Sunday, December 12, 2010
dear blog
probabably facing your biggest fears is one of the things you MUST DO
and proabbly that fear that i feel is the consequence of me trying to hide so so much
o
i myself am so lost inmyself that i dont really know the right answer
i just need time to be more secure with myself
THATS ALLLLLLLLLL HAHA
okkkkkkkkkkkkkkk
anyway good holidays i am actually doing productive things! HAHA
ok
bye~!: )
probabably facing your biggest fears is one of the things you MUST DO
and proabbly that fear that i feel is the consequence of me trying to hide so so much
o
i myself am so lost inmyself that i dont really know the right answer
i just need time to be more secure with myself
THATS ALLLLLLLLLL HAHA
okkkkkkkkkkkkkkk
anyway good holidays i am actually doing productive things! HAHA
ok
bye~!: )
what we could have been, 7:34 AM.
Friday, December 3, 2010
dear blog
i am a a monster
because i really hurt someone i cared about.
though the person may say that they are ok,
i just feel , uneasy
you are not being honest with me arent you
i am so sorry that i made you be someone you are not
i want to call you , iwanna text you
i wanna know if u are ok , or if u are hurting
if you are ok, then, me being selfish, wanna ask why you are still cold to me
if you are not ok, i want you to know that i dont feel that you have done anything wrong to me, that if you are having self righteous guilt then that is not right,
and if that is what is bothering you i really hope u can forgive yourself becuae God, and I perhaps have forgiven you alr!
if u say you can't face me then what is the reason,. ? hmm?
yeah i erally wanna know what goes on in your mind,
i love being in your company and i love being around you
its so sad that the very person who makes you feel all that, just
has to stay away from you
and i dont want to be selfish
i guess i should give you your own space too.
i want to call you
i want to hear your voice
i want to know if you are happy
you know what is the happiest picture i have had of you?
haha.
if we are ever together thats how i want you to be.
i am a a monster
because i really hurt someone i cared about.
though the person may say that they are ok,
i just feel , uneasy
you are not being honest with me arent you
i am so sorry that i made you be someone you are not
i want to call you , iwanna text you
i wanna know if u are ok , or if u are hurting
if you are ok, then, me being selfish, wanna ask why you are still cold to me
if you are not ok, i want you to know that i dont feel that you have done anything wrong to me, that if you are having self righteous guilt then that is not right,
and if that is what is bothering you i really hope u can forgive yourself becuae God, and I perhaps have forgiven you alr!
if u say you can't face me then what is the reason,. ? hmm?
yeah i erally wanna know what goes on in your mind,
i love being in your company and i love being around you
its so sad that the very person who makes you feel all that, just
has to stay away from you
and i dont want to be selfish
i guess i should give you your own space too.
i want to call you
i want to hear your voice
i want to know if you are happy
you know what is the happiest picture i have had of you?
haha.
if we are ever together thats how i want you to be.
what we could have been, 6:57 PM.
