous
and 6 blimming long years is long enough
ITS ME;; its me
i know there must be a problem lying somewhere , how am i supposed to know what is it ?
i wanna die
pelase kill me
is it me that always takes self pity on myself
that i am actually just not being thankful for the things that i alerady have
one way you look at it, sometimes we think that we deserve more than that, but no the other hand, there are something we don't even deserve.
when i look at it, i walys feel that eVERYONE deserves it. everyone has it, but me. BUT is it that i am just obliviant even though its staring straight at me in the face ? .
i felt quite angry today,
its a rare occurence i guess,
i dont normally get angry, unless its regarding - ultimate questions -
even if i do get angry ,its easy to make it up to me, i;ll laugh within seconds,
how many of your very own "good friends " can tell you this characteristic about yourself. ,, you wonder,
this is not my place,,
no this is not what i had in my mind,
not this restricted life,
not anything
i feel like i am losing interest in whatever i am doing,
i am so dead at this rate;
T_T.
i just need another living organism to interact with me
social deficit,
aye;;;
can you see the frustration that is burning within me ,
this impatience, the desperation,
its getting riddiculous
and 6 blimming long years is long enough
ITS ME;; its me
i know there must be a problem lying somewhere , how am i supposed to know what is it ?
i wanna die
pelase kill me
what we could have been, 6:28 AM.
