Tuesday, August 31, 2010
정말 기분이 이상해요.......
울고싶어,,,
죽고싶어 ( 조금. )
학교생화를 너무 심심해요.
매일 공부 공부고부해요.
하하,.,,
난 바보같다 ,.
진짜 힘들어,,,
구해줘요. !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1
아!!!!!!!!!!!!!
what we could have been, 8:57 AM.
Monday, August 30, 2010
Dear lord,
becuase you can see my desperation,
you can totally see this train of thought of mine, which is going everywhere,
unorganized and i;m partially unsetteled.
i thought i have put all these things aside and not looked for other things
but i still keep looking for alternatives.
i still don't know what i am doing,
would you then tell me what i should do?
There are so many things, which i had imagined and yet it looks like they may not come to past .
i don;t know what to do,
i dont like it here,
not really, so to say. haha
maybe becuase i don;t know where else i should be going
i dont know if i am feeling peace because i made the right choice
or that becuase i am totally in my own comfort zone,
something i know that i will definitely survive doing.
beyond that, i cannot see, but for now it feels ok.
haha,
i just know that i am - -- - like that.
Guide me in my ways O Lord.
amen
what we could have been, 8:26 AM.
Tuesday, August 24, 2010
so,
its been an eventful few weeks of school
even though just a few lectures. 20+ lectures, i;ve learnt. a lot . quite a lot. haha
well im a tough strong girl and nothing can make me anything less than that.
what we could have been, 9:18 AM.
Monday, August 16, 2010
so, its been the fourth day of school.
um, kinda alright, the modules seem pretty ok ,
haha
annoying cos i kinda forgot the important things which i took so much time to understand last semester, but its all fine i am quite sure that i can remmeber them if i took up the notes and read them like i was going to die again.
have i told you how depressing it is
suddenly when i delve deep into these things i can;t seem to find my way out of it ,
is it me or what
that the things you like, does not seem to coincide with the talents you have,
simply put it, you dont have teh talent for the things you like,
i dont know what is the reason for this ,
but its kinda frustrating,
perhaps this is when u are supposed to place youreslf in a place of trust and believe,
but
i think its highly unprobable.
sigh, seems liek all the questions i have, have such vague answers
yet i am still searching high and low for them
argh i dno man
haha,,
still on the search
one day if you do ask me questions
i hope i can answer you
what we could have been, 9:13 AM.
Friday, August 13, 2010
God please bring me out of this situation.
i;ve come to a point whereby,
someitmes i am so busy lookin out for why i have a reason to be disapponted with them
perhaps its becuase i do think this way, thats why i feel like that,''
or its that, becuase they really do think this way,
my firends are selfish no doubt,
but its ok
i am still trying to understand this phenomenon.
how does everyone becoem so self sacrificing for someone like That?
i still cannot understand
and i cannot undrstand why these people were placed in my life.
Everything happens for a reason,
i must be blind, i still cannot undersand the reason for these things,
soon, soon i will understand
what we could have been, 11:33 PM.
Tuesday, August 10, 2010
wahhhhhhhh :(
what we could have been, 12:03 AM.
