Monday, August 30, 2010

Dear lord,

becuase you can see my desperation,

you can totally see this train of thought of mine, which is going everywhere,

unorganized and i;m partially unsetteled.

i thought i have put all these things aside and not looked for other things

but i still keep looking for alternatives.

i still don't know what i am doing,

would you then tell me what i should do?

There are so many things, which i had imagined and yet it looks like they may not come to past .

i don;t know what to do,

i dont like it here,

not really, so to say. haha

maybe becuase i don;t know where else i should be going

i dont know if i am feeling peace because i made the right choice

or that becuase i am totally in my own comfort zone,

something i know that i will definitely survive doing.

beyond that, i cannot see, but for now it feels ok.

haha,

i just know that i am - -- - like that.

Guide me in my ways O Lord.

amen

what we could have been, 8:26 AM.