Friday, September 10, 2010
a part of me wants people to treat me seriously
and another part of me wants to make people smile and laugh
hee, its hard to accomplish both especially when u want to make a straight point without sounding too strict... and on the other hand people just laugh at me and say i am naggy..
wtv, so long i make my stand i dont care how others think of me .
oh yes, so i have been thinking of SEP and what not ,
but , its a hard choice becuase i was thinking if i go it;ll def be next sem or year 3 sem 2 ..becusae
in year 3 sem 1 i def want to take the forensic science module ( WHICH IS ONLY AVAILABLE SEM 1) -_- ..................
i think its quite ludicrous becuase i didnt get it this year, and having this limitation ,the only time i would be able to take this is year 3 sem 1, which means that the only times i have left to go for SEP would be year 2 sem 2 or year 3 sem 2 .. .and, having to be able to map chemistry modules? i dont know if it be good to do them overseas cos it may screw up my foundation if itsnot done well.. hee
but on theo ther hand i could choose to do a summer programme : )and at least gto on a lighter note 1 ) not to clear cOre modules. 2 ) to have fun too
yes have i not mentioned that i always imagined to study overseas, never in my life have i thought that i;d be in a local uni studying what not this that, i awlays thought htere were no courses in uni that could really suit my interest ,, and now that i kinda, PSEUDO/forced some kind of interest in myself that i landed myself in this course . too late for regrets now.
but it does not mean never will i be able to go overseas, just means that i could either do further education else where, or that i could just do a summer prog. haaa i think that is the only way to do it, if i were to really take a Fsc minor,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,, and i better get it next sem.
oh well , i now have succumbed to the fact that YES i am in this course and i am to stick through with it.... sigh the past year i ve been through school thinking of switcihng courses ALL THE TIME........................ thinking if i dont do well or what not i can still change, ane evne though i study the behavior of all these electrons,,,,,,,, it will come to naught if i change course. But now that i have succumbed to this, to the fact that i am in this, there is no turning back, perhaps onloy being able to consider the deviation of paths in the farther future, that i can only now start to pick up my pen and really study............ study study..... and to take my work seriously..
What is God;s plan seriously man
soemtimes i really feel like i need some kind of INstruction manual.
no doubt i am sure i will do my best in everything!!!!
i just need clear indication.
arg.
see, sometimes we are always just trapped in circles.
some trapped in a circle of unforgiveness bitterness, regret, remorse, pity,
for me, i am trapped in this , what is my purpose phase.
terrible
becuase i have no interest
it makes it hard for me to make decisions
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now that i come to this point , i realise that its wrong,
but am i not a bit too old?
haha
tiem for a change........
dont care about what others think!
what we could have been, 10:08 AM.
