Monday, March 28, 2011

dear God
i swear that i will be happy tomorrow regardless of what.

: )
amen

what we could have been, 9:12 AM.

Sunday, March 6, 2011

dear blog
i feel so extremely. negative about
my studies.
and myself
and

GOD save me out of this
help me to conquer this thing
help me to get back that me ,
that me who was so motivated to do well
that me who wouldn't let anything get in the way of me doing well
the me who could laugh at everything
that me who chould make everything so fun
that me who would study all the way without complaining
that me who wouldn;t blame anyone
that me , who was doing something though everyone didnt want to do anything

that me who once strived so hard
that me who once had so many dreams
and was such a day dreamer
that me who could make something big out of smoething so small
that me who aspired everything studying overseas and all that

that me who once wanted all these things
but that me is finding it so hard
to trust again, after being set back so hard so many many times by three people.
that me who is finding it so hard, to continue after so many years
that me who is finding it so hard, to keep trying for 7 years,
that me who is still trying hard to believe after so many years
that me who is trying to smile and recover from this mess.
that me who was once so motivated and confident.

that me, whom i love so much.
i will find her again
i promise.

what we could have been, 8:07 AM.

Friday, March 4, 2011

dearest BLOG
ive never said anything like "im screwed" or "cmi" for my studies before.
maybe its becuase i never let myself have the chance to.
i made sure that i dont elet mhyself have the cance to
and that is by making sure that i study almost every single thing

AND I FAILED TO THIS TIME
arhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
:T

on the other hand its so exciting to be able to see someone else do well! : )

what we could have been, 7:23 PM.

Thursday, March 3, 2011

dear blog
nus is really mean.
haha

its 130 am and i am so tired. HAHAHAHHAHAHA
GOTTA MEMORISE STUFF BYE!

what we could have been, 9:25 AM.